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devon bought me a book a few years back called blessing or curse you can choose by derek prince in the book he explains how and why people are cursed and blessed from a biblical standpoint i read the book and it was great.. he brought up some great points the reason i just told you that is because i want you to understand that what i'm about to tell you is explained in that book what i want to tell you is that i believe my parents cursed me recently basically my dad asked for a favor and i said no and this offended both of my parents.. later on i called my dad and said i would do the favor but i was quickly able to discern that they had been talking about me like a dog because i said no earlier i haven't read the book in a while but the thing about it is it explains that there are certain authorities in the world and God has placed them there.. court judges, school teachers, and parents to name a few well these authorities have the ability to bless or curse on some level one thing he talks about in the book is how cursing someone doesn't really have to be like a legitimate curse or even a curse word.. it can just be negative banter well basically i made my parents upset, i noticed my life got pretty odd here are some of the things that happened --they gave us a really long and mind-numbing task to do at work.. it was extremely tedious and boring to the point where i actually had to pray against anger.. i'm talking about worse than the tps reports from office space.. it was just an extremely long and boring task --these annoying gnats kept coming into my apartment.. but it didn't seem normal because for one, they seemed to only bother me when i sat in front of my imac.. so what this meant was i couldn't really get anything done.. i wanted to look for jobs or write or do something productive but everytime i would try, one of these gnats would get in front of my face.. it got so bad that i ended up just saying forget it and leaving the house.. i endured a whole weekend and a few weekdays of this the second aspect that made these gnats weird was that it seemed like there was always only one.. one day i remember i had killed like 5 or 6 of them but each time i killed one there was another one.. so it was like "yes, i killed it! now i can get some work done!" and 30 seconds later there was another one it just began seeming like it was unnatural --my check engine light came on in my car.. my car is still pretty new.. i had no idea what was going on with my car.. i scheduled an appointment at the dealership and everything, but i was definitely dreading paying the amounts i knew i would owe for maintenance those were some of the things that occurred anyway, back to me saying no to my dad... after i realized how offended my parents were, i prayed that God would forgive me for offending my parents or something like that.. even though i hadn't made the connection between them and my issues, and even though i didn't say no to hurt them, i just asked God to forgive me because i could tell they were offended, and i think He did forgive me ... and i feel the proof is in the fact that He removed my affliction, which i will explain now.. so while all of this was going on, at one point my dad called me and in our conversation i was telling him i was getting stressed over some things.. one of which is the fact that i've still been trying to find a job and it has gotten a bit discouraging so after i told him about how upset i was, i later went to sleep and when i woke up the next day things were better i noticed i was able to be at my computer without the gnats, and my check engine light literally went off by itself.. i also eventually finished all of that stupid task at work i thought about it a little and i was reminded of that book i believe what happened was, i made my parents upset and their disappointment in me resulted in negative banter about me now there are two diff ways to look at how the negative banter works 1. words + sentiment + authority = energy aimed at me that become tangible circumstances 2. positive words give angels power/permission to carry out tasks for a person.... and negative words give demons power/permission to carry out tasks against a person either way you look at the how of it, i think their anger and disappointment became words and those words brought pain into my life but i think when i told my dad how bad i was doing, he was moved to pray for me.. and so i believe his prayers canceled out the curse i received and brought me back to a place of normalcy this idea is found in the bible also.. there were some times where an offended party prayed for the offending party and God lifted the offending party out of affliction speaking of the bible.. the concept of getting blessed or cursed by ones' father is in there as well, especially with the story of jacob and esau i hope i said this in a way that was understandable moral of the story is try to be on your parents' good side because they are a God-given authority in your life and if they speak about you (positive or negative) it can impact you in unexpected ways my recommendation is if you're not at peace with your parents then try to patch it up i hope this wasn't too far-fetched for anyone look in your own life.. do u know anyone who has a terrible relationship with their parents? do you know anyone who has a great relationship with their parents? which one of these people prospers the most in life? just a thought anyway, have a good day
