i feel like i have a lot to say but i have no idea what i want to say
i will just explain what is goin on right now i am tired of my job, i have been applying to other positions i have been looking at this scripture in the bible and they even brought it up in church yesterday "Verily I say unto you, There is no man that hath left house, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my sake, and the gospel's, But he shall receive an hundredfold now in this time, houses, and brethren, and sisters, and mothers, and children, and lands, with persecutions; and in the world to come eternal life." what i'm saying is i'm trying to stand on this word by faith, i am hoping the Lord helps me to obtain success since i left my life to do what i believe He told me to do anyway.. outside of that i did play a little bit of persona 5 today.. i bought this game maybe like 2 or 3 years ago but i never beat it.. i am trying to play it in my spare time here and there one thing i would like to say is i do feel somewhat insane in a sense.. sometimes i feel like... foreign in life.. i never really feel comfortable around many people, i generally only feel comfortable around like one person.. maybe 2 tops one way i see this is when people put me on group texts, i always tell them to remove me from it.. i only want to text a person one on one i guess part of the reason i feel crazy is because people seem to think i should feel comfortable in situations where i'm not like the other day i was explaining why i don't like doing job interviews and someone was basically telling me how i need to get it together.. i can take some criticism but can you at least act like u understand why i would be uncomfortable? i've been watching the parkers a lot.. i have it paused on my tv right now.. this show is so good.. she really gets under professor ogilvee's skin lol i am grateful knock on wood i haven't really been spending tons of money.. i know what its like to want want want.. but by the grace of God lately i really find myself content as long as i have some snacks and an internet connection.. i haven't bought any clothing in about a year.. also didn't buy a ps5 the other day a woman in recruitment at my job basically told me i've been applying to too many jobs... she said i applied to so many jobs that when she pulled me up- it slowed down her computer.. she said it said i applied to 317 jobs she said i should reach out to people in departments directly instead.. whatever method will get me out of this job and into something that will allow me to buy a house is fine with me anyway.. i figure i have bored u enough for one night that song i posted at the top is my vibe at the moment its past 10pm on 1/31.. happy february in less that 2 hours
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today wasn't the best day
seemed like work was madd long also where i live they want u to wear a mask even in the gym back where i used to live u didn't have to wear a mask in the gym my point is i don't want to wear a mask in the gym and as a result i don't go and i feel like i'm putting on weight putting on weight is so depressing anyway.. the way i've been "fighting" this whole thing is i've been applying to jobs because i figure if somehow i am able to make enough to purchase a house, then even if i can't go to the gym, then i would at least be able to work out at home living here in this apartment doesn't really allow me to work out because they lock the gym at like 5pm.. that is madd stupid.. if you work, you can't work out before 5pm i can't work out in my apartment either because i'm on the 3rd floor.. it would bother the people beneath me i don't know what i'm going to do but other than all of that, i'm alright.. im ready to get my taxes.. i figure if everything goes ok then i may be able to put my return on my car and i'll be that much closer to getting this thing paid off completely i had two interviews on monday.. i don't really want to talk about them.. because its like.. when you apply to jobs as much as i have- its like you don't want to talk about it unless you've been hired, but i have another interview thursday.. i guess we will see what happens anyway.. i haven't been playing video games much.. i've just been watching youtube celebrity news, and i also watch the parkers on netflix when it comes to the celebrity news, tasha k did a 3 part series on jaguar wright which was really good.. reminded me of my ex.. especially how she said everyon was doing what she was actually doing.. when someone calls u a narcissist out of nowhere, then later you find out they are a narcissist.. you will know what i mean another celebrity news thing is some woman named dani leigh made a song about being a "yellow bone" .. in the song she says "a yellow bone is what he wants" a lot of people got angry and upset over that, i found that to be ridiculous.. i see nothing wrong with her putting a spotlight on her skin tone.. now if she came out saying "dark skin women are trash" then i could see why there is so much controversy, but that's not the case anyway.. i just wanted to speak my mind a bit holla back at the kid basically in this you see one of these crazy modern women from the perspective of her ex husband
