i had my last counseling session today.. i had counseling for a month and it really helped me out
at first i thought i was only going to go once but people were telling me to keep going til it was finished and so i did
the counselor really helped me to see what my issues were and helped me to see the places where i was going wrong in my thinking and attitudes and actions.. i had some stuff that was pent up also and it got brought out into the light
since the counseling sessions i've noticed a lot of my anger has subsided, and not only that but i've gotten some of my will/drive/confidence back (index to da sky)
a big part of me didn't want to do it but man it was really worth it.. not only just for what it did right now but also for what it showed me in general which is "asking for help isn't a bad thing"
i was seriously going nuts this year and no one seemed to feel where i was coming from so the counseling was dope i would recommend trying it out if u have a sort of inner crisis going on in ur life
chances are if u are a part of a university or a big corporation u have access to free counseling
i've been seeing a lot of pretty girls lately.. a LOT smh.. it takes very little to turn me on.. i'm always admiring women for their different attributes but i rarely ever talk to them or take them seriously
at the end of the day beauty is common.. what's uncommon is a person who will approach you correctly and be real and who will respect you and treat you with care
women remain as mere eye candy to me.. nothing more
i've come to the conclusion that if i NEVER get a girlfriend or a wife then i'm cool with that.. i think this is for two reasons
1. its better to be alone than with someone who brings strife (a lot of girls are candy-coated razor blades)
2. at the end of the day when u are taken out of this world what will matter is where your soul goes.. not whether or not you had a wife and a house with a puppy and two kids
there are things that seem fulfilling in life but imo it would be unwise to try to force anything before its time, or compare ur life to someone else's .. just do the best u can with what u have and understand our steps are ordered.. we can plot and plan all day but time and chance affect everyone
dnt have much else to say right now peeps.. so stay bonkers
today is march 31.. i have decided that i will have an album done in one month and i'll post it for download on may 1st
i'm not saying it will be easy to do this but it is a goal i am setting
as of right now i am thinking the album will be called beautiful or something like that to go with the theme i've been tossing around in my head which is to make all pretty music
i've noticed i'm good at making a lot of diff styles but people seem to enjoy pretty songs a lot
when i say pretty i mean things that are pleasant.. not rough.. easy on the ears.. simple enough to digest.. presentable.. approachable.. fun.. cute.. etc
i like a lot of broken sounding music, however i have noticed only a select few really seem to "get" that style
so this album will be really like.. easy to get into for everyone.. nothing will be too weird or awkward.. every song will be a pretty arrangement
feel free to ask about the progress of the album in the coming weeks
and mark may 1st on ur calendar
oh btw.. "why are u announcing this pool boy?"
because i have realized i need to start setting dates for my goals.. so get readiez!!!!
i realized a long time ago that braids are never an attractive hairstyle.. black women don't seem to understand this, but i think most men and just people in general would agree with me that it is a repulsive arrangement
what's wrong with braids james?
do u see the pictures i just posted?
a hairstyle says something about you.. now if you have braids what is that saying about you?
i'm sexy and sultry? NO.
i'm cute and approachable? NO.
i'm artsy and intelligent? NO.
it says i'm already ugly so i've stopped trying to dress it up..
its like this.. women with braids are the same women who would take a trip to the hair salon and come back bald because they want to be "natural"
take india arie for example
"fck being pretty."
braids is not only just not attractive, its also representative of a certain mindset.. "i can't be pretty so why try?.. instead i'm going to call 'ugly' pretty and rock it like a motherfcker"
another thing braids can say is, "i studied afro-american history in college"
which probably amounts to "i think i'm smarter than you" and/or "i have a right to be angry" lol
"hi, my name is Charles."
if my girl came home looking like this, somebody would get punched.. i don't know if it would be her or the hair stylist.. all i know is someone would have to pay for my pain and suffering.
"hi, my name is homewre- whoops i mean alicia keys.. i'm technically a man but i'll still take your husband (o: "
alicia keys looks like the predator.. and probably acts like it too.. why is she holding swizz beats captive like that? she should be ashamed of herself.. i mean having that abomination of a hairstyle for over a decade is bad enough but here she is taking it so many steps further
alicia keys needs a toolbelt.. she looks like she should be out fixing motorcycles
someone tell me why she is so masculine
maybe its the braids.. that braid mindset has seeped into her DNA..
u know, its like on jersey shore when vinny got the earrings and went from a little more reserved to being a full-blown douchebag.. a hairstyle, or an accessory, or a piece of clothing can change you
and i don't need my woman looking like allen iverson
something tells me that when a woman gets braids, she instantly knows how to fist-fight.. i don't know how i know this, but i trust my instincts
women.. stop with the braids ok.. there's just nothing attractive about it.. period.. stop it.. it doesn't work
unless ur one of those bald-headed 'i-don't-use-deodorant-because-it-funds-terrorism' chicks then STOP WITH THE BRAIDS.. YOU LOOK RIDICULOUS
"thanks for the new hairdo mom.. now i resemble lil wayne AND i'm androgynous! awesome!!"