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i want to explain something i've learned about women and their lies one thing men should know about women's lies is this: women lie so much that sometimes it's almost as if they're not even lying how does this work? well what i've noticed is many of them lie so much that their entire life is a lie when your entire life is a lie what happens is it's like you're playing a role let me give an example if you remember the ninja turtles then you remember their favorite food is pizza so let's say one day i decided to act like a ninja turtle... if you came up to me and asked me what my favorite food is when i was acting like a ninja turtle, then i would say "pizza" and that's how many women are.. they lie so much that its like a role they play so that's what i mean when i say it's almost like they're not even lying.. because if i am acting like a ninja turtle and u ask me what my favorite food is then saying "pizza" is the correct answer... but the problem with women is, oftentimes you won't know they're playing a role and speaking to you as someone else.. the bad girl is speaking to you as the good girl the whore girl is speaking to you as the naive girl, etc if i was acting like a ninja turtle i might put on a headband, i might change my voice, i might do a karate kick.. but with a woman, there's no prompting.. there may be no indicator that she is playing a role.. she's just sitting across from you portraying the character she wants you to see she may be physically pretty, positive, playful, loving and all smiles... but inwardly she may very well want to deceive you, use you, make a fool of you, and destroy you think about paris hilton.. remember when she was super popular and always playing the role of a dumb girl? then one day she decided to use her real voice and the illusion was over with that's how many women are in their lives they lie so much that it's almost like they are just constantly acting.. so when you ask them questions, they are oftentimes literally answering as their persona and not as themselves this is a very important thing to understand about women that's why it can be so puzzling to get to the truth, even to simple questions... because she has a representative.. and she may not always know whether she should respond as her actual self, or her persona but just understand that with women, many times you're not even talking to the girl who is in front of you, many times you're talking to her representative, and her representative has nothing but positive and/or socially acceptable traits meanwhile her true self is looking at you and analyzing you and thinking, plotting, planning, and sizing you up... but she's only dealing with you through her representative this is why so many things with women don't add up.. because they lie to a point where you're not even dealing with a traditional liar, you're essentially dealing with an actor have you ever tried to ask a woman some questions and you thought she was taking too long to answer? i believe sometimes that's because they're literally thinking "should i answer this as myself or as my representative?" "should i answer this as myself or as the (insert conjured up image here)" these pictures are good examples of what women are like.. they aren't just lying, they are playing a whole different role so if you ever find yourself puzzled about who/what a woman really is
understand that her lies may have actually reached acting status.. and you may be dealing with someone who doesn't actually exist at all one more thing before i go.. i think oftentimes this is why women are able to leave relationships so easily.. because if they were acting the whole time then there's no actual emotional connection, for you it was real but for her it was just another con usually when i stumble across some really good music i try to post it here on the site well i ran across this yesterday and i listened to it at work and i was pleasantly surprised don't quote me on this but this album seems to have no cusswords on it.. the reason i say don't quote me is because i only listened once and i didn't even finish the entire thing.. but from what i heard.. its pretty clean as far as language also from what i heard.. this thing is a great listen.. like i said i didn't finish listening but i got far enough to say wow this is nice btw i think common is better than black thought.. not saying you have to choose one or the other, but i kinda see them as being somewhat similar.. but common imo is better.. something about black thought imo is very boring.. also i feel that common has a better range when it comes to subject matter (no diss to black thought, he's really good) common's worst album to me was universal mind control.. that thing was a total dud imo anyway.. this album is great the best way to understand any confusing behavior from a woman is to assume the worst
this is a legitimate rule i've discovered from many dealings with women over time everything a woman does that is confusing can be explained if you just assume the worst to any guy reading this.. if you are wondering "why" this is one of the most important things i've learned in the past few years... here's the thing, a woman who truly loves and respects a man with sincerity will not do weird things.. when you call she will answer, when you probe she will open up, when you give she will reciprocate, when you put in effort she will be happy, when you pull back she will be upset, when you need her she will be there, when you go through something she'll be by your side, she will cooperate instead of compete, even if she does somehing lame like lie to you- she will eventually come around and tell you the truth so when a woman is not being consistent in these ways then you know she is out for self.. she's not in the relationship for the same reasons you're in it this is why i don't agree with people when they say "it takes two to ruin a relationship" because the truth is sometimes there's just one person ruining it sometimes you go in it for love and for the long haul while the other person goes in for selfish and/or superficial reasons that won't hold up past 3 to 6 months when a woman does something weird or inconsistent .. like say you call her and she doesn't answer when you KNOW she should be able to pick up the phone.. its confusing UNTIL you assume the worst.. once you assume the worst you know what's going on she is counting on you not assuming the worst.. she is counting on you believing whatever flimsy excuse she tosses your way but let me tell you- from my experience, anytime a woman becomes confusing, that in and of itself means that she doesn't have your best interest in mind here's what we men oftentimes do.. "she is confusing and driving me crazy, how can i get her to calm down? how can i get