i've talked a lot about my terrible relationship with my ex
i want to just make it clear that i am healed from that trauma i don't hate her or anything like that.. i will admit that yes i did reach a toxic point where i was having a hard time letting everything go but i don't think i stayed in that place for long at first i was just venting a lot, it took time for me to get to a toxic place.. but once i got to the toxic place i realized i couldn't stay there u may ask how i got out of the toxic place.. to be honest it was actually really simple 1. created ways to protect myself from future bad relationships 2. removed reminders of the bad relationship 3. did things for intrinsic enjoyment all of these things helped to separate me from the negative feelings and they all just put distance between myself and the relationship i am now healed.. i still want to finish my book and everything.. but i am healed.. i don't want any harm to go to my ex i hope she is doing well, i understand i did wrong by being with her in the first place and i have to accept my part in things i also realize i put her good looks and appearance over her behavior which put me in a position to have bad experiences also, i know she had her own issues.. her dad seemed toxic and i think that affected her, among other things overall, i just wanted to speak on my healing because for one, i don't think i've touched on it before, and for two, maybe it can help someone else if u feel someone has wronged you or if you're disappointed that something didn't go the way you wanted it to go, please let it go.. pray, ask the Lord what u need to do to move forward.. and if any (non-toxic) ideas come to mind then go ahead and do what you're told you can get past the hurt and the pain.. i wish u the best because i know what it felt like when i was stuck in that toxic zone.. but i think if i got out then you can too may God bless lets GO!!!!! around a week ago i did an entry on guys in gaming who want to be women
well i figured i'd make a new post because i stumbled across another one here are the ones i mentioned psyniac ian from easy allies kim justice jim sterling jada from ign @jada_rina the one i found out about today was the sphere hunter i have probably been subbed to the sphere hunter for about a year and didn't know it was a guy two things did cross my mind.. one was.. "she seems too logical to be a female" and the other thing was "her voice sounds kinda off" i didn't pay those things too much attention though.. i kinda shrugged them off anyway.. this stuff is just very weird.. and what's worse is the fact that some straight people support this nonsense i unsubbed from the channel i've heard people on multiple occasions say people stay in bad relationships due to low self esteem
i don't really agree with this.. i mean i kinda do, but i tend to think its deeper than that i wrote out all the reasons why i stayed in my toxic relationship i figured i would write them here, and if the Lord allows, i can expound on them later here are the reasons i stayed in my horrible relationship for so long no particular order: trauma bonds wanting a relationship i had a complex she was fine i received some bad advice rebelling against disposal culture reverse psychology no sense of self those are all the reasons.. i want to come back and give the full rundown of these.. stay tuned this appears to be a plot hole of horizon zero dawn and forbidden west
if the robots took out humanity, and new people were created via AI, then why aren't the new humans destroyed too? they're basically saying zero dawn took out all the people on earth.. but when the new AI humans arrived, they were able to survive they're still regular humans so how are they able to live against the same robots that took out everyone previously? i was just thinking, i know the head of youtube must be a female because they've been making so many stupid decisions
i looked it up just now and i was right what prompted me to have this thought was the realization that i can't even see the date of some videos now its like unbelievable how they continually make the platform worse and worse little by little you turn on a youtube video and people are talking in coded language and misspelling words because they can't talk about anything real without being demonetized yet if they have a video with a boy putting on makeup, they're going to promote it as much as possible sometimes people say so much stuff thats on point that i deem them to have a healthy measure of wisdom .. this is one of those times.. she kept it 1000 have u noticed women only act right when they do wrong?
