read these and i will give my take at the end (i found these on a forum, i don't know these people)
the reason i named this entry "reasons why" is because this is the reason why i say a lot of the stuff i say
the stuff some of u may think is harsh, this is why i say this stuff about modern women as for the man- the man is a clown coward weirdo the way he is acting shows he did not ever deserve the sex in the first place WHICH BRINGS ME BACK TO THE WOMEN women are bent on giving "bad boys" attention, affection, and sex ...and they love to say good guys are lame and boring well how does all that look after reading this those texts? see this is why i always say the stuff i say.. this is why modern women aren't really worth anything think about it.. how many good men approached this woman before she decided to jump out the window and smash this clown? women will duck and dodge a man who wants to treat them well, respect them as women, and take them out but they will chase after some guy with no morals.. she will give her body away to him and brag about how good it was to her friends welp, guess what whore? these texts are waiting right around the corner for u this is also why i hate women who say they aren't in relationships but they are banging some guy every night how are u doing the most intimate thing you can do with someone yet claiming to be single? these are the women you meet in the dating pool you wonder why you give them attention, treat them well, take them out, give them compliments, yet they never warm up to you this is why- because their heart is with some clown who won't do anything for them in the end modern women don't want to be loved, they want to chase someone they will never catch any man who wants to love a woman genuinely is called "boring" or "lame" or whatever else the guy who uses a woman like a human trash can is praised that is what these women do and that's why so many of them are single mothers and/or women who have had abortions those are the two things on the table for this woman single motherhood or abortion these women are not smart- she knew this guy already had a woman in the background but this is modern women for you they would rather compete with other women for these struggle men than just be with an upstanding single man with no kids and to anyone who is telling me i'm lying i have a question for you what planet do u live on?
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put some respek on jim jones name.. he's consistent out here.. good rhymes and he chooses some creative beats when i did my monthly check in i said the shooting in atlanta where 8 people died and 6 of them were asian was the thing for march
well there was also a shooting in colorado where 10 died and the derrick jaxn thing just wanted to clarify the added things tasha k did another live today.. apparently derrick jaxn had another girl except this one he was with as recently as last friday.. so all that "i'm a changed man" talk is out the window he also took one of his videos down he also got donkey of the day today, before this new tasha k video.. so that's really crazy to get donkey of the day, and then later the same day u get exposed again this guy is getting dissed like crazy on the internet right now pride comes before a fall i guess that goes for all of us ++++++++++++++ i've been playing rayman legends recently.. i have had this game for a few years but i've only been playing it recently i enjoy the game.. i think its better than the first game, and the first game was really good when i first got the game i was turned off by it because of the way u select levels, and also because of the sort of muted colors in comparison to the first game.. and also because i didn't really like the murphy segments where you move that green guy but i've sort of gotten past those things and i think the game is great.. the star of the show is the level design and like i said the first game was really good but this one just turns it up a few notches i also like how the game is just a GAME meaning like.. its really just gameplay, there's not really talking, and cut scenes, and threads of text i like just playing a game without those things sometimes because i can play it and do something else at the same time like listen to a sermon, or audio book, or podcast overall, i recommend the game ++++++++++++++
i saw a thing today online where the caption said "you can't make this up" and the video that accompanied it showed a mcdonalds drive through and when they pulled up the person on the intercom said something like "welcome to mcdonalds we don't have chicken, we don't have fish, we don't have milkshakes, no frappes, no hi-c, no coke, and please keep your order light because there's only 3 of us in here" i'm not saying it exactly the way it was said but that was what they recorded the question at the very top of the post said something like "would you like to eat at this memphis mcdonalds?" i was not surprised it was memphis at all since i've been here this has been my experience nearly everywhere i almost can't even explain to you the amount of jank i have experienced in this city it has gotten to where none of it is surprising anymore and i told you guys here on my site not too long ago that one issue is- in some ways this city is like driven by women.. and that is true there are a lot of jobs where u only see women you don't really see men.. and these women's lives are on struggle mode and it emanates off of them i even went to get an oil change the other day and a black female did it.. i kid you not i've seen women working at car shops at the front desk but i've never seen one actually working on the cars until i got here like i said in my previous post- this city has a lopsided way about it when it comes to gender this city is just not my thing.. i don't want to complain because i moved here believing the Lord wanted me to move here- but let's just say i want to know why i'm here so i