today i got a haircut
then i had an eye exam.. did the eye exam ordered a year of new contacts then i tried on glasses, found a pair that seemed to suit me well.. got those they said they would send me the contacts, and they said i can get the glasses on march 7th i'm very grateful the Lord allowed me to do this stuff, i wasn't even going to get glasses, but the woman who helped me was so talkative that instead of leave, i just looked around the glasses i got are very different, i don't even know why i tried them.. but when i put them on, somehow they seemed to fit my face really well i ate jimmy johns when i was out like i said, i got a haircut.. i had a conversation with my barber.. i like him a lot he's a cool guy this conversation seemed like it might've been more meaningful than some of our other conversations though he was telling me he has a woman who is unselfish, who is flexible, and who he can talk to about anything.. also she is willing to be with him he said the only thing is he wishes she looked better.. he said she weighs more than he would like, also he says she looks decent with makeup, but without it- she's not really poppin like that i found it somewhat funny that he asked me my take on it.. because i try not to offer too much information to people- but since he asked, i told him how i felt about it he asked me if i felt the same.. i told him no i explained to him that i had a girl who was basically a 10 to me in looks a few years ago.. i explained to him that i desperately wanted things to work between her and i but she just gave me no peace, no real love, and i was unable to trust her.. she was just like dead weight and a headache no matter how hard i tried i really tried to stress this to him the best i could then i explained to him that i was talking to the girl from church and she was like a refuge from the other chick.. and i didn't think the girl from church was cute but i always enjoyed her company and i always felt good having her in my life fast forward from there and even though i tried, i didn't stay with the 10 out of 10 girl.. and the girl who wasn't as cute turned her back on me and then he even went as far as to ask if i tried to reach back out to the girl from church.. i told him the truth which was i had reached out like 3 weeks ago.. first i text her but i realized i was basically blocked.. then i emailed her and she responded but she seemed guarded, like she didn't seem to want to engage with me she was just giving what seemed like robotic responses so i told him, yeah i tried to reach out and kinda check her temperature but it was ice cold toward me lol he was like "daaang" lol i just told him my whole story and kinda left it at that i told him i felt like i made the wrong decision anyway.. when i left i just wondered to myself if what i said changed his outlook at all it really seemed like it might've been one of those conversations orchestrated by the Lord or something i wonder if what i shared had any impact on him he can stop looking for a wife and just stick with this one, or he can eventually send her back to the streets and go out looking for someone he finds more attractive i say stick with the winner appearance is just that- appearance.. that connection though is really where its at and i always say this too.. good looks don't mean good sex and unatttactive looks don't mean bad sex and of course i don't have sex, but i'm just sayin.. we put too much importance on appearance in my opinion
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