for example.. women are supposed to be submissive and have a meek and quiet spirit right? they're supposed to be sweet and pleasant and cool right? they're supposed to be flexible and go with the flow right? oftentimes they will act this way in their onlyfans, in seductive photoshoots, porn, when they're with the guy they choose to fornicate with, etc but when u put an upstanding man in front of them he is the one who has to hear about how she's independent and doesn't need a man, and won't be no man's doormat, and how she won't bow down for no man and how she's educated and don't need a man telling her anything am i the only person who has noticed this? where is feminism at the club? where is feminism in porn? where is a woman's stubbornness when she's doing wrong? where's all that arguing and where's that bad attitude when she's doing wrong? nowhere to be found but let u be a good upstanding man.. u gnna have to hear every feminist trope that was ever created she's gnna let u know you can be replaced, she don't need you, she's gnna tell u how u only got your job because you're a male, she's going to annoy you half to death with comparisons about "why is it ok for a man to do such and such but not a woman," she's going to nag and complain and be obstinate.. she's going to claim to want a traditional marriage with you, but will refuse to take your last name without hyphenating it.. she's going to bring the good upstanding commitment minded and God fearing man every stupid idea she ever had but those same thoughts and ideas are absolutely NOWHERE TO BE FOUND when she's doing wrong when she's doing porn- she's all smiles, she's feminine and cute when she's out with her friend with benefits- she's flexible, she's not argumentative, she's sweet when she's doing work for her onlyfans- she's smiling for the camera, she's blowing kisses at the men who support her, she's asking her fanbase what they want her to wear WHERE IS THAT HAPPY, FLEXIBLE, AND SUBMISSIVE SPIRIT WHEN THEY'RE OUTSIDE OF THOSE TYPES OF ENVIRONMENTS? i'm not saying all women, but time and time again i've seen that modern women only act right when they do wrong i am so tired of men being obsessed with women, sex, and female validation
over and over and over again men make everything about those things how many times have u said something to a man only for him to call you an incel after you tell him they make everything about women.. by calling someone an incel, you are basically trying to say "you don't have value because you aren't getting female validation" but my thing is WHO CARES? who are women that we need to impress them and appeal to them? what makes them so special? if its just the fact that they look good then you have the wrong priorities.. if u look around u see men making everything about women all the time but what about you yourself? what about friends and family? what about God? why do they make everything about women.. half these women have the personality of a rock.. they are super lame.. i can't tell u how many times i've tried to talk to a woman who hit me with one word responses back.. women are lame and have nothing to offer .. they're not fun all they do is whine and complain and i don't mean all women, but a lot of them.. they can't hold a conversation for nothing.. yet they will tell you its you who can't hold a conversation.. and that's another thing, they're always projecting.. always telling you things about yourself but they're always things they need to tell themselves women saying things like "men like toxic women" WE ALL KNOW ITS WOMEN WHO LIKE TOXIC MEN or they'll say something like "i'm unbothered" if you're so unbothered then why are you so vindictive? its men who are unbothered everything they say is backwards, i could continue with examples.. everything they say is totally clown world i am just tired of men acting like women are some amazing prize, these women are usually skanks u don't get your value from women, you get it from the Lord.. the bible says you're fearfully and wonderfully made.. the Lord knows how many hairs are on your head.. He cares for you.. so you don't need female validation.. stop making your life about female validation yes we want support from women but yall go overboard and act like women are some type of big deal.. THEY'RE NOT and they're fairly easy to replace.. what have they traditionally done? cook, and clean? i can literally replace women with paper plates and takeout im just tired of men making everything about sex and female validation.. not even marriage and family, just sex and ego boost.. like do yall care about anything else or nah? no cap i wish women were still behind a paywall
the paywall for one ensured their protection.. they weren't being ran through when they were behind the paywall.. because random guys couldn't get to them also it allowed for real men to get women.. like in the bible when saul was like.. "whoever kills goliath can have my daughter" i wish society was still like that.. it would incentivize men to achieve these days women are just banging whoever they think looks good so everyone loses women lose because they are being ran through, they don't have real relationships, they aren't getting provision or protection.. and they end up sharing men good men lose because they are largely ignored by women, and by the time a woman does finally want a good man, she's been ran through, she is on psyche meds, she has an std, she has kids, she has mental issues from her bad relationships and abortions, etc etc. men who are in high demand by women can use women as much as they want.. but for the most part they kinda lose too, because they just end up as baby daddys.. for example look at the guys in the nba.. they have so much female attention that it kinda tends to backfire in a sense there was a time when fathers kept their daughters and u didn't have to play a bunch of stupid games to get women.. instead u just had to prove to her dad that u were an upstanding and respectable man i prefer that setup over the current setup our current setup is just a situation where pretty much all women are just for the streets and they only want a stable relationship when they realize they can't get one anymore (aging out of prime years).. or when they are financially desperate on a personal level, if someone came up to me and showed me a picture of their daughter, and said "do this and you can have my daughter" i feel like that would be a dream come true if she was fine- and i realized "hey there's a straight line to this beautiful woman" i would be madd excited and happy that i get to earn a beautiful and pure women ... whatever they asked me to do would be an afterthought.. i would be on some whistle while i work type thing but its not a straight line today.. these days its all about game, pick-up artistry, being tall, and just overall appealing to the woman think about how amazing david was in the bible ask yourself, would women have recognized his greatness? if i remember correct, they said he was the smallest of his brothers we need to get back to a place where women are reserved for men this current situation where women are just out there giving themselves to whoever they think looks the best needs to stop |
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