i ran across a girl's profile on a dating site tonight and i wanted to say something about it real quick
she said something like:
"i am very sarcastic, if you are offended easily then i am probably not who u should be talking to"
ok.. as i read this, this is what i heard:
"if you date me, i'm going to diss you"
she just told me that if i go out with her i am likely to be offended.. man.. WHAT PERSON WANTS TO SIGN UP FOR THAT
i don't think anything is really wrong with sarcasm because it can be very funny and clever however it depends HOW you use it.. if you use it too much, or if you use it in a way where it hurts PEOPLE (i say direct it at situations as opposed to people) then its negative
i always liked sarcasm on daria because it was funny
however sometimes i meet people who make me hate sarcasm since they become like real-life debbie downers in their own way
this female seems proud of her sarcasm
***oooh! ooh! pick me! *waves hand* i want you to diss me next!!!***
just comin thru to let everyone kno wat i been up 2
a girl at work has been flirting with me.. its nice to kno someone at work digs me.. i told my friend about her and he was like "oh HER!? man i been tryin to get her to talk to ME!"
then he said something about wanting to bang her sideways or something SMH
to me, females are a responsibility just as much as they are a benefit
i've been kinda marinating on this recently and i've been saying to myself .. "it would be nice to meet a girl after i get my life together"
right now i'm still in school just working a regular job.. it seems to be in my best interest just to be single until i have accomplished something of value
the more i think about it, the more i like this approach.. not being concerned about dating or impressing girls, and just doing what is best for myself for the time being
being alone used to seem so awful but i've been realizing it has a purpose
here are some pics i drew at werk..
^^both the result of massive boredom
i am hoping to get a new cell phone on friday.. i am looking forward to it.. its a smartphone with a free unlimited music service
my current phone gets the job done, but it will be neat to see all the stuff this new phone does
^random pics aka my attempt to make up for my lack of content
^dope link.. u should peep this story.. it explains A LOT.. i'm pretty sure once u go to this link, the story will go to ur computer's download folder.. its a good story check it out if u want
its a real story not fiction.. i REALLY liked it and it touches on a lot of things happening today
this includes info about heaven and hell, religions, the future of society and a lot of other things.. u kinda have to read the whole thing but its not that long its like a mini-book with a lot of great info
it explains a lot of what is going on around us
this is a few old blogs put together .. they were collecting dust in my draft folder
u kno.. one thing that really irks me is how sitcoms, cartoons, and movies oftentimes have a "dumb" character
i don't understand why this is done so often.. the dumb characters are painfully unaware of everything going on around them
why is this funny?
to me its ridiculous
in everyday life we get into strife with people due to character flaws and the dynamics of interpersonal relationships.. its not as simple as "i'm smart and you're stupid"..
why does the media always perpetuate this whole notion of a person who is completely stupid but not retarded?
i've met people who can't spell.. i've met people who don't really care about school or booksmarts or politics, i've met people who don't like computers
but everyone is different and has a different lifestyle and different role to fill.. these people aren't dumb
so where does the media get this whole "dumb" character thing from? its overdone, its not funny, and to be honest its just too simple
there are different cultures, different values, different religions, different interests, different talents and abilities.. no one is just plain dumb and useless and completely unaware of their surroundings
this whole dumb character thing reeks of "LAZY-WRITER SYNDROME" .. come up with something other than "the dumb character"
this just came back.. i'm glad.. its pretty good.. its basically grape mountain dew.. try it out if u haven't already
this cracked me up LOLZ
i started paying my tithes and offering online.. this makes it a lot easier than trying to bring the correct amount of money to church.. as soon as i get paid i can just transfer the funds to a church and go about my business
i don't have a home church right now in clarksville, but i try to put the money in a ministry that i respect
i have realized i have a hard time taking girls seriously
i met a girl last year who i really loved to an extreme amount.. it seems like all girls today get compared to her
in all of her quirks and imperfections she was special to me.. i don't know if i can put my finger on it.. it was beyond something tangible
she carried something that i can't explain and it seems like nothing from a female will ever capture my interest again until a similar attraction presents itself
it seems like every girl pales in comparison to her.. i am unsure of what to do about this
i asked my mom what she did when she was faced with a similar situation when she was younger.. she said she stopped caring about the guy she was passionate about and instead began to look for certain good qualities and characteristics in new people
the guy she liked was her sweetheart but after that was out of the question anymore then she began looking for things that would "work"
i thought about what she said and i didn't like it
its as if she said u have 2 options.. the person you adore and the person who is right for you
wait.. so u mean to tell me they're not the same person?
i really just hope she is wrong.. i don't want a marriage born out of autonomy, i want that "spark".. that thing that makes me feel like the luckiest most blessed man alive.. i want the girl i intrinsically adore, not just the one who makes the grade on a checklist
i will have to pray and study the bible to see if and/or where i'm going wrong in my thinking concerning all of this
DIRT 3 IS FINALLY HEREZ!!!!! i definitely have to get it!!!
how come if i say i'm dating more than one girl at a time and a female hears me she always gives me a stupid lecture or tells me how wrong i am?
