i bought a cheap desk
i am hoping to take it back to the store.. but just use it for the time it takes to order another desk anyway.. for anyone wondering, i definitely dig my new apartment its brand new.. no one has lived here prior to me i am glad the Lord allowed me to get back on my feet.. living with my family was pretty humiliating one funny thing is i've seen some people be kindof envious of me.. but they may not understand the things i've been through.. they don't understand the ups and the downs, they just see me moving into this apartment, no kids, nice clothes on, hair cut, etc but they don't know about all the things i've been through.. i'd say my last year and a half to two years have been straight nuts its october 2019 i'm on my 4th job since october 2018 i've just been through soooo much.. i moved like 5 times in the past year or so i also have had issues with my family because of course they didn't want me living there i mean.. my life has just been insane even recently i've had some issues with my lower back and having pain to where i've barely been able to get my clothes on as of right now though i feel very blessed i am very thankful to have this job and this apartment and it feels great to have all of my things in one place again it has been mind boggling getting my things out of storage after a year its nearly unbelievable seeing all my things again and having so much.. having trash bags and socks and batteries and doubling my wardrobe etc etc.. it feels good having all my things again.. when i got all my stuff i was like wow because i still have cleaning products and contact solution and many supplies its also nice having access to my ps3 again.. because i only had my ps4 when i was staying with family.. and i have all my dvds and games on deck i am very thankful to be where i am in my life.. and i'm happy to be single because i know how painful it can be being with a woman who doesn't appreciate you anyway... i'm happy to be back in a place where i can hear myself think again.. so hopefully i will be writing in here more but anyway peaCe for now
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just wanted to let anyone who may be reading know this
i do not yet have a desk in my apartment my previous apartment had a built in desk so i was able to write fairly easily i will have to buy a desk in this new apartment so that is part of the reason why i have not been writing believe it or not even when i was staying with family.. it was horrible because they had no desk area they have an office but i didn't like the chair and i didn't like their computer.. also it was their office meaning, someone might be in there, it wasn't like a place i could always go i am hoping to get a desk soon, if i am able to get one i think i may start writing a lot more like i used to this seems like a small thing but it's not.. i hate places without desks.. to me a desk area is just as important as a kitchen or a living room or whatever anyway... i am hoping i will be able to have a desk within less than two weeks.. so bare with me right now i'm typing this in the kitchen writing on something like a couch just makes me want to watch tv or fall asleep but i really believe if i can get a nice desk then i can get back into a writing groove one more quick thing i want to say
a porn star works at my job about a year or two ago i was on plenty of fish and i tried to talk to this girl well she never responded to me but i was curious about her so i googled her name because it seemed to have a ring to it.. which made me think maybe she was a youtuber or something when i googled her she ended up being linked to two names and i quickly found that she was a porn star this was weird because i remember her profile saying "no sex" and trying to sound like she had standards when the reality was she had none anyway.. fast forward to my job i started on 9/23 she works there.. i saw her one day and it was unmistakable i also saw her a few more times after that i feel that this is a very odd thing... it is odd to me that i work at a job where a porn star works but then again, if u saw her at work u would never know about her other life.. so i may have worked next to these types of people before and just never realized it anyway, for anyone wondering.. i don't think i will speak to her at all soooooooo
i've been through a lot over the past year or two i feel like i am getting back to myself i started a new job 9/23 i moved into a new apartment 10/15 i really hope to come back and start talking in here again still trying to get settled after the move but stay tuned |
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