i have never once in my entire life seen a black female video game reviewer
magazines, internet sites, tv shows I HAVE NEVER SEEN ONE what is the deal with that?
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people lie about who they are and what they have too much
this is something i barely pay attention to generally however i keep seeing it lately some of the most depressed and messed up people have the best public personas it is ridiculous- do not look at other people and compare yourself to them because guess what- chances are you are seeing a lie people are always bragging about things like their new relationship or how they are getting married, or how their kid is the smartest or how they got a new job blah blah blah it is so fake.. lol.. what u don't know is that the whole reason they are showing you these things on facebook is because they want your validation if u were legit happy and content would you have to take a picture every 5 seconds to prove it to other people? would you have to talk about how happy you are online all day if u were really out having a blast? i mean its one thing to share, its another thing to just be looking for validation all day every day people are so fake its ridiculous.. there are so many instances of people and their frontin like for example, i remember one girl was like.. "my boobs are huge i have to get my bras from a special store" so then i met her in person and she was right, her boobs really were huge.. problem was.. SO WAS EVERYTHING ELSE!!! this girl was so fat it it was mind boggling lol people are just fake man seriously.. i hate talking about good things generally and some people are like "why do you always complain" but for one, a statement is not exactly a complaint.. like if i say "i have no friends" that isn't a complaint.. it is a statement for two.. saying good things seems to invite bad things... i don't know why but that just seems to be how it works listen to rap music for a clear example.. they are rapping about how they have money and champagne and women and then the next thing they are rapping about is the jealousy and envy and greed that follow them everywhere you might as well live an understated lifestyle sometimes when i talk about good things i don't want to say anything but sometimes i feel like God would be upset at me- like if i pray for money and he gives me $500, i don't want to tell people but sometimes i think God would be disappointed if i didn't try to explain it- because people can use it as a blueprint to get out of their own struggle but generally- i hate telling people good things.. i much prefer telling people how i have no money and no furniture because people can see i'm approachable and not pretentious... ALSO (and here is one thing stunters and facebook fronters don't seem to understand) each time i explain my own struggles with another person i A. get to talk about my struggles with another person which keeps me from having to pay a therapist and B. I GET UNEXPECTED HELP look if you go out and people are like "you graduated, where do you work?" and you are unemployed but you say "i work at a law firm" GUESS WHAT.. THAT PERSON MIGHT HAVE HAD AN OPPORTUNITY FOR YOU BUT NOW YOU WONT GET IT if you reply.. "man, i don't have anything- i've been trying but its been tough" then you JUST MIGHT GET A JOB ON THE SPOT DEPENDING ON WHETHER OR NOT THE PERSON HAS SOMETHING THEY CAN OFFER YOU this is one of the stupidest things about fronters and stunters.. they close themselves off from basic care, interest, love, help, assistance, etc which is why they oftentimes A. have to pay people to listen to them and B. have no help because their own pride is keeping them from advancement!!!! that is also why people say things like "i'm smarter than that person, so why did they get a job and i didnt?" again... "i'm smarter than that person" smh.. as if your tiny brain can even comprehend the totality of intelligence and intelligent behavior.. did you ever think "smart" comes in more flavors than just book knowledge and spelling correctly? guess not. read your bible, "God resists the proud" "pride comes before a fall" you clench your own self worth to your own demise.. you need to be humble so you can be honored and elevated or forever be a fronter and a stunter.. claiming "i don't need any help" "i have it all together" "i'm smarter than other people" smh.. let people know the real, ask for help, ask for prayer, don't just accept compliments, give them.. live in the freedom and honesty of humility i saw this picture on plenty of fish and i just had to speak on it.. mainly the caption she put on it
i don't really use the site but i still browse around out of habit ok here's the thing.. i see women do this a lot- and i know i said i would try not to talk about women as much but i have to put this out there i've heard single women say things like this before and the problem is its never true.. what these women are doing is becoming a representation of everything THEY THEMSELVES want- not what men want for example.. this girl's hair makes her look like a fake whoopi goldberg.. also she is fat.. also she has a phd.. which is fine but you post it all over your page as if men will be more attracted to you because you have it.. lol that's what i'm talking about.. YOU want a man with a phd.. YOU like looking like a rastafarian.. YOU like being fat and unshapely MEN DONT WANT THAT what her hope is, is that a man will see her page saying she has a phd and he will say "oh man she has a phd, so she is better than all these other girls!" LOL!!!!!! (i am literally laughing right now) i know another girl who said something like what this^ girl said this girl was complaining to me on the phone about how she has everything guys say they want but no men will stay with her this person legit, i kid you not has had 2 abortions, has an std, is overweight, and on top of all that- is kinda arrogant with all the "i'm independent" crap and she argues with men all the time.. i know this because she tells me about her dates.. she is stubborn and has that sort of "i want to debate with a man" problem that a lot of feminists have.. and she isn't a feminist, but she has that issue so when she was on the phone complaining to me saying "men all say they want what i have but they never take what i offer" I DIDNT SAY ONE