1. you're letting your own personal baggage speak for you
2. you don't know me
3. dating by definition is not exclusive (ur still getting to know a person)
4. if a girl told u she was dating 2 guys you would probably say its a good thing
5. WHO ASKED YOU
what i've been doing lately is just working, and trying to figure out the direction my life is going to take
i told myself earlier this year that if i didn't pass my classes then i'd quit school and find something else to do.. if i passed them then i'd just go on and finish
well i passed them so i guess school is still on the agenda
i've been trying to find a major, the one i wanted wasn't offered but i talked to a lady who said she would sign me up for it regardless
the major is art with a concentration is visual communication.. i'm hoping this will be more hands-on or something.. i get tired of going to school and feeling like i'm not doing anything.. u just go and sit and listen to a lecture then go home and read a book for 10 hours
i also keep thinking about when and where i should move.. i always get a feeling like i need to check out seattle
i hope my decisions narrow themselves down and everything clears up.. i definitely have to pray and plan.. clarksville, tn is NOT where i want to live the rest of my life
i saw this comment on youtube..
Why is it that a guy who has sex with a lot of girls is a winner and a girl who has sex with plenty of guys is a slut? If a key opens lots of locks, it's a master key. But if a lock is opened by lots of keys, then it's a shitty lock.
ok one thing i want to put out there is why i'm so adamant about telling girls i don't dance
they don't seem to understand why i make it a point to say it specifically and be so serious about it
the reason i'm like this is because i am a black male.. there is a myth out there that all black men like to dance..
remember that movie "save the last dance" ? yeah that movie was nothing but an hour of stereotypes.. but white girls across the world really have fantasies like that.. like they will be the hip white girl with some usher type guy or something
some white females seem to think they can date me and go dancing with me and its just built-in because i'm black
i've been guilt tripped into dancing when i have expressed that i have no interest in it
see there's a certain psychological debate that happens when u say u don't want to dance.. people then begin to try to make other assumptions about your character "you're afraid" "you're too shy" or my favorite "you CAN'T dance so let me show you how"
this puts me in a position of trying to prove i can do something that i never wanted to do in the first place and i am subjected to someone trying to teach me something because "i need to know how" or because "no girl will ever like a guy who doesn't take her dancing"
after a while of being subjected to this i realized it is all manipulation
if i say i don't have interest in something then it is your job to respect that, if you can't then get out of my life
if you can't handle the fact that i am black yet not a walking stereotype then that's fine.. LEAVE
i am not here to be anyone's bo-jangles
if a girl said "i don't like video games" that's fine.. i'm not going to begin to play with her mind and make her feel less-than because she isn't interested in them.. i'm not going to say "oh, you must be too chicken to play"
that would be manipulation.. women have ways of manipulating guys.. its like when u see politics and someone says "if you don't do this or that, then you're not a real american"
well then you try to do what they say a "real american" does.. little do you know YOU WERE ALWAYS A REAL AMERICAN.. but u have now fell victim to a trap
and that's what i dealt with from about age 16 to 19 and i don't mean just dancing either.. i mean women do this sort of thing in many situations
they like to say that what they like is important and what you like is trivial and stupid
i was called immature and childish cuz i liked video games
i was called out of touch and unattractive cuz i had no interest in dancing
i was praised for watching things like dawson's creek and romantic adam sandler movies
after a while i realized how much i was being manipulated
GIRLS.. YOU DO NOT HOLD THE LEASE ON EVERYTHING SMART INTELLIGENT OR GOOD
this is the same thing that people do to blacks.. if you have an upstanding black person then people say "you act white"
AS IF EVERY GOOD TRAIT IS WHITE AND EVERY BAD TRAIT IS BLACK
girls need to figure out whether they want a man or a girlfriend with a penis.. girls want ment to sacrifice everything masculine yet remain happy in the relationship.. its not going to happen
u probably still don't believe or understand me.. let me give some visual examples of what i mean.
^this is what girls find attractive.. this is how guys can get approval from women
BUT ITS GAY AS F*CK!!!!!
stop with all this "i need a guy who loves to dance and see the opera and go to weddings with me"
THAT IS NOT PRACTICAL IF YOU WANT A HETEROSEXUAL MALE... if a guy wants to watch sports or play a video game, or scratch his nuts.. LET HIM BE A GUY!!!! stop trying to turn me into your harmless male girlfriend pet!!!!!!
girls want ricky martin.. WELL GUESS WHAT!? RICKY MARTIN IS GAY!!!!!
