whaaaats up... im not sure what im going to say but im in bed and i kinda felt like writing ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i woke up today with these songs in my head
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spring hill has become more diverse.. when i first got here back in 2014 i was pretty much the only black guy i've noticed more black people being out here lately though one day like a month ago i had to walk to kroger because my car was in the shop.. when i was coming back it was rough because i had a gallon of water and a gallon of milk in my bag along with all the food i bought a black guy offered me a ride and i was very thankful because if he hadn't come, i felt like i might've gotten a neck cramp from the weight anyway, my point was going to be that i think a black female moved in next to me.. i happened to look out the window randomly and when i looked i saw her walking in i'll try to say hello if i see her one day.. its not a huge deal but i work from home so i don't interact much these days, i'll take what i can get i suppose ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ speaking of race/color.. one thing i've noticed about my life is often people have assumed i've wanted a certain type of woman when i was younger people used to assume i only liked white girls.. the reason was perhaps my clothing and music choices? ..or maybe they just couldn't see a guy like me with a black female as time passed, that perception of me only liking white women seems to have changed.. today people tend to accuse me of only liking light skinned women let me just set the record straight first off, i am not racist but i generally don't talk to white females for a a few reasons 1. in my experience, white women are more likely to be in a relationship already 2. in my experience a lot of them just don't like me.. oftentimes they go directly into "i'm ignoring you" mode once they know im interested 3. believe it or not, jobs are segregated.. as i've exited high school and college and entered into jobs, i've realized most jobs are segregated.. so being black in segregated jobs- you're not going to be around many white people unless they're your boss or something.. and it sounds bad but when u look at these office jobs, that's just how they are 4. for the most part, i like black women's bodies more anyway, let's move on to this whole "you only like lightskinned women" thing first off, its not true.. go to 2011 on this site and look at the pictures on the side... u will see a picture of me and a darker skinned girl named espranza i wanted to be with her but she didn't want to be in a relationship with me also i really liked this dark skinned girl named essence who i met in 2019.. however... let's just say im 9 years older than she is, so we weren't exactly lining up mentally we both were interested in one another but there were walls between us as far as our outlooks my overall point is i am not strictly into light skinned women i will say i do really only talk to black women these days but i don't care what their skin tone is i kinda prefer dark skinned right now if anything.. but its not set in stone or anything.. its really just because i liked essence so much ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ here's a sidenote on that girl espranza i mentioned she gave me probably one of the worst ethers i ever experienced from a girl one day i missed some of her calls and when i caught up to her i was like hey sorry i missed some of your calls... she said "it's ok, remember that time i didn't talk to you for 2 years?" and it was true.. she ignored me for like 2 years.. except i just never took it personal, im sure i was disappointed but i just never thought super deep about it.. but when she said that- it really made me realize it for what it was.. this girl really genuinely ignored me for 2 years that was such a shocking, hurtful, and truthful "joke" ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i bought a usb that should have a lot of games on it for the ps1 classic i was going to set it up myself but i decided against it.. i bought the usb on etsy instead hopefully it arrives with no problems and its lit.. i want to play some super nintendo games, i never had a super nintendo back in the day ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ if u follow my site u may remember me talking about a girl named asia and u may remember me saying we stopped talking i don't think i ever mentioned we started talking again we're not a thing or anything but i like having a female in my life to talk to asia needs professional help in my opinion she says some of the most ridiculous things i've ever heard a few weeks ago she said the civil rights movement occurred so that black men could bang white women.. and she meant it sometimes i just shake my head at some of the stuff she says i am at a point with her where, things that might've become arguments in the past today are just things i ignore its like a parent ignoring a child having a tantrum.. i just don't engage don't get me wrong i like asia a lot but she just legitimately needs help.. even just earlier today, we were talking about a celebrity couple and she said "if he did that to me i would treat him the way jada treats will smith" asia just needs professional help, church, and healing but i like her don't get me wrong, i think she is what they call "broken" though ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ this has been just some random thoughts.. but im about ready to dip.. holla brahs
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