WORD I SAID NOTHING AT ALL what am i going to say? she legit thinks she is the perfect woman!!!!! lol WHAT AM I GOING TO SAY!!!!! that's why i'm always asking questions like.. what are my issues, what can i work on in myself to be more attractive to women? because I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE THE WOMEN I JUST SPOKE ABOUT WHO ARE 100% OBLIVIOUS TO WHAT THE OPPOSITE SEX WANTS AND EXPECTS YOU DONT MAKE THE RULES ON WHAT IS ATTRACTIVE.. THE OPPOSITE SEX DOES IF WOMEN LIKE MUSCLES THEN I HAVE TO WORK ON GETTING MUSCLES IF MEN LIKE WOMEN WHO ARE FEMININE THEN WOMEN NEED TO STOP TRYING TO ACT LIKE MEN WHATEVER THE CASE MAY BE WE NEED TO GET REAL WITH OURSELVES THAT PICTURE I POSTED ABOVE COMES OFF AS WILDLY ARROGANT BY ITSELF AND THAT ALONE IS LIKELY ENSURING HER SINGLEHOOD how can you be "everything i believe in" when you are A. not cute B. fat, not thick or voluptuous or even bbw... just fat C. arrogant/know-it-all (claiming to know what all men want yet being way off) D. have a warped sense of self importance due to your degree since its all u chose to talk about on your profile COME ON EVERYONE LETS GET REAL WITH OURSELVES!!!!!!!! i somewhat want to talk about this rapper kevin gates who recently spoke out and said he was having sex with a girl for months then he found out she was his cousin.. and when i say cousin, i mean REAL cousin.. as in parent's sibling's child so he said he found out but then he said he didn't want to stop having sex with her this is an example of sin taking u further than you intend to go if he was living God's standard he wouldn't be having sex at all until he was married which would have prevented him from the incest thing so what u have is like.. a sin leading to more sin here's another example: u might have sex with someone then find out they are married, which basically means u have also committed adultery u see things like this a lot but u see a lot of people try to pass blame here's a very common one, u have sex with someone and they break your heart and all of a sudden its their fault.. like u willingly were doing something God never told u to do but when they break your heart its all "their" fault.. in your mind you did no wrong God never told you to develop a soul tie and waste 5 yrs of your life with a person with no commitment.. God legit told you to get the commitment ! (like this video below.. you don't have a ring so why are you so surprised? sorry- i don't feel bad for you) speaking on sex.. i heard a crazy quote the other day
this guy was talking about sex rituals people do to be initiated into clubs and cults of money and fame and he said this: (this is a copy paste of what he said) “Yep, Yep! I am not giving my soul up and I’m not giving my hole up! Your a$$hole is connected to your spine and your spine is connected to your brain” this opened up a whole new compartment in my brain because that statement made me think about sex as mind control.. i mean if our body, soul, spirit, and mind are all attached.. then how does a physical act of penetration male or female- affect us? have you ever sat and thought about that? it just blew my mind a bit and i am now thinking i want to research that topic more- like how does physical intimacy affect us and if it does- can we use it for good and evil alike? can we harness that power? are we already seeing that power be used for or against people? ANYWAY back to kevin gates and him finding out he was having sex with his cousin yet not wanting to stop so basically once he found out she was his cousin he said he didn't want to stop because they basically get along and the sex is good and "why stop a good thing?" he's basically saying "hey we already crossed the line so why not cross it again?" THIS IS AN INTERESTING THING TO ME morally- this is something you see a lot in life.. you see people who have crossed a line and they look back and say "hey, its been crossed, so why try to fall back in line now?" one way you see this a lot is with people who are divorced.. they get divorced and they hook back up and have sex over and over again which TO ME defeats the purpose of said divorce and likely rewards one party and punishes the other as one enjoys the sex alone and the other wants more i.e. approval, affection, forgiveness, love, etc.. when they realize they aren't and likely won't get those things- then the sex will finally stop but my point in saying all of this is to sort of ask a question what do u guys think of situations where you know you went too far or you crossed a line but convenience seems to say "keep doing this" ?? convenience says "keep having sex after your divorce" which may or may not stop you from meeting someone who is actually legit convenience says "keep having sex with this woman even though you found out she is your cousin.. why stop now?" your family reunions might get awkward with the rumors and things but you don't feel like coloring inside the lines anymore you feel like you went too far- how do you get back to feeling like you didn't cross the line? how can you get back into the mental space where the boundaries are clear ? you've been living in gray area so long that you can't really see the black and the white anymore.. the good and the bad are blurred and its all just "whatever" i don't know! other than prayer, i don't really know how u can sort of come back from these things to have an unstained mind but i feel like- if you WANT to come back from lukewarmness then that is at least a good sign!! some people are cool with A. being lukewarm or B. being flat out cold so if u at least want to put things back in order then that is a good sign so like in the case of kevin gates.. if he said "i found out she was my cousin and i felt bad so i wanted to repent" i would say at least he is trying but when he says "i don't want to stop" its like oh snap.. this dude is out there on some long-hair don't care ish! this is all just my thoughts on sex and our inner moral compass for the day oh btw about 2 months ago- this girl at my job was having sex with a guy for a while until she found out he was married, and so her heart broke and she started missing work and stopped trying to look decent and everything.. then about a week ago she met another guy and when i asked her what she's doing over the weekend- she said she is staying at his