i saw a shirt recently and it said:
"i played video games all day and all i got was"
and that was it.. there was no word after "was" because video games are a fruitless endeavor
not saying its fruitless as a DISS, i'm just saying what ultimately do u gain?
like i have a friend who tries to get as many playstation 3 trophies as possible, spending hour upon hour playing games, but even if he gets the trophy.. what significance does that hold?
or say if ur a collector.. say u take pride in having the largest dvd collection of anyone you know.. does that really matter in the grand scheme of things? you have more dvds than most people.. awsum
and i don't think its wrong or bad to have your own fun and pursue your weird hobby... but i'm just pointing out that ever since i saw that shirt, i think about things through that lens.. and that lens is overlooked a lot
i ask myself what things amount to and its very eye-opening because we do a lot of things that have no true, helpful, enriching, or edifying meaning or purpose
for example: we do some competitive things simply for bragging rights
"our team is better at volleyball than that team"
a lot of competitive things have no real value, as well as a lot of entertainment things.. i'm not exactly AGAINST these things but what i'm saying is.. try to think about things through that shirt caption.. try to give things a second thought..
i think we all question the meaning of things at one point or another.. but mostly when we look at OTHER people.. like one good example is the wife who just detests her husband's love of monday night football.. "its completely pointless" she thinks to herself
or to give a personal example, i think dancing is just a very worthless thing.. like if i see dancing with the stars or ABDC on television, TO ME it looks like nonsense
but aside from that.. i am writing this in hope that people will look at THEIR OWN LIFE THIS TIME.. not the lives and endeavors of others
like u may take a look at your life and say:
"i procrastinated all day today and all i got was..."
"i argued with my ex for an hour today and all i got was..."
"i've been worrying for a week and all i got was..."
the question is.. do u think u can replace some of your nonessential, and borderline nonsensical activity with something productive and positive?
either say "yes" right now.. or take some time and marinate on it a bit
either way, ur taking a step in the right direction
maybe u can replace some video game time with some exercise time
maybe instead of taking the bait and arguing with your ex u can let the phone go to voicemail and spend some time praying about things in your life
maybe instead of feeling bad about your own life you can try to make someone else's life way better
u feel wat i'm sayen?
btw... ^this whole thing goes for me too.. its time to take a second look at the overall significance of what we do! we can replace some of the negative with positive!!!
i just wanted to say the whole "11" thing still happens to me ... a LOT
today it happened so many times i totally lost count
it has never stopped
its like things happen in a way to where something is "setting me up" to see 11, whether it be 11cents (which i found on my bathroom floor just now) or whether it be a time like 4:11, 7:11, 11:11 etc. or even a number on a car or something
like i will be asleep then i'll hear a noise and get up and happen to look at the clock and there it is
someone knocks at the door and i'm like "i'm not expecting company" ..i look at the clock before i get up to answer the door.. there it is
the other day my mom called me and she asked my dad in the background what time it was.. he didn't answer so she looked and said "oh its 11:11"
it just happens constantly
i still only vaguely know what it means
i try to pray about it and i even looked up biblical numerology.. i have seen a few diff things about what it can mean.. i do know 11-11-11 is coming up too which is a bit weird..
anyway i try not to talk about this too much cuz its madd weird and sometimes scary
but if anyone was wondering.. YES it still happens i just don't talk about it much cuz i am foggy as to what it means.. like i said i just try to pray about it
i have my next 3 or 4 beats i want to use lined up already
wow how dope is that
just need some time to write!
i really would like to work with my sister on some music again but she is normally busy these days
its ok tho.. oh speaking of collab keytone wants me to do a verse for one of his new songs
the beat is dope so this should be fun.. i will try to keep u all updated
today is my birthday.. i'm now 27..
a lot of people are like "what r u doing for ur birthday?"
i am doing homework thats what!
real talk i'll tell u what i want out of my 27th yr
i want to freakin graduate college.. MAKE IT STOP!!!
