i'm sitting here listening to cold's 13 ways to bleed on stage album
it feels good to get back to a place in my life where i can just sit in solitude and listen to rock music it seems like it took a lot to get back to this place.. the james zone if u will i cut a lot of people out of my life because i got tired of the constant gaslighting.. there is no power in disagreement or lies, they weaken you and your sense of reality.. a lot of the women in my life were gaslighting me a lot i feel like i had to cut them out of my life to get back to a place of peace the weird aspect of it though is- once u get to this place.. u almost wonder if u miss the people u let go of.. since i got to this apartment i have really thought about this because when i turned on my computer after it was in storage for a year i saw pictures of my ex g/f and i remembered how utterly gorgeous she was to me i truly thought she was beautiful and i would have married her if she didn't put me through so much crap.. do i miss her? not overall because it was toxic, but i guess a part of me misses what i wanted her to be, or what i hoped for, or what i believed we could've had anyway.. u guys will be happy to know i finally sat back down to look at some lyrics.. i would post some stuff but i should probably save it all for recording i do hope to start rapping again peeps wish me focus.. cuz that's what i need is focus oh and another thing.. i am trying to figure out another website or something still so if anyone has any ideas let me know.. but i hope everyone is doing well.. peaCe
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