her to see that she is being inconsiderate?" when you look at that thought process, its like we are trying to fix a problem someone else is causing.. and women are hoping we do this because it allows them to do whatever they want while we are blamed for it its not my job to make a grown person act right.. its not my job to make a grown person see the error of their ways, if they can't conduct themselves properly then i should just find someone who can women are the more sensitive gender so she already knows she is being inconsiderate and she knows her actions are inconsistent.. she is just trying to play dumb and keep you strung along for the ride for whatever reason.. maybe because you are emotional support, or financial support, or attention, or all three.. but the reality of it is.. women have two modes.. act right, and act wrong once they start doing little things that cause your eyes to squint from unease or confusion- that's when you have to do one of two things 1. assume the worst and catch them in the act of whatever you are assuming (because she will not tell you the truth) 2. leave her altogether and find a woman who is going to walk in loyalty, love, and humility towards you and your relationship any men reading this i challenge you right now test me on this think about any situation from your past where a woman did something confusing now assume the worst THERE IS YOUR ANSWER.. there's no more confusion here are some examples of confusing behavior that can be understood by assuming the worst: why didn't she answer the phone? she was with another guy why didn't she call me back? you were never the only one why did she visit her cousin out of town with me, then go back to visit her cousin again without me the next day? she wanted to tell her cousin things about what she does behind your back why does she always get so upset over nothing? she has the temperament of a child.. you thought she had a bad week, but she is literally just an overgrown kid why does she keep telling me not to compare her to other women when i don't even do that? because she compares you to other men why does she keep details of her life a secret from me? because she doesn't trust or respect you why did she say she had to go all of a sudden when i asked her details about her business trip? because it wasn't a business trip, she stayed with a guy and they had sex the whole time why was she upset yesterday but now she's super happy? because the guy she was seeing behind your back finally reached back out to her ASSUMING THE WORST IS THE SHORTCUT TO UNDERSTANDING EVERYTHING THEY DO believing a woman's flimsy excuse only leads to more confusion, frustration, and exasperation the reason why this "assume the worst" technique works is because a good woman won't leave you confused.. she will be eager to reassure you of her love and commitment so when you run into a confusing and inconsistent woman, it means she is out for self this is why assuming the worst accurately explains all of her behavior if you've been going through it with one of these modern women, i hope what i've said here helps shed light on the situation have you ever noticed how often women say things like "i want something real this time" or "i want a relationship, not just sex"
all this means is she has a pattern of flings that were based on sex these women are not serious about relationships so why do they say they're serious about relationships when they really aren't? they see their friends in actual relationships and at times they think they may be missing something by comparison so they decide to say they "want something real" so they can have you approach them like a gentleman and they can tell their girlfriends they went on a real date the problem with this is they are telling YOU to be a gentleman, meanwhile she herself is still the same woman she's always been at heart.. this is why all she does is destroy the relationship, treat you with disrespect, lie to you, deceive you, cheat on you, etc.. because she lacks the self awareness to realize she is the reason she has traditionally been treated as a fling a respectable person would say "i have had a string of lust-filled friends with benefits relationships and i don't have commitment and can't build a family on this, so let me change MYSELF" but what women do is they say "i'll just tell the next guy that i'm not that type of girl and i'll tell him i want a real relationship" so what this does is it puts her responsibility onto you.. its really her responsibility to get her mind and heart right wih God so that she can be a wife, but instead she throws it onto you and tells you to TREAT HER like a wife in other words- they think they're not wife material because they haven't been being treated like wife material by "stupid men" ..but the fact is they aren't wife material because of their own mind, heart, and behavior so this is where the average guy comes along.. he comes along and sees "hey this girl is saying she wants a real relationship." so he reasons: "she's not going to be playing games with me." WRONG since she has never held herself accountable in the first place and she just blamed men for her issues- she is going to do the same thing in the relationship.. meaning she will act the same way she always has and then blame you for all of the issues this is what you will get from her: "its your fault i lied to you" "its your fault i flirt with other men" "its your fault i have no peace" "its your fault i cheated on you" "its your fault i'm always upset and complain about everything" "its your fault i have never truly forgiven whoever hurt me in the past" "its your fault i wear my pain instead of moving past it" another thing to realize about women who say things like "i want something real this time" or "i want a relationship, not just sex" is this: they have gone in and out of "relationships" repeatedly which means she won't have any allegiance, loyalty, or commitment to you she has no "we're going to work this out" button.. all she has is the silent treatment button, the "do it or else" button and the i'm leaving button (which is typically just the "i'm cheating on you" button) if she has left 