anyone remember the stuff i said about 1234?
i got to a point where i was seeing 1234 pretty much everyday somehow when i tried to make it make some type of sense, i thought about years ago when i had 4 goals my goals were: 1. graduate college 2. get a job 3. get a place 4. get a girl i accomplished it all and then later i realized i had to do it all over again because they all morphed into: 1. get a masters 2. get a better job 3. get a house 4. get a girl who isn't a narcissistic skank i got 1, 2, and 3.. so its looking like the last thing is a woman i guess i'll be on the lookout, brahs
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some of u may remember i got in a situation where i was either going to lose my job or lose my house
i may speak on this in more detail later, but by the grace of God i am keeping both i actually even got a raise i give God all the credit for this, no cap i told someone about this and they said "you must be doing good at your job" nah this is God i was supposed to be fired and instead i got a raise anyway.. might talk more about this later thank the Lord! i got blinds online and i put one up today
i only bought one because i wasn't familiar with putting up blinds after i put it up i ordered 2 more here's a picture i think i did pretty good for my first time putting up blinds i thought about getting white, but after putting this up, i want to stick with this color i've had a ton going on.. i don't even know where to start
maybe i'll talk about all this stuff i've been doin later as for right now i guess i'll try to talk about God i haven't been able to hear God at all but recently i think He told me to pray twice per day i'm not one of those people who says "God told me this, or God told me that" but in this case i say it was God because we apparently only hear 3 voices.. God, the enemy, and ourselves... i know it wasn't satan, and i don't think it was me but it wasn't a "voice" or anything it was just basically an idea that came, and it didn't go away... sometimes when u get a thought that doesn't go away, that's God talking to you so yeah i'm trying to pray twice per day.. i really want a relationship with Jesus.. i just haven't been able to hear the Lord at all.. no dreams or anything really the issue i have is that without hearing from the Lord i basically live a life without any purpose and that is something that eats away at me i'm thinking about going to see mark hemans before the end of this year.. if u don't know who he is, look him up on youtube.. he basically helps to heal and deliver people through God's power i don't know anyone who will go with me so i suppose i will try to go by myself ++++++++++ outside of my attempts to hear from the Lord, i started a new playthrough on metal gear solid 4: guns of the patriots it feels so good to come back to this game.. i first played it back in 2009.. its a classic ++++++++++ a lot has been goin on with the house.. i don't want to talk about it right now because its been so much.. i think one day i will try to give a full breakdown ++++++++++ today i think is the first day i will use the washer and dryer i bought i got a haircut today i copped some hot pockets right now i'm sittin on the couch last night felt like one of my lowest points (will try to explain later) anyway.. take it easy i'm out for now on this one i want to talk about financial setbacks
ok so one thing i'm big on is basically anticipating financial setbacks my job canceled our insurance mid-year so they could start a new plan.. and before they told us, i went to the dentist so what ended up happening was... i left the dentist thinking everything was covered.. but i ended up getting an invoice a few weeks later for $92 another thing that happened was.. after my time with my last job ended they sent me an invoice for over $500 that sounds crazy but it really happened.. they said something about how i had to pay for vacation time.. it didn't really make any sense to me but here's the point i want to make i think its important to anticipate financial setbacks.. don't live your life at the top end of your budget.. try to live beneath your means i remember back in 2010 i got a $50 traffic citation on my birthday... at the time it basically kinda ruined my day.. my parents felt bad for me and they paid it but when it comes to the recent $92 invoice and the recent $500 invoice, i paid them with no issues whatsoever i'm saying this with humility, but i live different today i basically live with an awareness that at any moment life could hit me with some unexpected expense so all i'm saying is, try to live in a way where if a financial setback comes, u can just handle it and get back to living a peaceful life u don't want to be like i was when i got the citation in 2010... u don't want a financial setback to ruin your day or your week, and u don't want a financial setback to put u in a position where u can't afford something that you want or need the simplest way i can put it is like this: are u a person who keeps an umprella at all times just in case? or are u a person who is likely to have to walk into the office soaking wet if it rains? just keep an umbrella anticipate financial setbacks, and when they come and ur equipped to handle them, handle them immediately and get back to peace and normalcy... and forget that the setback ever happened i haven't been writing on here a ton for whatever reason
anyway.. i'm back i guess i'll say some random stuff i feel like i've "adulted" more than ever this year.. from buying a house, to buying a washer and dryer, to getting a lawn service, i even bought a bee-keeper suit thing just in case there was a nest at my front door there was actually a nest there already and i used the suit and it worked great some people seemed to think buying a bee suit was weird... they seemed to insinuate that it was unnecessary.. nah it wasn't unnecessary at all... if i didn't have it there's no way i would've been able to remove that huge nest +++++++++ one thing i've had to come to terms with in my life is that i can't have who i want as far as women are concerned there are women i find myself highly attracted to but i'm 37 and i've lived long enough to know that just because i like someone doesn't mean they will like me back or if i like her and she likes, me it doesn't mean she wants to follow the Lord in my opinion, giving up on your attraction is a serious slap in the face but also its seriously necessary we have to be mature about relationships.. we can't just be with people because they're attractive or convenient +++++++++ i want to try and get closer to God.. i keep thinking about how I can't hear Him and i want to fix that +++++++++ my ex g/f chrissy hit me up recently.. she emailed me and when i saw it i emailed her back from there she didn't say anything to me for over 2 weeks... she also didn't answer the questions i asked her in the message chrissy is a cool person but im kinda tired of people treating me like that i can't imagine hitting someone up, then when they hit me back, i just disappear for over 2 weeks i remember one time she pretended to not see an email i sent her for like 4 years... i sent it, she never responded, and when she finally reached out she was like "i'm just now seeing this email you sent" ...like i said, 4 years had passed smh +++++++++ i recently watched "a quiet place" 1 and 2 those were great.. i'd recommend them +++++++++ ummm what else i don't know.. i may have to come back and say more later peaCe i remember when i was a kid people would tell me to save money as i've gotten older i don't really think that was great advice i think more important than saving is to try and get income up and keep expenses down then you're saving without even thinking about it... each month u just have more money than what you've used just maneuver yourself into a position and live in that position if you have to save on purpose, i'd say you still have some maneuvering to do |
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