just wanted to share some of this
one day when i was a kid i was with my friends chillin in the basement and my dad walked in from mowing the grass.. i was like "whoa u stink!" (just commenting that he smelled like grass basically) he took off his belt and beat me in front of my friends then looked at them and said do yall want it too? they said no and ran off to this day i don't think i deserved that.. it just seemed like it came out of nowhere there was another time where the teacher called the house and said i missed a test.. my dad was like "why didn't you do the test?" i'm like what test? and i'm basically like completely lost and don't know what's going on of course he beat me and then a few days later i heard him say to my mom that he realized i missed the test because i was at the dentist he never apologized for that there was another time where i told my aunt she smelled like fish.. i didn't know anything about vaginas smelling like fish, i just thought she smelled like fish and it was funny to me.. to me it would be like telling someone they smell like pizza.. you guessed it, i got beat for that.. i had no idea why anyway.. my point is.. i had some moments when i was a kid that were horrifying and humiliating and what made them worse was i didn't see them coming at all i got to a point where i would just be nervous a lot.. i would just be thinking "what am i going to do thats going to end in me being beaten?" cuz i couldn't really predict it, and i just felt like i had to walk on eggshells for a long time it was like my dad would walk in a room and i would walk out immediately being an adult is way different... as a kid, someone can legally beat you with a belt as an adult.. the worst thing is typically something that makes u lose money i'd rather lose money than be beaten to tears though anyway.. just wanted to share that depressing blast from the past
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