its past 11pm and its december 31, 2021
so it will be a new year in less than an hour this year for me has been... it hasn't been the best thing ever but it has been good i'll try to list a few ups and downs up: had a new job before i got fired from my old one.. so when they fired me i didn't care, and had a month where i didn't have to do any work while i waited for my new job's start date... also i'm very grateful to no longer have a phone job up: bought my friend josh a qanba arcade stick.. that's the most i ever spent on a gift for a friend.. i gave it to him out of love.. it wasn't for a birthday or anything like that.. it made me feel good to be able to do that down: i kinda had an ongoing lack of motivation this year up: i beat like 9 games this year up: i did those interviews for the upcoming documentary on narcissism up: i made progress on my book down: overall just being alone a lot.. if you follow my site then you know i've talked a lot this year about the forum i go to.. the reason i've been on the forum so much is because i'm pretty much alone without it.. and asia basically kicked me out of her life i think two times this year and it was kinda devastating because i kinda needed someone to talk to.... we are on decent terms now but i don't care about her as much anymore, because she kept throwing me in the trash.. i don't talk to her nearly as much anymore up: finally modded my ps classic and now i have a ridiculous amount of old school games.. literally thousands.. i have literally every snes and genesis game and then some.. and i can save on it too so its better than getting the original games.. very grateful to play stuff like mario 3 again.. i wasn't even 10 years old when i was playin that back in the day fun fact: i was in memphis from late december 2020 to august 2021 so i was in memphis the first 8 months of 2021.. what i liked about being there was A. the women are very pretty B. i was able to go to church.. what i didn't like about being there was A. i didn't feel comfortable B. didn't get to see my family C. i didn't see or get any job opportunities... sidenote: memphis was ranked most dangerous city in the nation this year up: paid my car off in march.. paid it off a year early fun fact: out of all the rappers who passed this year.. i think the one i liked the most was shock g up: i think i got better at using my arcade stick up: by the grace of God i've been able to buy whatever i want this year.. i've been eating really well.. if i want food i just buy it with no issues, i have no girlfriend so i don't have to buy two meals or anything.. its just very nice to be able to get whatever u want to eat without thinking about the cost, or even the drive to get there.. its a great blessing to not have to penny pinch at all.. i remember in the past getting paid and basically only having like $12 leftover for like two weeks after i pay for needs.. but by the grace of God lately i've had more than enough.. i haven't had to even look at my bank account and that is something i'm very grateful for down: i have no direction right now.. i have no real direction in my life.. right now i'm living in comfort, but i need to find out what my purpose is down: driving to and from memphis was horrible (3 hour drive) up: i got prinny 2.. just grateful i was able to get it.. it technically is only out physically on psp and switch but i was able to get it on psn and transfer it to pstv overall i'm very grateful that the Lord has kept us for another year i hope that this year i will be who the Lord wants me to be i hope to be hot.. not cold, and not lukewarm i hope everyone is doing well and that's 2021.. over and out
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start it at 8:35 i want to address what they were talking about there where they were saying they will want a woman, then once they have sex with her they're done with her all i want to say is this is what is awaiting women who leave good men or women who leave their husbands what is awaiting them is not a new fulfilling and loving long-term relationship what is awaiting them is a series of men who want to use their face like a urinal .. and when they're done, they're just done again, they both agreed that they like a woman but as soon as they smash they lose interest and let me clue you in on what they're not telling you what they're not telling you is that a lot of times its not just indifference after sex.. a lot of times it is hatred any female reading this i want u to imagine liking a guy, he flirts with you, he treats you well, then you have sex with him and all of a sudden he hates you if you don't believe me, go read: 2nd Samuel Chapter 13 Verse 11-15 just wanted to point this out.. hopefully it helps someone out peaCe
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this is a perfect example of women treating men like they're women i've seen a lot of this women oftentimes expect men to react to things the way a woman would, and they are disappointed when they don't instead of being disappointed, just realize he is a man and he's not going to operate the way one of your girlfriends would yall really need to stop trying to hold men to female behavioral standards i will say though.. there is another way to view this.. the other way is she snuck the pregnancy.. got off birth control or something without him knowing it, and this reaction is confirmation to her that she made the wrong decision i'd say its one of those.. her expecting men to emote the way women do, or confirmation that trapping this guy was the wrong decision i've been sayin for a while now that they talk to u crazy and they try to bait you into arguments.. then its like everything u do is wrong i argue back, u say im feminine i leave, we no longer have a relationship i slap you, i'm seen as abusive i ignore you, i'm passive i let u keep talking, you take it as a sign that u make sense and now you're emboldened in your stupidity i've been sayin this same stuff for a minute now.. im so tired of modern women and their games did i sign up to have a woman or a child? if im spending all my time trying to make you act right then how am i going to accomplish anything worthwhile in life? i'm supposed to be better off with a woman, not worse.. but most of these modern women aren't a help, they're a hindrance, and that's no cap.. always doing weirdo stuff like trying to make u angry then getting upset when it works i posted the following on a forum and decided to share it here too.. i just want to make a point u can start about 4:35 he explains why he stopped dissing kevin samuels at the end he said "after i watched 5 or 6 videos, he has some very good information" in other words.. he was dissing kevin samuels without actually looking into any of his work i am posting this because i just want to point out that in my experience this is how 95% of people are 95% of people will diss you without really looking into who you are or what you're saying i have noticed people who have only looked at one side of an issue will try to tell you that you don't know what you're talking about.. when they don't even realize- they've only exposed themselves to one side i'm going to skip on examples because generally what happens is i post an example and then all the comments are about the example and not the actual topic but the main point is look into something before u diss it like really look into it look it up on youtube, wikipedia, reddit, etc.. don't just go with