i have been realizing lately my life's biggest missing ingredient
i think that ingredient is someone i can talk to i don't really have anyone i feel comfortable talking to about any and everything at any moment when i say comfortable i mean like.. someone where i can tell them whatever is on my mind and they can tell me whatever is on their mind one of my biggest pet peeves is when you tell someone something and they say "oh ok" i am not joking when i say that has truly gotten under my skin throughout the years and that type of thing is essentially what i feel i would never have to deal with if i had someone i could talk to about anything i do feel like i had this in the past when i was with my old ex g/f chrissy.. she was always open to talking to me about anything.. i have not found that again since.. and that may sound somewhat sad, however i can genuinely say i'm glad to at least know that type of relationship can exist my other ex questa was horrible to talk to.. there was never really any sense of validation from her- to the point where i used to actually google things like "invalidation" to try and understand what i was dealing with.. there was no emotional intimacy or anything.. even simple things you do to connect with someone- she wouldn't do.. like for example if i said "hey this is good, try it" she would say no.. there was just no attempt to connect on her part.. it was horrible.. even thinking about it is traumatic i have been trying to go back to writing my book about our relationship but it is just so traumatic remembering all the crap i went through.. i sometimes question if i can finish it anyway- let me get back on track here ok so i basically would love to have someone to talk to.. but what i have generally run into is this situation where people come and go as they please.. there's not really a person (outside of family) who is there all the time i have not really had anyone hit me up and be like what's good how are u doing? as a matter of fact i think i recently wrote a lyric about it.. let me see if i can find it U ain’t tryna see how i’m doin, please/ No one ever calls me to shoot the breeze/ So don’t front, what do u need?/ Let me guess- u want help movin things?/ Well call a professional, cuz i’ll let ya know/ I’m over bein "errand boy" instead of "bro"/ keep in mind i haven't recorded that- so it is still subject to change, but you get the idea anyway.. i guess i'll try and get out of here but like.. i do feel like i'm missing this ingredient in my life and lately i've just been separating myself from people further- because i feel like.. maybe things will have to get "worse" before they get better who knows
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i just want to point out how women give men horrible advice when it comes to dating.. i was on a forum, i will show u what a female said, and what i said
here is what the original post was about the guy in the post said he was upset because his girlfriend wouldn't text him back, but he would look on social media and see her commenting meaning she saw what he said but is not responding he said he brought up breaking up but she said she didn't want to here was my response to the guy: these women want someone there to abuse.. when i say they want someone to abuse, it sounds crazy and extreme.. but in their minds they don't see it as emotional abuse in their minds they see it as "this clown keeps me company" or "this is the idiot who makes me look like a good girl to my friends and family" or "this is the cuck who buys me dinner after i bang someone" they are totally selfish and don't care about your wellbeing they don't even consider or care how u feel i remember with my ex for example one day i was like "do u realize u left my apartment angry 3 times this week?" she said "it makes me feel wanted when u come after me" i said "ok but how do u think it makes me feel when ur ready to leave me over nothing all the time?" she said "i never thought about that" my point is- they are trash man.. don't waste your time on a skank who doesn't even have empathy when u ask these beasts if they want to be with you THEY WILL SAY YES, (because like i said above, you are providing some type of benefit for them) BUT THEIR ACTIONS WILL NOT MATCH THAT "YES" ONLY PAY ATTENTION TO THEIR ACTIONS then some girl said this to him: Honestly, unless it's excessive I wouldn't bring it up since that can be seen as clingy or smothering. If she still hitting you back in a reasonable time just keep yourself busy and let it be. then i said this to her: "let it be" leaves him in the same situation he came in here with also who cares if she thinks he is clingy? if that is his truth "that she pays him no attention" then so be it.. what he feels is valid.. why should he hide that? that is what keeps simps in a box to be toyed with there's nothing wrong with saying "i feel like this and i don't like it" being afraid to speak up for fear of being labeled is still being a simp he needs to realize he isn't a priority and A. cut ties B. demote her in his mind or C. keep her around but