yeah ok whatever tho hollaz
here are the problems i've run into with females:
**too sarcastic.. be serious stop with that dumb defense mechanism
**too beat-down and bitter.. they want to treat me like "all men" as opposed to treat me like james.. they want to make me 'pay' for something some other guy did to them
**too much of a pushover.. be honest, have your own opinions.. don't form everything u say and do around something i've said or done.. being a pushover is a form of dishonesty whether u recognize it or not.. u have to be honest about who u are and what u want.. u don't have to be "bitchy" or mean about it.. just honest and true to yourself
**not knowing anything.. people who replace their brain with whatever is on mtv.. if mtv says stop sexting, they stop sexting, if mtv says don't say things are "gay" they stop saying things are "gay" .. if mtv says partying is cool then they think partying is cool.. if mtv says vote, then u say "rock the vote!".. if u don't know anything about the Bible or about society then we can't be together .. these people may have knowledge but they have no real wisdom or understanding or discernment
**being elusive.. trying to make me "work" for things and exercise control over me.. i will always resist it.. these women are calculated as opposed to natural about things.. instead of letting things progress, they try to control and manipulate things to happen in their favor.. like in that song i did called 'womenz' i said "you hold your presence for ransom" <---perfect analogy for these women
**too loose.. can't deal with it.. for one i don't trust u, for two how are you going to make me a better man? iron sharpens iron but i am trying to live right and you're not, so how are u going to "sharpen" me ever? if i get weak and want to sin then u will probably tell me to go ahead and sin.. you're not helping me.. i want someone who helps me be a better james
**too competitive.. if i get a better job then u want a better job too out of the blue.. in reality u want to see if you can one-up me for whatever reason..
**too much baggage.. look i don't even need to point out the various forms of baggage.. the fact is if u have too much then u don't have room for me even if u think u do, you don't
i can probably come up with more but these were just off the top of my head real quick
have u ever seen the movie "the scent of a woman" ?
its REALLY good
it was a real interesting movie about a guy who basically was a social misfit
he wanted to kill himself really bad because no one understood him.. he was really smart funny and cool but just never really fit in
so finally, toward the end of the movie he ended up meeting a woman.. and all that pain and anguish and anxiety went away
his life finally felt normal, he only needed one woman to make him feel good again, i don't think he knew that.. but when she came, he stopped wanting to die
this is kinda what i feel like sometimes.. not that i want to die or anything like that, but its just like- "dang, if only someone really understood me and could help me actually feel sane"
someone who would be there for me, someone who "fits" with me.. the main thing that makes me forget thoughts like this is music.. i don't feel that feeling of being "incomplete" when i do music
but whatever, just puttin my thoughts out there
btw.. here's the scientific explanation behind everything i just said:
"Oxytocin is an important feel good hormone. Oxytocin is released when we feel love, trust and comfort. It can be even more powerful than serotonin. If you need a lift, remember the power of simply spending time with your significant other or family members and friends."
^found that online somewhere
smh.. why do my nephews think its so cool and funny to dance around and be naked when i'm the only adult around?
what is it about me that makes them want to act completely insane? its like some kind of unspoken thing.. "uncle bonkers is here, time to strip and dance!"
WHY CANT I HAVE THIS SAME EFFECT ON TEH WOMENZ!?
SMH... its times like this when i feel like someone, somewhere is laughing at me.
in the men's bathroom there was a writing above the toilet and it had an arrow pointing downward and it said "art degree disposal system" LOL
i'm so glad i never chose to pursue art.. i mean i feel really good about my communications major to a point where i don't need further confirmation but hey, it was there anyway
today in class the teacher asked if anyone wanted to be in the recording industry and someone pointed at me and the teacher was like .. "james u want to be in it right?"
i shook my head no
a few people started talking about the prospect of money.. i'm still shaking my head no
i said "i think they try to take whatever you do and water it down or change your message to fit their agenda or their format"
no one said anything after that.. point made..
any con man will tell u the easiest people to con are the ones who are greedy.. don't abandon your integrity for money u feel what i'm sayin?
basically, u don't go looking for someone to pimp you... or else you'll be posing with pink fried chicken necklaces like a certain someone
i got a B in my 8wk class that just ended <-- awsumz!
uncharted 3 got a 10 at ign.com..
dopeness.. 10s r very rare.. maybe i can get that game and play it after the semester ends
u guys stay bonkers.. dnt have much to say, just keepin this place updated
this is just one man's story about how he was presented with the option to sell his soul for a great career in music
i'm posting this so everyone can see this stuff is real
when i expose how satanic a lot of music is, there's a reason why its like that
some people sell their soul, or some people do rituals, or some people just sacrifice their belief in Christ more and more over time
here's the link to watch the rest of his story on youtube
i'm just posting this so everyone can see this aspect of the music industry
u have to remember satan was the head of music in heaven so he still uses that here on earth to destroy people in various ways
this guy's experience explains how/why a lot of bands have so much success for such a long time
i could go on for days about bands and how a lot of them are linked to the occult, paganism, humanism, and satanism.. but whatever
if ur interested just peep the video