which one of you nutt-bags is gnna buy me dis ish?
not too long after i posted my entry about wanting a dodge dart, this guy uploaded a really good video review on it
its nice peeps
the other day at work i overheard this girl telling someone that she went in the fridge and her pizza was gone.. this irritated me
how is a grown person going to steal someone's food?
and the other problem is- EVERYONE AT WORK HAS A JOB... SO GO GET YOUR OWN FOOD! smh
what was worse was- the girl whose food they stole was pregnant smh
so let's recap- someone who has their own money stole a pregnant woman's lunch
whoever did that.......... r.i.p. your karma
i have been hearing a lot about things that are happening in the world
i'm not going to get on here and rant or complain about the stuff happening tho.. the fact is we live in a fallen world, b
on a random note, i'm kinda concerned about my sister's family situation, any prayers for them in that regard would be appreciated
i want to say to my sister and brother in law.. "look.. you guys signed up for this.. so suck it up"
as her brother- i want to see them stay together for their kids, for their financial stability, and even for my parents sanity because if they split up who do u think will pick up the slack?
i had popeyes chicken twice this past week.. i was fortunate in that both times it was bought for me.. they got it for us at work, then two days after that- i was invited out to lunch
aye popeye's is on deck, b
biscuits had a brotha's eyes rollin back
lips so greasy had me looken bonkers for real
for anyone wondering what i'm listening to lately.. i'm still listening to curve's music a lot
their music just does it for me
it has the right amount of everything
i haven't had much to say lately
i do have a lot of entries i haven't posted though
i might post some of those
til then stay bonkers
yesterday i ended up telling a girl i don't smoke or drink
she said "look at you, you're such a good person!"
i said "i'm not a good person, i'm just a nerd"
she laughed but for the record, that is the truth
sometimes people tell me they think i'm a good person.. I AM NOT A GOOD PERSON
i try to stay away from a few things but that does not make me righteous and i am fully aware of this fact
righteousness is more than just staying away from a few things.. how do i regard people when they're not around? how do i treat those with little to no power, money, or influence? am i truly following the rules and regulations in the Bible? is my heart right? is my language clean? am i patient and kind? do i give of myself?
the list goes on
there are a lot of things people can't see, or things people overlook because they are comparing a person to someone who is worse
i talked about this in a song where i said:
"cats are hopin' God grades on a curve/ your best bet is to stay in the Word"
people really think God is grading us on a curve.. which hey honestly bro.. He might be! who am i to say He is or isn't?
BUT honestly its better to err on the side of caution when it comes to trying to live right and be in right standing with the Lord, we should probably look less at what other people are doing and instead try to stay in the Word and really try to live up to what is in there
so NO... i do not think i am a good person at all.. i am not delusional about myself in this regard.. i don't claim to be a good person just because i stay away from a few tempting things.. i try to have a sober view of myself.. there is a lot to living a righteous lifestyle and i can't say i've mastered every aspect or anything like that.. a song comes to mind
i wanted to talk about this a bit
ok in the video below you see an interview of lamar odom's first wife liza morales
she was with lamar before lamar got with khloe kardashian
the main reason i want to talk about this is because i diss women a lot for various things they do.. but i want to take a moment to explain something that men do that i hate
i don't respect when men go out and get these women pregnant but they don't stay with them.. they just play with them like they are toys of some sort
it irks me.. from my perspective, every time you see a man playing with a woman- that's another woman who is off limits to me.. because you are wasting her time
now she is not guilt-less, because she should have kept her legs closed until she was married as opposed to wanting marriage when her 3rd child arrived.. so i'm not saying she is innocent
however i am just wanting to point out that lamar should have stayed with this woman as opposed to A. cheating on her with multiple women and B. marrying khloe kardashian
again.. i never understand why men want women who are already rich.. to me that's stupid lol
i would have rather just kept liza on deck and been a good man to her.. she seems like a normal girl, she probably didn't grow up rich or privileged, she just seems like that girl you meet who has your back and rides with you through life
i just hate it when i see men treating good women like they are toys.. and on another note
I AM SO TIRED OF MEN CALLING THEIR GIRL "WIFEY" WHEN ITS NOT THEIR WIFE
to me- that's another game, like you have everything in your relationship except commitment
you live together, you have kids, you do everything together, you share everything, etc etc etc
BUT YOU ARE NOT MARRIED.. if i see one more couple that has been engaged for years i feel like i'm going to just go off
from my perspective, you are occupying that woman's time and attention for no reason.. you aren't preserving her at all.. you are just holding onto her with no 'intent to purchase'
i see so many women these days in that situation.. sometimes i think to myself "i'd like to be with her" but she is with some guy who is holding marriage like the proverbial 'carrot-on-the-stick' ... so i might really like the girl but i have no way of taking her out on a date or anything.. because she is wrapped up in the guy's games
things like these are things i hate about men
A. don't waste a girl's time
B. if you are with a woman- preserve her, cuz no one wants your leftovers
C. if you get a girl pregnant and you marry her.. STAY WITH HER
D. honor that loyal woman in your life
i have learned some of these the hard way but i have learned to the point where i really recognize my past mistakes as pure foolishness
i know women have their issues but men need to act honorably
u got lamar odom doing drugs and things.. and i'm not bashing him but you have to understand if you dogged your first wife.. it's probably going to be hard for you to be blessed until you set it straight
and to anyone who thinks i'm being hyperbolic
look at this woman who hit me up the other day on a dating site
some guy obviously planted two in her but he isn't in the picture anymore
does she really think i want to date her? lol
women need to hold out for commitment and men need to act honorably
women shouldn't be out here single with two kids under the age of 5
like we need to do better
this was for the men out there.. women do stupid things but we men have our ridiculous aspects as well
come on guys, honor these women.... love them or leave them alone
did u guys peep e3 this yr?
