I want to talk about one thing I've noticed in my life since I've been trying to follow the Lord's voice
I've always been Christian but I never really understood the Lord's "still, small voice" up until recent years and I'm still learning how the Lord speaks today but one thing I've noticed since I try to follow that still small voice is that it tends to prompt me to apologize for my part in a situation sometimes it just wants me to apologize and carry on, but other times- it prompts me to apologize because there will be a separation what I mean is.. I believe sometimes the Lord tells me to apologize to someone because He knows we won't speak anymore or we won't be cool anymore and so apologizing on my side allows me to say "hey, my bad for such and such" and walk away with no unsaid words.. which allows me to walk away with a fairly clear conscience I look at some people I don't really talk to anymore today and for a few of them.. one of the last things I did was apologize to them and I look back and I'm like wow that must've been God prompting me to do that because I can look back and feel "clean" or like I tried my best or I can look back and say "even if I screwed up, at least I kept it 100 with them and owned up to my crap" despite any pain or regret.. if you can look back and say "hey at least I owned up to my faults and apologized" ..its good for your conscience I imagine some people don't see it this way because they value pride over honesty.. they would rather fight to win an argument than fight for truth or for an understanding of a situation.. and that's fine.. if people want to operate that way then that's cool.. but for me.. I like knowing inside that I attempted to keep it 100 with peeps.. even if we fall out, I look back and see times where I tried to take the high road and it is a comfort to me i remember when myspace came out back in the day and i saw a lot of people i went to middle school and high school with i remember i ended up apologizing to a few people through myspace and telling them "hey sorry i did such and such to you back in the day.. the reason i did that was because blah blah" they were really nice about accepting my apologies i remember which meant a lot its a great blessing to know inside that i have been able to apologize to so many people.. the thing about apologizing is.. it's a humbling experience and you grow when you do it.. some people think they will grow through pride (which is why they clutch onto it so hard) but no.. you will grow if you humble yourself this good feeling not only goes for apologizing but also for just keeping it real with peeps.. for example.. i used to send my grandmother on my dad's side letters in the mail to tell her what i was up to from time to time i could have just blew it off but i said, nah let me send these and make sure i say hi because she lives 5 hours away well when she passed away, i was alright.. because i knew inside that when she was here i stayed in touch and showed her i valued her in my own way so overall.. if anyone is reading this and you strongly feel like you should apologize to someone.. trust me- i know the second thought will be: "don't apologize, they did wrong too" or "maybe they forgot about it" or "don't embarrass yourself" ...u may need to put that second thought on mute, and just go with your first mind and do it it will likely bless the person, and for you it will foster growth and humility one more thing.. in apologizing to people i have noticed many people will say something like "oh, i don't even remember it" or something.. i want to point out that i believe a lot of these comments are so that they appear unaffected.. don't let that response make you think apologizing to people is worthless because "no one even remembers what i did" .. i believe 9 times out of 10 they remember, but if they say "thanks because that really hurt me back then" then they might feel like they look petty.. so just expect that type of "its cool, i don't even remember" type of response but don't believe it.. meaning don't walk away saying "why did i even bother?" .. walk away knowing you did what was right, whether they admit that they "remember" the incident or not isn't the issue but honestly you will likely walk away knowing in your heart whether they remember what you did to them or not, regardless of what they say and finally, just remember this...... sometimes the unction to apologize precedes a separation sometimes that prompting you feel to apologize to someone (or keep it 100 with someone) is an opportunity that won't come again
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