i want to say i really love the fact that i used to be able to talk to this guy named john at my job but he stopped coming in and i got stuck in here with a bunch of females
then i liked to talk to a girl named elizabeth and i have no idea where she went but she's not here anymore
then i liked talking to david this guy who is in his 40s and now he's out for who knows how long on medical leave
now i'm stuck with a bunch of ass-clowns who have no redeeming qualities
recently i've had words with some females.. ok i want to talk about some of this
females do things that don't make any sense to me
like for example a girl was talking crap on my facebook page, i would normally let it go but i'm tired of it so i messaged her and i said "i don't need your comments unless they are positive"
that's all i said
she proceeded to respond to that with a 5 point message detailing why she is justified in talking to and about me in any way she wants and why my request to have her actually be nice is stupid
then i went to her page to block her and i saw that she had wrote a paragraph status about me
then after i blocked her she emailed me to my regular email and wrote another paragraph to me which i didn't read
why don't girls ever let things go? like what is with all this back and forth? i'm not going to sit and fight with u over some trivial garbage
i don't like the way u talk to me and you obviously don't care enough to change so just don't talk to me at all
and another thing.. why do girls try to label you as a coward or something just because u don't want to argue?
"see you're running away" or "see i knew u were a coward"
NO.. YOU ARE NOT WORTH MY TIME
i'm not going to sit here and fight with you.. like what is the point? ..just go away
girls always try to act so smart but they always show their own ignorance through their actions.. always being so vindictive .. always coming back in your life somehow and trying to ruin your day or make a stupid comment.. all it does is show how desperate and insecure they are
you're not making yourself look any better... JUST GO AWAY
ok youtube is bright white and the other day they posted a "light-switch" that allowed you to make your screen black
i figured.. ok finally! and i figured it was so necessary that it would be a permanent change
WRONG.. now youtube is back to that annoying florescent white and there's nothing i can do about it
the other thing that gets on my nerves online is this:
on various dating sites under "children" it has the following options
- i want to add to the family
- not sure yet
- proud parent
- if i meet the right person
- yes in the future
- don't want kids
the problem with this is it would make a WHOLE lot more sense for this to just be a yes or no question
do you have kids? yes or no
with the way it is currently, there is no way to just search a full list of women without kids
i don't care about a woman's attitude toward kids.. i just want to know whether she has them or not.. dating sites.. stop making this ish so complicated
i saw this girl on facebook.. i told her she was cute in a message and she said thanks.. then i tried to do a friend request to her but she didn't accept it.. oh well..
but dang she is so fine.. she's so hott it don't even make sense like u gotta be kidding me right now, how is she even a real person?
i did this tonight for fun after working out.. i sampled my friend giles in here, as well as the deftones..
i messed around with some effects here and there.. this is triphop blues.. just something i did to have fun with..
i like it but i didn't put much thought into it.. no real lyrics no chorus etc. ... just something to listen to and feel
yo these r the freshest kids i've ever seen!
i used to like them when i was a kid.. dang, even in hindsight they're still tight!
i'm deep into music and i'm always wearing headphones so sometimes people ask me what headphones to buy..
recently my wesc headphones broke so i bought a pair of sony headphones to replace them and they're not the same.. i miss the wesc ones
i recommend wesc headphones for a number of reasons
they're durable and don't have a feeling of being 'cheap' at all.. they feel sturdy and they last longer than most of the headphones i've gotten in the past.. they feel good on everyone's head no matter who u are and they don't feel awkward
the sound isn't INCREDIBLE but its really good.. what i mean by that is they probably couldn't hold a candle to something like a beats by dre but beats will cost you like $250 while wesc will cost you $40.. but there is a great bass response and the music overall feels comfortable.. it gets loud enough.. the highs aren't too high or anything like that
it has a very "i-could-get-used-to-this" type of sound.. u'll understand if u try them out
i also like the fact that wesc headphones have a short cord with an optional extension (comes in the box).. so i normally just clip a sansa onto the short cord and i never get it snagged on anything and i don't have to use my pocket or my hands to carry my mp3 player
one last thing i want to point out is the cord on the wesc headphones is thick.. its purposely thick so that it won't tangle.. this is a good idea and its another example of why these headphones are better than the average
one thing i will say tho is if you workout, i recommend you get a 2nd pair of headphones.. this is what i recommend for working out
^these are philips sport headphones that wrap around the neck.. have these on standby for when u want to go outside in the hot sun or when u want to bust a sweat at the gym because you can workout with the wesc ones but they will make ur ears sweat and u'll be unnecessarily hot
so here's my portable music recommendation:
- get a sansa clip (easy, cheap, hands free, long battery life)
- get wesc headphones
- get philips sport headphones and have them on standby for working out
i guarantee if you get these 3 things, your portable music will be a perfect experience