i would like to talk about what it has been like giving up on women
so throughout my 20s it was like i always wanted a woman, but things never worked out in my 30s things started to change and i began seeing women for what they really are then i had a horrible "relationship" that sort of solidified everything i suspected, which... when broken down all the way to the simplest form boils down to- women are basically children.. and just because they can hold a career and dress nice does not change who they are or elevate them.. they are still basically grown up children once i was able to see the truth of women fully, i backed off.. i just left them alone.. because when you understand them, you see that a lot of what they bring to the table is a hindrance or a time waster at best i would say letting go of women has mostly been good.. i don't really see a downside to it when i used to try to impress women and keep them around, i was basically just seeking validation from women.. i wanted them to be close to me and i wanted to have access to them for conversation or for some type of relationship.. but ultimately- like i said, it was just me wanting validation and that led me to living a lie in a sense the lie was that they cared about me.. they really didn't care about me.. i would say the way i know this is because they generally would never reach out to me, it was generally me reaching out.. also sometimes i would not get respect from them.. they would just talk to me any type of way i still want women physically like any guy, however i no longer deceive myself into thinking their opinion of me has value on that note- i would like to point out that women generally have horrible taste in men if you ask any woman in her teens or 20s and even oftentimes 30s- what type of man she wants.. that man is likely to be the opposite of what her father would choose for her her father will choose a man who will provide, protect, love, commit, and actually groom/prune her to make her better she however will choose a man who is attractive on the surface, but who is ultimately selfish because she views that as "strength" ..and generally he will drag her through the mud to some extent because to her its "exciting" .. since to her this is fun- she will not always even understand how these men negatively affect her sometimes it takes a while for a woman to look back and see a fun fling for what it really was- just an ongoing devaluation... it may take her a while to look up and see "wait a minute i used to go on dates, now it seems like all i am is a friend with benefits" by the time they realize the cycle they are in oftentimes it is too late anyway, let me talk about one of the best aspects of letting go of women its this: not having everything you say and do undermined women today are not submissive and they want to argue, nag, and complain about everything.. even something as simple as you having an opinion that is different from hers getting that out of my life has been seriously one of the most freeing things another thing that is great is not having to deal with their whoredom.. i got so tired of dealing with that.. there are so many aspects to that and none of the avenues it takes you down are good you have to deal with constant comparisons to their exes, you also have to deal with the sheer numbers of men she has been with which is likely "we are legion" ..also it brings lies and secrets into the relationship because she is always trying to downplay what she has done, and if she doesn't downplay it- its like she really doesn't respect you and is crass.. like there are soooo many issues i used to try to avoid or navigate around.. i never really thought "hey i can just get away from this woman" so embracing that has done wonders for me.. i no longer have to deal with constant lies and contradictions and games because a woman shows me one side but is a whole different person around other men a certain "ease" has entered my life since i let women go.. financially things are better than they've ever been one thing i've noticed is, if you have the wrong people in your life- it will likely affect multiple aspects of your life i remember when i was with my ex in that toxic relationship i almost got fired from my job, i almost didn't graduate grad school, my car had issues, money was coming and going, etc etc left her alone and literally my boss contacted me and told me i was doing better.. like 2 days after we stopped talking i got a call informing me they accepted my grade and i officially had a masters degree, my parents came over out of nowhere and fixed my bed and helped me put up curtains, got my car fixed, etc etc of course me being ridiculous, i ended up going back to her and falling further.. to the point where i lived with my parents.. but i stopped talking to her again later and got a raise, then i got a better job altogether, then i got a brand new apartment that no one even lived in prior to me my point is- giving up on women is a good thing.. and i believe you can still get married and everything but like.. what i'm saying is, i took myself out of the equation God can bring me whoever He may have for me, but i won't have anything to do with it.. i no longer deal with women like that.. i don't search for women or put forth effort.. i'm not taking a woman out or trying to show her a good time or anything.. if God has someone for me i feel that He will make it known, if He doesn't then i'm fine with being single i could continue this but i have to work holla for now i may do a part 2 of this
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