whatever narrative you were first exposed to i have been looking into things in my life and i've found out that i was wrong about my first assumptions sometimes sometimes i just buy things to see if i'm right or not.. i remember there was a debate back around 2013 and 2014.. what's better? uncharted or tomb raider? i figured there was no way tomb raider was better than uncharted.. so i bought tomb raider just to see.. i wasn't even interested in the game- i just wanted to see if any of the chatter was justified so my point is, if you see this, please look into things before thinking u know everything about something.. there are a lot of assumptions on this site but not only on this site, everywhere.... its actually kindof exhausting when you really look at it people speak with talking points, not knowledge just look around at people and you will see them doing it- but look at yourself too think to yourself TODAY "is there anything i speak down on that i haven't looked into?" i've had conversations with people where they give me a talking point, then i ask them one question and they're immediately deflecting the reason they're deflecting is because i have just exposed the fact that they have zero actual knowledge backing up what they're saying.. and i just would like peeps to do better i was having a discussion about narcissists with some chick on youtube in the comment section, and i decided to post something she said because it was so real
again, keep in mind she's talking about narcissists.. the narc in her life was a female co-worker who ended up becoming her roommate so here it is: Thank You. I heard someone say, they can block your blessing and steal your anointing. How true! They can really blind you to the amazing destiny God has for you. It's why I said earlier, when the Devil can't get at you, he sends a narcissist your way. I was trying to 'understand' this very bizarre, utterly mad behaviour before me. I'd never encountered such meanness and vindictiveness before and was trying to explain and reason with the utter crazed madness before me. I've since learnt its nothing but a waste of one's time and energy to do so! Crazy needs to be left alone; can't reason with such! Crazy needs to be left with crazy. Explains why she is a three time divorcee' but forever played the victim. I still can't come to terms with how mean and selfish one can be, just want to take and take. If someone is kind to me I can't wait to return the kindness. I now see the primary tool of the enemy is distraction. All the Church talk about repay evil with good, go the extra mile is why I put up with all the nonsense and she sure took advantage of. I needed to have shown indifference instead to all the 'tantrums'. Isaiah 61:1-5 means much to me. I pray He will come through for me. ok so there it was.. i just wanted to post that because it was super real i can tell she went through it.. 100% she even got me to start thinking about what the narc in my life was assigned to take from me.. i always thought she didn't succeed because i didn't make the horrible mistake of marrying her.. but did she succeed at stealing a piece of my destiny? maybe she did and i never even realized it... i should probably pray about it this is currently at less than 14k views.. i am predicting it will blow up eventually just peeped this today, definitely goes i was having a conversation with my mom and she made a really good point
the conversation was about my previous post about black women saying they are unprotected she pointed out the existence of white women being "karens" ..basically them being tattle tales and using their emotions to try and get people in trouble.. and being allowed to make mountains out of molehills she basically said a karen is a weaponization of protection she was saying black women don't have that type of protection privilege, where they can just accuse you of something and cry fake tears and get people to come to their defense now i will say this brings about a few other questions.. like why do people want the right to be a grown baby? ... or do people deserve that level of entitlement? but barring a deeper dive.. i would say that was a good point a karen is basically a weaponization of protection.. and the fact that karens are primarily white women stands as outward proof of the existence of their protection privilege with "protection" being the ability to get people to believe them and defend them basically i do still think women's primary protection comes from a man, but my mom was basically talking more about community protection real quick i just want to say one of the worst matchups in relationships is the good guy with the hood chick slash chick with an edge slash rebellious chick these type chicks are ran through.. and they developed a taste for the hood dude with muscles who doesn't smile and who doesn't call them back.. just comes through to smash and leaves she knows the good guy is a great long term option but she feels like he's just lame will and jada (note will tried this before jada when he went after pepa) russell and ciara (note russell's ex wife cheated on him so he has a history of skanks) devon and meagan devon cucked himself on stage, capin for his wife and putting her clothing choices above God's will for modesty bro read the carfax on these chicks don't be that good dude trying to make your girl A. act right or B. like you... don't cuck yourself by getting with a woman who isn't on your level morally the good guy and the skank slash hood chick slash chick with an edge isn't a good matchup .. let it go yall for real let the fine rebellious chick be fine and rebellious.. u go find someone who matches your wholesome swag bro just let her enjoy what she likes.. don't play yourself i want to talk about something i've heard from black women around the internet
i've heard them saying they are not protected and they are the least protected group of women etc all i want to say is literally 100% of the times i've heard this, i've heard it from women who are not married why do u expect protection if you're not married? like i'm not even trying to be funny but its only unmarried women saying they aren't protected whose job is it to protect you? your husband's job is to protect you, like who else are u expecting protection from? they are saying "black women are the least protected women out of all women" but the truth is black women are the least MARRIED women out of all women i'm not trying to diss black women but your protection comes from your husband, if you're not married and you're running around telling people how proud you are to be strong and independent aka ALONE, then it shouldn't be surprising that you don't have the things that come with a long term relationship with a man literally next time you hear a black woman say she's not protected, ask yourself if she's married, i guarantee the answer will be no black women imo for the most part are gorgeous, they have everything they need to get married, but they are clinging onto being combative, being an "alpha female," being independent, being "bossy" etc etc.. they don't want to submit, they talk to their man crazy, etc.. none of these are disses, i am a big fan of black women but i have dated some and i've seen some of these behaviors yall can't get married with these behaviors so yall are uncovered u guys following me? anyway, thats all but i hope yall see what i'm saying |
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