before i start speaking, i first want to point out that this is in no way me being happy that these things have happened, but i want to touch on some things ok so in my last entry i said the following: "in the past i wanted women to be better.. but now i just stand back and watch them self destruct" with that said: this is a horrible thing, but i just want to point out that these are the types of things i am referring to
if u look on my website i used to talk about how women could make better decisions but these days i just stand back and watch things happen in this case, in the past i would have been saying something like "women need to stop dating thug guys" but today i just peep the headlines and keep it pushin women always say they like the thug because he will protect them, but as i've said before.. which guy is safer? the guy who has a gun? or the guy who doesn't need a gun? who will protect you more? the guy who ends up in prison? or the guy who doesn't? so she wanted to be with the thug in bed and everything, but when her child no longer has a father, then what? and again i want to make clear that i am not dissing her or anything like that.. i just want to use this as an example i mean, is it just me saying this? would a father choose a thug for his daughter? the answer is no, so its not just me saying this women have to choose better or at least get guidance on who to be with another woman like this is angela simmons.. she wanted to be out there fornicating with a drug dealer and then he got killed and now her child does not have his father around i feel that women need to think deeper about the things they do but i don't really think that will happen so i just sit back and watch they want the thug, they want the gangsta, they want the ceo with the tailored suits, they want the slick talking man with the nice car but what does the end of it look like? is the thug going to go to prison? is the gangsta going to beat you up? does the ceo have 1000 other women just like you? does the slick talking man see you as a wife, or as a body? i plan on deleting all of the mgtow material from my youtube
the reason for this is not because i disagree with it or anything like that i still believe mgtow and red pill, and even black pill stuff can be useful and i believe they all have a lot of truth i just want to stop lookin at mgtow because i dislike modern women so much i just don't want to hear about them anymore to be as frank as possible, they are kinda depressing.. the fact that women are so far from the ideal versions of themselves is just such an awful reality that i just don't want to deal with it anymore it is somewhat difficult letting go of my manosphere youtube channels, but it is important to let go so that i can heal and keep my sanity the best way for me to describe it is like..... when i hear about how horrible women are its like a double edged sword.. on one hand it is therapeutic because i like knowing i'm not the only one who has dealt with their crap but on the other hand, its like i re-live a lot of the crap women have put me through and i am just tired of it.. it can be somewhat painful... and it's not just me who deals with this pain.. because i've heard time and time again that "this red pill is hard to swallow" or "this is an uncomfortable truth" or "i hate to be the bearer of bad news, but" etc etc these sorts of statements just mean- this is going to be something that is true but it is likely to hurt you at some point and i am just tired of that hurt.. i have been seeing other people say they want to change what they take in recently also.. i've heard people saying they want to stop watching the news because it is just too depressing.. it is just all bad news and they are tired of it and that is how i feel about the manosphere.. now keep in mind I DO NOT THINK THE MANOSPHERE IS NEGATIVE, and I AM NOT ANTI-MANOSPHERE i still very much am on the side of the manosphere.. i just don't want to hear about this stuff anymore women being so horrible is just a downer.. i agree they they are horrible, but i just want to hear something positive instead i believe most women today are useless as wives.. they are loud, foolish, slutty, vain, manipulative, toxic, obstinate, ungrateful, rebellious, flaky, untrustworthy, and unpleasant but i just don't care as much as i used to because in the past i wanted women to be better but now i just stand back and watch them self destruct also i have learned how nice it can be to just give up on women and be single so i just don't care as much as i used to they can just go on and live their stupid lives sooooo with that said i plan on deleting all my mgtow and red pill channels from my youtube to be honest i already deleted most of them, i just have a few more to go i hope i can replace them with some positive things but that's all u guys take it easy whats up peeps.. i know its been a while but i'm here so let me say a few things on how my life has been ++++++++++++++++++++++ i'm still working from home at the moment.. my job has been kinda getting under my skin because sometimes i get tired of doing the same thing repeatedly i purposely tried to not take much time off work in the first few months so that i could take time off later on, and so far that plan has worked really well.. for the past few months i've been taking the first 3 days of each month off the reason i do 3 days is because in my opinion its kindof a sweet spot for a staycation (5 days if u count the weekend) anyway.. they said if i do this job for one year then i can apply to other positions within the company so that is what i would like to try to do.. as of right now i have 4 months left ++++++++++++++++++++++ that girl from work that i was into went completely off on me the other day i don't really think i want to go into details but i will say that everything she was upset about legitimately wasn't even real.. it was all based on assumption i didn't go off on her back.. i remember saying "the hottest girl i know just went completely off on me, i'm going to go flush myself down the toilet" she didn't say too much after that, then i blocked her on my phone.. and i even blocked her on the skype at work lol ++++++++++++++++++++++ the last of us 2 drops soon.. i never really got hype up until about a week ago when i realized how close we were to release i should probably go delete some stuff off my ps4 so that when it drops i can be ready cuckman and his agendas are a concern to some extent, but honestly i played horizon zero dawn and i hated the feminist agenda, but i enjoyed it quite a bit as a game.. so i am approaching tlou2 in a similar way ++++++++++++++++++++++ i would like to get a new imac i don't know if i told u guys.. i think i did a while back but like.... i tried the 5k imac at the store and it was phenomenal.. so i am hoping somehow i'll be able to afford one of those things soon the bible says if you want something, you should write it down and make it plain so maybe i should do that i remember one time back in 2007 i wrote down everything i wanted, because i wanted to like.. change my life at the time so i allowed myself to write down everything i wanted.. even things i didn't think i could afford well the crazy part was- 2 months later i had the top two most expensive things on the list those things were, a computer and a car so i don't know- i guess sometimes you have to allow yourself to believe something even when you don't know how it can happen ++++++++++++++++++++++ lately i've been listening to hella sketchy, and lil peep i didn't know how good lil peep was until like a few days ago hella sketchy was madd talented also.. both of these guys passed due to drug use ++++++++++++++++++++++
i'm still single.. i have been enjoying this lifestyle.. i am not going to lie- from time to time i want a woman to talk to.. however i have way more peace alone than dealing with modern women and their crap its nearly unbelievable how different your money looks when you are single as a male its like night and day when i was with my ex i was always just getting by lately though, by the grace of God, i have been doing pretty well from a financial standpoint.. i thank the Lord i've been able to make double payments on my car.. and i have some savings, and i have been able to buy a lot of things i want this is something i wish a lot of men understood we put up with women and their crap but as soon as you let go, you realize "wow i'm legitimately better off" its truly like removing dead weight when u get modern women out of your life btw, when i say modern i mean.. any woman who is sexually active outside of marriage, any woman who defends abortion, or any woman who is not properly submissive ++++++++++++++++++++++ anyway.. i guess this is my update for today.. i hope u guys are doing well i'm out for now though stay fly |
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