talk to other females and make no mistake, C. is what the female is doing to him.. she has him on standby while she entertains other men everything i just said was facts.. then she responded with this: Why do people assume because she not talking to you she talking to someone else? Talking about it will probably leave him more frustrated because more than likely he still won't get the response he desires. No man has ever told me that and in response I texted him more often and quicker. Why? Because if I wanted to text you faster I would do so without your nudge. He has a right to tell her how he feels. But if you think telling her will change things for the better you're wrong. The only way is really to establish more interest. Like you said demote her or busy himself. Or, find ways to make her want YOU more. then i responded: i'm not saying he needs to tell her for her to change, i'm saying he can tell her because that's how he feels, whether she likes it or not or changes isn't the point he needs to stand in what he believes REGARDLESS of what she says or does.. i know how modern women are and as for this: "Or, find ways to make her want YOU more." smh AGAIN that is what leads men to becoming simps.. your advice is horrible.. you are telling him to alter himself to be what she wants, he needs to be concerned with making a life he is happy with and proud of- not pleasing some female who barely likes him anyway he doesn't need to bend over backwards trying to figure out how he can get her to like him, that is just more simp behavior Who said bend over backwards? Who mentioned simp behavior? Who said alter himself? I said demote her, busy yourself, or make her want you more. I'm a "modern woman" that will ignore THE FUCK out of somebody while I'm doing who knows what for a plethora of reasons. If you're boring to me or don't hold my interest I'll text you back when I want. If anybody is qualified to speak on it it should be the person doing the behavior he's concerned about. i didn't respond with this but i want to answer these questions here: Who said bend over backwards? when she said: "Or, find ways to make her want YOU more." Who mentioned simp behavior? the original poster mentioned it- he was basically saying "am i a simp for being bothered that my girlfriend ignores me, or for allowing my girlfriend to ignore me" Who said alter himself? again, "Or, find ways to make her want YOU more." which translates to: she is not showing interest, so change or do something different to make her interested.. spend money, be more exciting, shift your personality, dress better, etc etc.. u are saying to appeal to her EVEN THOUGH she has not done anything for you- she has essentially low key rejected this guy- yet this female's advice is "try harder" if you really break that down, she is saying "reward her lack of interest" "reward her disrespect" "when she ignores you, give her more attention" in what universe is this good advice? now at this point i felt that her response was ridiculous because she was feigning ignorance, so i stopped addressing her directly, and here is what i said.. first i highlighted this section of what she said and reposted it I'm a "modern woman" that will ignore THE FUCK out of somebody while I'm doing who knows what for a plethora of reasons. If you're boring to me or don't hold my interest I'll text you back when I want. then i said: like i said originally: "they are totally selfish and don't care about your wellbeing they don't even consider or care how u feel" also like i said THEY DO NOT SEE THEIR BEHAVIOR AS EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE EVEN WHEN IT IS they see it as "whatever i can ignore u, i'm doin me" they don't care if they are leading u on or if yall r supposed to be committed or not, they don't care what the scenario is, they are self centered they won't say "hey i don't want to talk" or anything and like she said she could be doing anything and yes that includes being with another guy it is what it is so there you have it, she proved my original point.. this is the primary thing she was not looking at- THEY ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP how is it ok for you to hit up your girl and she ignores you blatantly and she just carries on like "i'll hit him back whenever, i have better things to do" that is emotionally abusive and disrespectful- yet they (modern women) are too selfish to acknowledge it the guy literally said he brought up breaking up (obviously because he does not feel valued or respected) and the female said she didn't want to why would she say no yet still not respect him enough to stop the behavior he has issue with? again, like i said- because she is deriving some type of benefit from him the "relationship" is one sided this is essentially the equivalent of a woman telling a man to stop texting his ex, and he says no.. so she says maybe u should go back to her- and he says no, i want to stay with you he does not want to comply because he doesn't respect or love his girlfriend enough to change, yet he also does not want to break