30 guys prior to you then do you really think she'll have a hard time leaving you? she has developed a habit of just jumping ship whenever she feels like it.. she won't put real effort into anything.. she will likely have one foot in and one foot out the entire time you're with her good luck trying to walk into marriage with this type of woman the truth is she will leave you at the first sign of something she doesn't like because that is what she has always done in "relationships" that have everything except commitment the other problem with this is it adds to women's narcissism.. because if you're used to "i get what i want or i leave" then of course that contributes to you being spoiled and gives you an inordinate affection to self remember: in the last days perilous times shall come. men shall be lovers of their own selves steer clear of women who say "i want something real this time" or "i want a relationship, not just sex" because she is really just saying "i have had a string of fake relationships that i never took seriously" and "i have a history of having relationships based on nothing but illicit sex" which means the chances of you being able to pull a wife out of this shell of a woman are nil i was talking to my cousin's husband a week ago and i like how honest he was as we were having conversation
he was telling me about his life and he said "before i met my wife, i'm not proud of it but i was a whoremonger" LOL dude kept it so real so many people would have sugarcoated it with "u know, i was dippin and dabbling" or something or if it had to do with drugs they would say "i experimented a little" knowing they were poppin them thangs like pez tablets lol this man just came out and said "i was a whoremonger" man that was so funny to me but i appreciate and respect his realness, honesty, and willingness to call a thing a thing, especially when looking at himself i like that guy a lot if i met him on the street somewhere i'd be trying to get one of my female friends or family members to date him a really upstanding guy if you ask me.. i'm glad my cousin got a good guy usually when women in the family bring men around, you can't help but think wow you could've done better than this.. maybe not in looks but in character (but on second thought, maybe they can't do better because they're not where they should be as women, and therefore can't tolerate a man with a pure heart and upstanding character) anyway, every time i see bro he keeps it 100 and he shows respect.. i got a lot of love for him and i hope only good comes to him and his family i keep seeing people online saying there's no such thing as too far or too personal in rap beef
they keep citing rap beef from the 90s considering 2pac and big both died in their 20s THERE IS A SUCH THING AS TOO FAR i am just writing this because i want to raise consciousness and awareness of this manipulative tactic.. i also figure why not purge this tidbit when you run into manipulative people they can throw you off but if you know what to look for then you can be ready for what they dish out recently i heard about a thing called darvo.. this stands for deny, attack, reverse victim and offender i haven't studied this at all, however i still want to speak on it because for one it seems self explanatory, and for two, my ex did this to me on the last day of 2016 i remember on the last day of 2016 we went to church well she took offense to everything so in the car on the way to church i said to her "i asked so and so what they would do with a million dollars and they said..." and she got upset she said "why don't you ask me questions like that?" that's what i mean when i say she took offense to everything.. something that small made her upset so because of this, when we got in church she didn't sit next to me so when we left i was heated and i was going to break up with her for disrespecting me that way.. what kind of woman comes somewhere with you and doesn't sit next to you? well she noticed this and she flipped it on me with what i now know is darvo deny, attack, reverse victim and offender once she noticed how angry i was, she denied wrongdoing, then attacked me (can also be deflection) then she went to work on reversing the victim and the offender roles i was the victim with the right to be angry, so she started acting like she was the one who should be upset i'm obviously taking her home and she says something like "you can take me home" acting unbothered acting like she's had enough of my antics smh she even ended up saying something like "we can break up and start the new year single" now looking at it today and understanding manipulative tactics and understanding darvo and all that stuff, it looks obvious.. but at the time i was disarmed i wish i would've just stuck to my original plan of breaking up with her but her reverse psychology threw me way off.. it was like being angry at someone and as soon as they notice it, they act like they're the angry one so they won't have to be on the defense, and this subconsciously throws you into "let's work it out" mode i did realize i was manipulated later on but i didn't give it much further thought by then.. and that is what a narcissist counts on, they count on you just putting their abuse behind you, because it allows them to continue to escape accountability... but recently when i heard someone explain darvo, it added validity to my thoughts and feelings concerning the experience so anyway.. that was what happened that day, and it's a really embarassing thing for me to acknowledge.. its legitimately embarassing for me to say how much i was manipulated... but if this helps one man then i don't regret writing this so to any man reading this... look out for manipulation look out for reverse psychology and look out for that darvo because if you fall for it, chances are whatever comes next won't be pretty because that manipulative person knows they escaped discipline here's a video on darvo.. its not necessary to watch, i just thought why not add a video here for the sake of convenience.. just quick and easy further reference if you're interested basically |
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