i definitely think sony won.. microsoft did ok but most of the triple a's were still forza, gears, and halo
sony had brand new AAA ip's that looked phenomenal as well as some older stuff like uncharted 4
nintendo's was funny but the wii u isn't getting love.. star fox looks underwhelming also.. i feel like retro studios should do star fox instead of miyamoto.. but whatever
i got paid today and i'm already pretty much broke again
i finally went to the library out here in spring hill.. it was small but it was still on deck
i had been wanting to see the library out here for a minute
i saw a book on biblical archaeology that i want to peep one day.. i always tell people if they are unsure of if the Bible is true or not they need to read up on biblical archaeology because the proof is there 100%
they just built a movie theater out here also.. i want to go there when i get a chance.. its not even a month old yet
also a new park opened recently.. that's not even a month old either.. i definitely want to walk around the park this summer and see whats poppin out there
my disdain for women and their antics has reached a really high level to a point where i have been thinking about making a song about it
i really just need the time
i have so many odd experiences with women that i could make an entire album just about the weird things they do and the convoluted ways they think
i mean it seems like every day a woman does something i think is weird
like the other day for example i asked a girl where a guy was and she said she didn't care because last time she saw him he was upset... and she said she thinks he was upset because he was jealous of her about something
i was thinking to myself.. "really?"
like out of all the things in the world he could be upset about, she thinks he is jealous of her
how did that song go?
"you're so vain, you probably think this song is about you"
like get real, chick
anyway.. i gotta run
guys, i have really been struggling lately
i have really been going through a lot
all the rejection i have been experiencing has been a bit discouraging to a point where i wonder where my life is headed
i haven't been going to church regularly lately or anything
one thing i keep thinking about is like.. am i going to church? or am i going to Christ?
that is why i kinda haven't been going to church as much, because i sometimes think maybe i am establishing a relationship with the wrong thing.. church is fine but the Jesus said "I am the vine and ye are the branches" so I have to try and make sure i'm tapped in to that true vine and not just going through the motions of a church and thinking that is enough
again- church is fine, but i have been asking myself how close i am to the Lord and i'm not sure if my answers are good enough
i have been going through a really rough time in a number of areas in my life
i long for the day when disaster doesn't appear to be impatiently knocking at the door
and i know all sense of comfort is an illusion to a certain extent, but still- basic certainty is better than always feeling as if you are on the brink of ruin
u guys feel me?
just wanted to share
lately haven't wanted to talk on here but i will try to do an update on things in my life
i feel like God may possibly take everything i have.. i DO NOT want to end up broke living with my parents again lol.. i am doing everything in my power to stay afloat.. however i'm not sure what else to even do at this point.. my job isn't going so well and my job searches haven't yielded anything
i think my supervisor is telling people bad things about me.. i asked him the other day if he has received any calls from jobs asking about me and he said no.. but the problem with that is.. two other people i know told me they received calls... so the odds of my supervisor not receiving one is extremely low considering i've used him more than anyone else.. so he is definitely lying to my face
so now i have to go back through and take him off any references i have put him on
so its crazy that it is so difficult to stay afloat in this world
i am (like i said) just praying to get out of my situation somehow
there is a girl at my job
about two months ago she was saying she wanted to get right with God and stop fornicating with her b/f
she brought this to her b/f's attention but he didn't care so she broke up with him
well, it proved more difficult than she expected so she went back to him
now i just found out yesterday that she is pregnant
i am glad God showed me this situation because it shows me that God "knocks at our heart" and tries to get us to change.. it is His mercy on us..
its as if God was saying to her spirit- "stop now before the consequences come"
and she tried to stop, but she didn't hold fast to that "subtle voice"
so now there is no way out.. if she was arguing with her boyfriend before what does she think will happen now? if he didn't want to marry her before, does she think he will now?
she's stuck now.. and i'm not dissing her, i just honestly think when she broke up with him 2 months ago- that was God telling her to hit the chill button before the consequence.. and she should have stuck to that
but one day at work she summed up her mindstate when she said "well, my boyfriend and i got back together and we do things but.... we all sin right?" smh
i wanted to say something like: "don't deceive yourself" but i didn't say anything
oh bonkers.. i have to go to work.. i'll try to finish this later
if i was able to get a car right now i think i'd like to have a blue dodge dart
its fairly simple but nice and has a lot of features