up because he is getting a benefit from her (that benefit likely being sex) that is abusive the thing is though- people only seem to understand abusive behavior when it comes from men when it comes from women they say "its her life" or "she's independent" or "you're too controlling" or "you're too insecure as a man" but this is disrespectful and abusive.. what kind of man wants to call to his girl and she basically hits him with "i'll get around to it" ??? like how does that make u feel as a man? even women know that is a dysfunctional picture its even in the bible, read esther and u will see vashti was disrespectful to her husband the king that way.. he asked her to come out and she didn't that is not a good woman or a submissive wife.. so all in all i just wanted to point out, women give horrible advice and i hope this guy took heed to what i said if they weren't in a rel. maybe it would be diff but if that's your girlfriend and that's the extent of the respect you get- you need to keep looking i have been saying for years.. modern women are terrible
you feminist women would have me believe Will is happy in this picture "oh everything is great, everything is perfect" is what you would tell me when i see things like this- i know the things i say are true women today are horrible, they have no limits, no conscience, no love, no care, nothing, they are just hollow energy vaporizing demons this picture almost makes me want to cry.. i want to tell Will he is worth more than this abuse modern women are emotionally abusive, its just the truth.. you can tell me i'm crazy or i'm this or that- but i have experienced modern women and they are one of the worst things this world has to offer anyway.. this entry doesn't need to be long a picture is worth a thousand words. today i went and did the real id thing
i guess they were saying you have to update your license to real id at some point.. i knocked that out today so i'm glad to have that in the can the dmv is definitely not the place to be +++++++++++ i seem to have this obsession with a woman's beauty.. there is so much eye candy in the world it would be nice if there was as much personality candy as there was eye candy as much as i like a woman's beauty though- i believe it is important to make sure not to bow to it there is a temptation to bend for it but it must be resisted at all times +++++++++++ speaking of bending for women, i think one of men's biggest problems is the fact that we have changed so much for women, and in many cases men continue to do so women have so many requirements, checklist items, whims, etc, i feel that it is pretty much nearly impossible to keep up i believe letting go is one of the best things a man can do stop thinking "how can i please her" and instead say "how can i please myself" and "how can i please God" i don't really think men are free until they make it up in their mind that they will live above a woman's wants +++++++++++ there's a girl i know who always has a weird comment about black men on deck i finally found out the source of her odd outlook it is this youtuber who goes by the name cynthia g one thing i have noticed from women is that oftentimes they sound like they make sense but they don't women tend to present well.. but they tend to still have gaping holes in their logic and that is how i view cynthia g.. she tends to sounds like she makes sense on the surface, but her videos are oftentimes lacking in logic and insight to me she is like the leader of the single black female she is helping to lead african american women into even more singlehood than they already experience also more fornication, more abortion, etc since i have looked into cynthia g videos, i have realized in some ways she is the engine of that echo chamber.. she is the main source.. i've heard other youtubers parroting things from cynthia g and trying to act like they came up with it anyway.. i just think cynthia g is not a person to pattern your thought processes after she has no kids, she aborted a child she was having with robert perkins (who has 5 kids) like a year ago.. and i have not confirmed this because A. she could have miscarried or B. she could have had the child.. but based on her videos- i'm pretty sure she just aborted that child i say this because its been over a year and you never see her with a baby, she doesn't look like she put on any weight, she has still been posting videos, etc etc.. also i don't believe it was a miscarry because she probably would have said it was- but instead she just said "no one knows if i'm still pregnant" and didn't go any further into it so my point is, she is single, fornicating, and aborting, and complaining about things that are blown out of proportion like saying african american men only like white women and things like that anyway.. i just think they both need to get in a church somewhere just wanted to speak on that, because for a long time i didn't understand what the issue was with this chick i know- but now i get where she gets all of her weird notions |
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