can do what i need to do and perhaps get the ok to leave obedience is #1 but i'm just being honest when i say this place has issues ++++++++++++++ i tried to watch that scott pilgrim movie on netflix a few months back i had never seen it when it came out so i was kinda curious to see how it was because i remember learning it apparently had a video game theme to it so i attempted to watch it.. here's my opinion in a way- it was really good.. but i couldn't finish it the reason i didn't finish it was because it had a lot of gay stuff in it scott's friend in the movie was some gay guy and they just wouldn't stop going back to him and how he was gay they were bent on normalizing gay and trying to make it humorous i just couldn't take it anymore and i stopped the movie i feel like they basically desecrated what would have otherwise been a good movie ++++++++++++++ alright thats it for my miscellaneous thoughts for today so derrick jaxn has been caught cheating shout out to tasha k.. her channel is gold lol i want to just give my experience with derrick jaxn if i remember correct, when i stumbled across him at first, it was a decent video but soon after, i realized he was pandering anyway.. when i was with my horrible ex i remembered feeling like she was cheating on me a lot.. something just felt wrong sometimes when i would be around her.. and she started doing things like i remember i would contact her at times when she shouldn't have been busy but she would still ignore me i just remember asking her if there was someone else but she said no.. she assured me there was no one else at all and it was all in my head well anyway as u can imagine- we had issues in our "relationship" so one day we decided to put the past behind us and sort of start over.. we decided this and i'm thinking "ok clean slate we will just enjoy each other and not have the same issues we've been having" well a few hours later she sent me a text saying watch this, its really good.. it was a derrick jaxn video.. i looked at it and the whole video was about how if u don't do certain things in a relationship your girl will cheat on you once she knew i saw the video she text me and said "i wonder if you knew something was going on" to be 100% honest with whoever is reading this.. i don't like sharing that or remembering it.. it was extremely hurtful.. it cut me to my heart so anyway as you can tell, it was basically a confirmation that she had been seeing someone the whole time i suspected she had been seeing someone but as soon as i started asking her "what wat that supposed to mean" and stuff she started gaslighting me again.. basically not confirming or denying, just blowing smoke basically so that was my experience with derrick jaxn.. a very hurtful situation.. and i don't blame him for the situation but i do believe he somewhat contributed to some negativity because he was giving women (including my ex) a cosign on all of their nonsense however something happened where i stopped dissing derrick jaxn.. i couldn't believe it but he really helped me to heal one day here's what happened.. throughout that horrible "relationship" my ex used to always tell me to "put her in her place" this was always the stupidest thing in the world to me.. to me it sounded like she wanted me to basically like yell at her, or cuss her out, or slap her or something i never knew what she was talking about because under no circumstance ever would i tell someone to put me in my place i had absolutely no idea what she was talking about i got online, and found that derrick jaxn believe it or not was the only person who really talked about it in depth and his video made me feel so much better because when i listened to it- i realized i wasn't the dysfunctional one.. she was this video helped me to heal SO MUCH because i had been beaten down for so long and told "you don't know how to put me in my place" so many times i just didn't know what to do with myself i didn't understand what she was saying or why but she just continually pecked at me with this stuff so derrick's video was exactly what i needed.. it revealed the truth, that she was just broken, damaged, immature, childish, and ignorant i never signed up to be someone's parent, i wanted a girlfriend derrick showed me the truth of what my "girlfriend" was.. a lost child disguised as an adult woman so those were my experiences with derrick jaxn.. i used to think he was a moron, but once he helped me heal through that video- i never dissed him again but as for his cheating.. that's for him to deal with i do think he has been a hypocrite and i think he has been more destructive than constructive to black relationships but if he stops the hypocrisy and lies i do believe he could offer some genuine help.. because i believe his video that helped me was genuine but yes i do believe he has been very destructive by telling women they don't have to put up with anything when we already know women are fickle.. so to add to that is just to keep men and women apart.. and another problem is- he always made women think if they left their man, there would be some tall, football player looking, six figure making, long wiener having guy right around the corner and its just not realistic AT ALL especially in a climate where most of these women are single mothers so anyway do i think derrick got what he deserved, being exposed by tasha k? yes do i hate him? no.... but yes i do believe he got what he deserved this is probably a representation of how it feels to be white well.. i said last month that it seems like something will happen each month this year