house overnight do u peeps think she is headed for the same thing she just came out of? my guess is "yes" .. i even told her that the things this new guy has been telling her sound like game to me like "yeah baby let me wash your car" and "yeah i'm wanting to settle down" yeah right smh.. not hating on the guy but men know what to say to get a woman's trust u know i will try to do an update on it so u guys can see what i see i feel like demons will have people come into your life and try to steer you into things you would never do on your own.. like with this particular girl at my job.. i think the enemy is sending men who will use her so that she will become depressed and kill herself i saw with my own eyes how depressed she got when that first guy played her.. so if and/or when it happens again- who knows what will happen.. suicide, lesbianism.. all these extra sins are at the end of your seemingly 'innocent' and 'fun' sin not dissing- just sayin! i ain't sayin, i'm just sayin! i mean it goes for me too!!! guys if u are reading this- if u are wanting to live above the flesh here is my advice.. not from the Bible but just from me: james A. pray for a good church home B. try to keep God in your life.. remember darkness is absence of light C. seek out a God-fearing spouse.. in your life you are going to meet madd people.. some are hot, some are cold, some are lukewarm (i'm talking 'morally' here).. remember the Bible says the believing spouse can help save the soul of the unbelieving spouse through prayer and examples of right conduct people are like food.. junk food is easy and cheap.. but sometimes you come across someone who is healthy for you... try to discern which is which ! God's been blessing me a lot lately
its interesting seeing God.. i don't really see God- i usually just see the things He does like for example on my last pay period i ran out of money.. i literally got down to having 36cents but then someone gave me $40.. then when i spent that- i ended up immediately getting another $25 which lasted me until i got paid again (which was a day earlier than expected) also, it seems like i've even been getting little blessings- like the vending machine broke at work and i was hungry so i kept asking this girl to get me a honey bun kinda jokingly but she actually went and got me one from the gas station lol.. like she actually left work and got me a honey bun that was crazy to me or like recently i had been thinking about getting a king james version bible and when i went to church today this guy legit just handed me one.. he was like "i saw every sunday you reach for a bible so i thought i'd get you one" i was like WHOA.. like its nice its leather and everything! that kinda blew me away, i was amazed.. mainly because A. i had been wanting one and B. just cuz it was so nice i mean it was still in the box and everything.. like i could tell he bought it for me then tonight i went to my parents house and they gave me a pie.. i don't know why- they just gave me an apple pie! its weird seeing blessings come out of nowhere.. i see God's actions a lot lately.. like He shows me things in ways that seem unconventional for example i feel like He gives me confirmations on things and i think He shows me how things work sometimes.. like this morning He showed me something that is going to happen this year and i don't want to talk about what it is right now- but when it happens i will refer back to this and explain it (for reference this has to do with the month of january and failure and success) but God also gives me wisdom and insight on how to do things or how to deal with things.. like not too long ago i needed insight on something so i prayed and literally the phone rang and the person who called me gave me the answer without me even asking them.. at first i almost missed it until i remembered i had just prayed about it also God shows me things about people.. sometimes to protect me or make me aware of things or how about this- i went to church not too long ago and a lady prayed for me and spoke against people the enemy sent into my life.. do u know the very next day i lost a friend? lol and i admit i felt bad at first about the fall-out but what can i really say!? i know what that lady prayed so it is what it is so yeah, i didn't have any point in saying any of that- just wanted to get some of it written out anyway i'm out this year i hope to make a few big changes
i was thinking about it and these are not the only changes i want to make, but they are two major ones here's the first one i want to talk about i want to talk less about things i dislike about women and focus more on my own flaws, issues, drawbacks, and problems i am going to just go ahead and let the actions of women go and i'm going to focus on all the things i can change and alter in myself to make myself more attractive/appealing to women this will change a lot of the things i talk about i want to be specific about my issues like for example, today i saw a girl who i was really attracted to and i didn't speak to her.. so as a result i have to live with that decision.. i want to focus on things like these to really show myself how many times i am screwing up on a daily/weekly/monthly basis so that's just an overview/example but expect me to go deeper into things like that this year the second thing i want to do this year is i want to challenge myself to be more humble i want to really try to be super humble pride = strife and contention so conversely, being humble brings about a certain peace i don't want to try to win arguments anymore, i don't want to try and save face all the time.. i just want the freedom that will come with placing all others above myself the freedom that comes with letting others have the right-of-way and not holding grudges so i just want today to mark the shift i am writing this quickly so i may have to go into more detail at a later date ok peaCe so my parents had some prune juice at their house- i guess they just wanted to try it out..
well they said it was nasty so i was like whatever i'll take it if u guys don't want it, like cool, free juice i was sippin it on the way home on some "this taste like liquid raisins" type ish but about 30 minutes later..... smh...... why didn't one of you TELL ME!!! OH MAN!!!! |
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