i want to talk about the 3 great albums i found this year
they're all kinda like 90s throwback albums in my opinion at least also each one is a great listen all the way through they're all somewhere around 30 minutes.. short and sweet nuclear daisies self titled 29:35 this album is phenomenal.. one of my favorite bands ever is curve, and this album sounds like a curve record.. it's amazing.. loved it from the first listen narrow head satisfaction 36:15 this album is like an early to mid 90s rock album but its new.. excellent songs on this thing.. the whole album is great but there are some standouts too like "cool in motion" for example fleshwater we're not here to be loved 26:15 this is like a late 90s rock album, this is the most aggressive of the bunch.. the songs are very varied within themselves.. something really good to play loud in the car
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i just did a 5 day water fast.. i have 1 hour left
i lost 16 pounds like i said, 1 hour left as of right now, i think my purpose in life is to help uplift others and be a bright spot for other people
i tend to care about other people .. i haven't always acted that way, but i feel like i'm coming more into my identity lately when i went to the funeral my homie trevor was talking to me about his music.. i was listening to him and asking him about it because i noticed his high level of passion for it.. on the way back i listened to some of his mixes and i was giving him some of my thoughts he text me and said "thank you for giving a f*** about the music" it kinda hit me like.. dang does no one else take time to show interest? lately i feel like things like these are my calling in life.. to help people to know they are important and to check on people and to help speak life into people one thing that bothered me about the funeral was i kept thinking i wish i could've helped.. i wish there was something i could've done to help pull my friend out of his situation the fact that that is what i was thinking has somewhat helped me to realize that i should try to help people in my everyday life because that is what i feel passionate about deep down.. its not something i've ever really thought about.. but just recently i've been thinking about it.. it feels like it is some type of hidden or dormant ability i never knew about even at church i feel like my primary role is to be a support system.. my primary way of supporting is financially.. that is my ministry i feel lik overall my purpose in life is to lighten peoples' loads, brighten peoples' days, and uplift people and help them to know they are important and that they matter and that they are cared for also it is my purpose to back people up, lighten loads, lighten moods, and support people i will give an example of one day when i lightened a mood one day all our family was gathered for thanksgiving and we were all taking turns speaking about someone we were thankful for when my cousin went, she ended up saying something about her mom and when she said it i noticed her eyes started to water because her mom passed.. so the mood could've went south next up was my turn.. when it came to me i said i was thankful for my niece even though she asked me ridiculous questions like how to spell "cd" everyone busted out laughing and that potentially sad moment passed in my heart, lately i feel like its my duty to be there for people in a personal way.. i may not say anything to anyone in a crowd.. but when u and i get on the elevator and we're alone, just u and i.. i'm going to ask you how you're doing and i'm going to try to make u understand that i really want to know the answer to that question i remember one time when i was a teenager this guy was dissing himself really bad because he had acne.. i was like no man, you're cool.. don't worry about it bro.. i don't remember everything i said and i'm not going to try and make anything up.. all i remember is this guy's whole mood changed when i was done talking to him and everytime i saw him he would greet me with a big smile like i said all this stuff is coming to me recently.. this isn't stuff i ever really thought about before.. but lately its kinda just becoming apparent to me what i'm here for as it pertains to people around me i help to offer a level of stability that wasn't there before.. emotional, financial, really whatever is needed anyway.. these are just my current thoughts have a good evening peeps there's a guy at my church who my sister would really like
i mentioned him to her and i showed her a video of him (my church posts sermons on youtube, and bro gave a testimony.. that's how i was able to show her a video of him) my sister turned down the idea of talking to him let me just go down the list of boxes i checked for my sister when i tried to hook her up with this brother 1. single? check 2. saved? check 3. career? check (was a college professor, currently works in a prison and he has subordinates... oh yeah, and my sister is a teacher, so they actually have teaching in common) 4. good with kids? check (he has 3 of his own, and they're about the same age as my sister's 3 kids) 5. her type? check (he is dark skinned and looks like malik yoba.. this is totally my sister's type) 6. tall? check.. i'm guessing dude is about 6'5 7. dress well? check 8. willing to meet her? check (i called him and he was receptive) 9. smart and a good speaker with a natural charisma? check 10. has a lot to say and teach? check.. he has interesting perspectives on things and he has a biblical outlook, and he's writing a book on top of that guess what his testimony was in the video i showed her? in his testimony he said he works in a prison and he prayed two people out of their deathbed i will go as far as to say i'm probably never going to try to help her again because.. my sister in my opinion has some serious issues.. she kept saying "i'm not desperate" smh.. i don't know what she was talking about.. i guess she wants to just do it on her own but i've talked about that before women trying to hunt for and pursue men.. good luck, it'll never work i'm probably way more upset than whoever is reading this may realize my sister is on her own.. my hands are officially washed a lot of people got ps5 this holiday