so im ready to do the entry for march January was storming the capitol February was the winter storm March: robert aaron long killing 8 people (6 of them being asian) what will April be? MY CAR IS PAID OFF!!!!! it took me 4 and a half years but i did it by the grace of God i'm making the most money i've ever made, and now i got this $273 monthly payment off my plate i have been spending a lot on my car about a month ago i spent maybe like $500 when i got two new tires also i've been tired of paying on this thing, so i've been paying payments of like $500 and $700 trying to get it to zero i know i've been talking about this a lot but im just happy to be done paying on this thing i remember when i got it.. i was thinking whoa i can't believe i just bought a new car (it was used but it only had like 2,000 miles on it) i was thinking.. yo this is expensive i got my work cut out for me.. at the same time deep down i knew God blessed me with it so i knew i wouldn't have to worry about the payments.. but buying something that cost that much was kinda sobering my first payment was August 28, 2016 my last was March 18, 2021 what should i do to celebrate.. i'm not sure im very grateful to be done paying i give all thanks and praise to the Lord lets go! here's the sound to match this entry i've been putting on weight its not very fun but stressors along with not working out tend to do that to u i guess what are the stressors? well applying to job after job and getting rejection after rejection also dealing with feeling out of place in memphis also just not really liking my current job not complaining, just informing ++++++++++++++ i cannot stand women who cry "rape" at the hands of someone they are A. in a sexual relationship with or B. married to if u think i am going to feel bad for u because u had sex one more time with someone and u weren't in the mood, you got another thing coming try being me and never having sex all in all- leave the word rape to REAL rape victims if you have regular sex with someone and/or are married to someone, u have no business telling anyone they raped you the concept of "marital rape" is ridiculous because in marriage your body is not your own anymore.. and that's not my opinion, that's in the Bible and if you're not married yet you are still having sex- you are basically practicing marriage with that person i don't want to hear not one more chick trying to tell people they were raped by someone they willingly banged 100 times smh ++++++++++++++ ok so i owe less than $1300 on my car if i get this $1400 the government is talking about sending then i'm officially done paying on this thing i looked at my payment history on my car today.. today was my first time ever doing this, and what i found was crazy i always knew they were taking money out of my payments for the financing or the interest or whatever they call it.. but i never knew it was as much as what they took some months they took out over a third of my payment i always knew they were taking some money but on some of those it was like i paid my regular $273 and they took out over $100 i do remember wondering at some point why it seemed like the amount i owed wasn't decreasing, but i didn't know they were doing me like this i will go on record and say i will never buy another car this way again from now on i believe what i will do is save money myself, and THEN buy a car you can save $15,000 and buy a $15,000 car or you can get it financed and buy a $15,000 car for $21,000 do i know all the ins and outs of all this stuff? no, but i know after looking at my payment history that a ton of money i paid did not go to the remaining balance of my car ++++++++++++++ i recently listened to the rapper russ's audiobook it was really good.. i might peep it again there was no fluff, straight and to the point.. also he genuinely has some wisdom in there i felt that he had some gems on deck props to the boy russ no cap ++++++++++++++ i haven't really heard anything from the Lord in a while i don't think i am hoping to hear a word or some instructions or something soon i feel like i moved here and since i've been here i've been fine but i'm just in my own bubble.. like i have no idea why i'm here i don't feel close to anyone at church.. everyone is cool but i don't have a connection with anyone i had a dream the other day and i was hoping it was from the Lord and that i would get some type of information but so far i don't have anything when i stood back and looked at the dream the only thing i thought was- "maybe i have allowed a wrong influence into my life" because in the dream a guy basically ruined my life but i won't get into the details of it but i really want dreams and things because i want to hear what the Lord has to say to me specifically ++++++++++++++ some girl came to my place like a year ago and she signed into her netflix account i've had netflix ever since i think my favorite things on there are this show called dirty money.. which is about rich people who got there via fraud and stuff i also like the parkers.. that show is madd funny ++++++++++++++ right now i'm listenin to the staind album "break the cycle" this is a good album takes me right back to like 2001 ++++++++++++++ work has been kinda lame lately but i felt like God had mercy on me because my internet went out 2 days in a row in other words, that was 2 days i didn't have to work, but i still got paid i was very grateful for that sometimes when u feel like you're at your wit's end the Lord helps u through i remember when i was about at that place at Brookdale a few years back and then one day they asked if i wanted to do a special program.. i said yes, not knowing what the program was well it was a program where i only had like 0 to 4 calls per day and they were all transfers i was doing this for months.. it was great.. just imagine going to work for months and not actually working.. that's what i was doing.. it was great to not be stressed and stuff anymore you never really know how the Lord may bless you ++++++++++++++ its funny to me that these days men are saying things i used to say things i said in 2015 on this site, that people said were too harsh and this and that, now every guy is saying these things men have gotten tired of women's crap |
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