i want to point out a few things about this 1. there is more he could have said about her horrendous behavior.. i know because when i talk about my ex, it takes a long time to really break it all down.. so consider this stuff he says to not even be the half of it.. the manipulations and various abuses are so many that i almost have to write a book to break it all down 2. her eagerness to marry quickly was a red flag.. i'm not saying its a red flag in EVERY situation, but i'd say 9 times out of 10, its a red flag 3. any woman who attacks your manhood is one who is not worthy of your presence.. this woman continually has different ways of saying her ex husband is a weak man.. any talk like that- get away from that woman... its just her cucking you waiting to happen 4. have enough self respect to put yourself before the relationship.. you cannot justify staying with one of these horrible women.. your boyscout honor code to stay loyal and loving to an abuser will just run your life into a ditch, and will probably negatively affect your child as well 5. you will likely not get 3 things from these modern skanks.. A. closure (so don't seek it when the relationship ends) B. honesty (so if you want the truth u may have to spy or just go with your gut) C. emotional intimacy (you will find yourself looking for it in other things and people i.e. cheating / talking more with family / going out more with friends / consuming your favorite entertainment) 6. a woman like this who plays victim in everything is basically useless because she will not take accountability for anything 7. women like this use things against you.. if you commit to a relationship, then later u want to break up she will use your words against you "you're leaving me like everyone else, you said you loved me" she will use your commitment to guilt you.. if you get married she will use the courts against you.. if you have a child with her she will use your child against you.. your love for her gives you patience for her- she will use your patience against you.. you trust her? she will use your trust against you.. your literal only choice is to not deal with her .. just like in the Bible where it basically says it is a sin to tolerate jezebel, there is NO WAY of dealing with one of these women in a civil manner, you must just get away from her- in modern terms they call this "the no contact rule" its essentially the same thing as "do not tolerate jezebel" i could continue but no need to write a novel just watched this last night and wanted to share i just want men as a whole to be equipped with knowledge to understand how horrible these women can be be with women for character, not looks.. and even then- make sure you peek behind the curtain as much as you can many women are damaged like this today.. and even when they aren't damaged a lot of them just have been tainted by media and feminism and their friends its not a small number of women who are like this.. many women appear normal but are on anti depressants.. you would be surprised to see how crazy a lot of women are because they act normal at work but they are crying and having breakdowns on their lunch breaks when no one can see them just be aware and don't waste time on a skank i posted a comment on this forum i go to and i got what appears to be the most "likes" i ever got on a post i went to the store and came back and the comment had like 70 something likes, so i screen shotted it the primary question was: why are so many black actresses single, and it showed a bunch of pictures of single and childless black actresses this is what i said: as i type this, this comment currently has 224 likes
i am not posting this out of arrogance, i'm posting it because it appears to speak to what we are seeing in society i didn't think that comment was special, but a lot of people apparently could relate so i feel like it touched on something that a lot of men agree with the times for women to be feminist and independent and all of that are over men are tired of it.. women can of course do these things but men aren't putting up with it anymore we want women who want to be women this stuff has been hilarious.. i don't even generally watch the news but when i saw them storming the capitol i got a good laugh out of it we must look so dumb and weak to every other country people believe an election was rigged just because one person (who wants to win) says it was people still hung up on stuff that doesn't even matter, like race people constantly fighting, arguing, complaining, and playing victim people leaving their peaceful life to fight ideological wars concocted on tv and social media ridiculous i want to share this interaction i had on a forum
so it started out where someone was saying pepa from salt n pepa got unnecessary plastic surgery because she was already pretty so i said this: women don't seem to understand this simple thing if you get men but can't keep one, the problem isn't your looks- its your personality i told my ex g/f this and it was like i was explaining the cosmos to a duck so then a guy came along the next day and said this: For some reason, and it’s probably our fault, they think men only care about looks and pussy. I had the same experience when trying to explain that to my ex too. It’s like she thought I was lying. Like chick, niggas don’t LEAVE you cause you’re ugly. You would have been ugly when they got with you. They leave because they can’t stand YOU. After a while you don’t care how pretty your chick is. ok so here is what i have to say about this overall this is something i've seen a lot women thinking the only thing they have to do is look good.. its not true.. while i'm at it- another myth women believe is that men only want sex and don't want relationships anyway.. just thought this was worth pointing out this song is so good.. i actually like the album version better because its longer (which is rare for me) but i am posting the video version because i really like the video and it kinda takes me back to those days.. this came out in 1997 for whatever reason i never really listened to this album of theirs until recently.. i didn't like adrenaline so i probably skipped this one thinking it would sound more like adrenaline
i still haven't processed the album though.. i've only been listening to this song over and over.. i peeped the album but got stuck on this song.. then i looked up the title of the song and found the video for it |
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