i thought about it and realized the ps5 really doesn't have many exclusive games the only ones i can think of is ratchet and clank and destruction all stars returnal is on pc god of war ragnarok is on ps4 little big planet sackboy is on ps4 miles morales is on ps4 horizon forbidden west is on ps4 the last of us remake is on pc kena is on ps4 i mean.... name any game and its on something other than ps5 i don't think anyone really cares about destruction all stars so ratchet and clank is the only ps5 exclusive right now really so in a sense, i don't see why people are so hype about the system i believe even street fighter 6 will be on ps4 so its like... there's not much reason to buy one right now if u think about it i went to the funeral
drove from here to my old hometown of battle creek, michigan i guess i'll try to break everything down this was a long drive so i made two stops on the way.. after work i packed everything and drove 3 hours to my parents house and crashed there when i got ready to leave the next day i drove like 6 hours to ohio and crashed at my Aunt Tonya's house then when i left there the next day i drove like 5 hours to battle creek, michigan i drove around to some of my old stomping grounds.. i went to the two houses i used to live in.. i also went to my old schools... elementary, middle school, and high school it was crazy i was having flashbacks then i checked in at the courtyard marriott then i went to this sub place called jersey giant.. came back to the room and just chilled.. the room was really nice and i enjoyed being in there.. it felt very cozy and the lighting was nice so it was relaxing.. it was also modern and i enjoyed the view out the window it felt good being in my old hometown woke up the next morning, mcintosh (one of my best homies) text me and invited me to go to breakfast at the corner cafe with him and tim... went to that.. it was fun.. couldn't finish the food, it was a lot.. it was really good though they went back to his house after that.. they said they would come to the funeral home a little later.. i went straight to the funeral home though because i didn't want to miss anything got there and saw madd people i hadn't seen in 20 years.. it was nice to see peeps.. we chatted and caught up with eachother eventually it was time to go to the military salute thing.. because my friend who passed served in the military for a bit went to that and i pretty much broke down during that.. there's something about that military service thing where being there live kinda gets you.. they shot some guns and played that trumpet song, and folded the american flag and all that i was kinda trying to relax and just think about something else like video games or something but the tears were just streaming my friend sean held it together really well and he gave me a reassuring hug.. and so did ben mcintosh asked me if i was going to meetup at another spot, i had to say no.. i was done after that salute service.. i just needed to leave because i had enough.. it was too sad from there i went to mancino's pizza and subs in battle creek.. then i drove from michigan to my parents house.. stayed the night.. then drove the last 3 hours back to my house the next day i'm very glad i went and i'm very grateful that the Lord gave me a safe trip as for my homie who passed i feel like he went before his time.. they said he overdosed.. he wasn't married and he had no kids knowing him, he wouldn't have wanted this to happen.. he had a spirit of success and faith and a spirit of fighting and dealing with adversity.. but i kinda think maybe deep down there may have been a weakness he didn't want to address i'm not saying i'm right about that.. but that's my perception.. because i don't think he reached out for help.. he was like an independent person.. and sometimes those people aren't forthcoming about needing help anyway.. i'm not sure what else to say so i'm out peace this is josh in my old bedroom.. he always seemed to like our house this was when we went to mindy's birthday party.. mindy was always really nice to us this was in mrs ohm's math class this was me in his bedroom.. i just wanted to show some of his style on this picture.. with the posters and stuff mindy's party.. we had a crazy sense of humor where we liked to act like we were violent.. so we tried to make it seem like we were ripping her arms off or something josh goofin' off with latrice that crazy sense of humor again he was eating chocolate powder.. like swiss miss or something smh just snapped this of him drinking diet coke.. he drank it like it was normal coke but that stuff was gross to me.. i guess that's the only kind his mom bought
there are so many things i guess we can't share anymore but thank you for being such a good friend.. you will never be forgotten love you, bro today i found out one of my best friends since like 7th or 8th grade passed
i haven't seen him in person in madd long, but we stayed friends this whole time i don't know what happened to him or anything i've been sittin here in shock and sheddin tears and blowing my nose last year i had a strong desire to send him a gift.. i didn't know why... maybe this is why.. because God knew he didn't have much time left i'm glad i sent the gift and got a chance to tell him i valued him |
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