if you want a guy who dances, go to a gay club and dance all night with a butt-pirate
if you want a real guy with a beard and grapefruit sized testicles then call the pool boy
SO.. in conclusion
THIS IS WHY I MAKE IT A POINT TO TELL GIRLS WHO AND WHAT I AM UPFRONT
i sternly say i am a Christian.. i sternly say don't ever expect me to dance
i will live up to what i deem proper to live up to and not what u want me to be.. if you don't like me FINE
HAVE A GOOD LIFE
old album love is elusive is now in the music section peep it if u want.. available for listen and/or download
more to come hopefully
(as always thanks to giles and kb.. kb did half the beats and giles did guitar on hott friend)
the deeper i get in Christianity the more people think i'm crazy
i'm not crazy i'm totally sane, i feel like everyone else is crazy
like for example i look around sometimes and i see "christians" who just live any kind of way they want to live.. basically they live like atheists because they don't try to mind the Lord and His commandments
what doesn't make sense about this to me is why do u still go to church? why do u still put money in the collection plate? why are you wasting your time and money on something and saying it means everything to you when in reality it means nothing to you?
and then u turn around and tell me IM the crazy one because i actually try to follow the bible and increase in knowledge
ok let me point something else out that people don't seem to understand
if you see something crazy, there is a 33% chance that its not crazy at all
for example say i'm on the internet and i run across a news article that says "dora the explorer is satanic"
YES.. IT DOES SOUND STUPID AT FIRST... HOWEVER........
here's the thing.. if i run across an article like that.. there are really only 3 outcomes
1. the person who wrote the article is crazy
2. the person who wrote the article did it as a satire
3. the person actually came across some information that i didn't know about, that totally flew under the radar.. and they are telling the truth
there you have it.. concerning a lot of things.. you have a 33% chance that something "ridiculous" is actually true
i am the type of person who would hear out an argument before i laugh at it
because of this i get deemed stupid by people
people think i'm dumb all the time but they don't understand that at any given moment i could sit down and write out a 5 page essay on why i'm right and they're not
but no one would listen that far so i stay quiet most of the time
right now for example, someone isn't talking to me because i told them about how something they like is blasphemous
instead of hearing me out, they get mad at me
I GUARANTEE YOU THIS IS HOW NOAH FELT
no one believed it would rain
AND THEY ALL DROWNED
i have a friend who is haunted by demons in his house
he takes it lightly and says they're ghosts but to me they're demons
i say this for a number of reasons.. there is a correlation between demonic activity and 3am and he has stated they are always most active at 3am or he always wakes up at 3am.. sidenote:
this is not necessary but read this if you are interested in hearing a little more about demons and 3am.. its just the latest story i read ( http://www.trueghosttales.com/stories/demon-experiences-cl.php )
also he says sometimes a place in his house will just get cold for no apparent reason.. that is a demonic presence
there are other things too.. however the latest thing i just saw is that he also is likely possessed, not just his house, but HIM as a person
i happen to know he likes to hang around in cemeteries
then today i found this and it reminded me of him (the excerpt is about ozzy osbourne)
According to the Word of God, one of the characteristics of demon-possession is hanging around tombs or graveyeards: The Bible in Mark 5, describes a man possessed with an unclean spirit. The Bible says he was ". . . dwelling among the tombs. . ."Mark 5:1-5
1 And they came over unto the other side of the sea, into the country of the Gadarenes. 2 And when he was come out of the ship, immediately there met him out of the tombs a man with an unclean spirit, 3 Who had his dwelling among the tombs; and no man could bind him, no, not with chains:
4 Because that he had been often bound with fetters and chains, and the chains had been plucked asunder by him, and the fetters broken in pieces: neither could any man tame him. 5 And always, night and day, he was in the mountains, and in the tombs, crying, and cutting himself with stones.
To no surprise, Ozzy also told Creem magazine, he "loved graveyeards":"I was always sittin' in graveyards. Loved the tranquility. There's an eerie silence in there, and there was always a sweet smell. Unearthly." (Creem Metal, October 1984, p. 39) "I was born in fear and I've got many, many demons that affect me on many, many levels. . ." (Harry Shaw, Ozzy Talking, p. 126) "I have this little demon that keeps making me drink. . ."
(Harry Shaw, Ozzy Talking, p. 75)
i'm begining to see more and more interesting correlations between demons and certain afflictions and habits
just wanted to drop some of this info off
ok so.. i haven't been writing in here but i think i may have figured out why
interests don't GO AWAY, they just change, mutate, and u have to catch up with urself to figure out where your interests lie
well i think my writing interest has gone from this blog (not for long, just for now) to WRITING A BOOK
if God allows it, i will write a book, put it in pdf form, and post it here on my site
it won't be free but it won't be expensive either
the reason it won't be free is because it will be my autobiography
i don't want to put something this personal out there for free.. if you pay for it then i'll at least feel like i'm not playing myself
hopefully everything will go smooth.. updates will come soon if God allows
i think im gnna release another instrumental album
this will from be like.. 05-06 and instead of it being made on the playstation the beats r from the computer
this one might actually even be more than 17 tracks.. or perhaps i'll have to make two of them because i got a lot in the stash
i'm just releasing these instrumental albums because they've never seen the light of day
i had no real way to release them as a volume until now with my website and other resources that allow people to download them
gnna have to get started later tho cuz i'm about to leave but its gnna be tight! peaCe