i have nothing really to say, i just don't want to neglect my site so i'll talk about my last date
my last date i went out to old chicago pizza and taproom (it was my first time going there)
i took my advice from the previous date and i made sure to try and smell good.. i also had my hair cut, i wore my best clothes and all that
i even had topics on things to talk about memorized in my head but she talked so much that i didn't even really have to have that stuff on deck.. no wait... now that i think of it- i actually used 2 of the topics i had stored in my head and they really helped the conversation to keep the flow and not miss a beat
now i know some people would be like "just let conversation flow naturally" ..i hear them but i store topics in my dome just in case because women are like.. i don't know- sometimes they can be tough critics and i don't want to be caught slippin
so we had a lot of fun i feel like some kind of puppy when i'm around her because i'm so happy to see her
some people asked me for pictures but i don't have any.. i had her send me one but she almost looked too good in it to where i don't even know if i'd want to show it.. one day i showed my barber and he was feelin her a little too much for my liking smh
i'm like "BRAH.......... give me my phone back"
anyway it was fun i hope we can go out again soon
oh and the restaurant is good too !
i thought this girl was cute then i saw her name
why do women these days always portray themselves as masculine
why does she call herself "kingbrittney" ?
that's a perfect example of what i'm always talking about on here.. women don't want to stay in their lane anymore!!!!
WHAT GOOD IS BEING PRETTY IF YOU'RE GOING TO ACT LIKE THAT!?
SORRY BUT I DONT WANT TO DATE A FEMALE MAN!!!!!!!
LET IT GO!!! WHY DO WOMEN THINK ACTING LIKE MEN, TAKING ON MALE TRAITS, AND PORTRAYING THEMSELVES AS MASCULINE IS ATTRACTIVE!!!??????????
like why do women do things like this!!! it really bothers me.. if you women saw an attractive man who called himself a queen or a princess would you still think he is attractive?
PLEASE JUST STOP DOING THINGS LIKE THIS
premise: "whatever a man sows that shall he also reap"
i feel like i am still dealing with bad karma from the main relationship i had in my life
the reason for this is because people do things to me and i instantly have a flashback to when i did it in that particular relationship
like i remember my main ex g/f saying "i feel like i'm in a relationship by myself" and i get it now because i try to be cool with some people and they ignore me so i'm like wow i'm reaching out over and over and they don't respond so i feel like i'm in a relationship by myself or having a love affair with a voicemail
or like i sometimes will have people talk to me as they please.. i don't mind it.. i mean a few times u don't respond i understand, but at some point u gotta come around and be like "hey what's good" because i don't know how you're doing or anything.. like its not even about you being nice to me sometimes.. sometimes its just about letting me know how you're doing since i am concerned with your well being
sometimes i also have situations where people are basically telling me they need a "break" from me and then i have another flashback to when i did that in the past..
i get it- they are saying they need time away from me to think and get their head clear because i represent something to them and they need to reframe- or i am just plain bugging them too much
so these are the things i have to work on:
i have to stop talking to people sometimes out of boredom because i am annoying the crap out of them lol which makes people feel like they need space from me and makes me feel like they are avoiding me when in reality i'm just being annoying
that is honestly something i need to work on.. i have to only speak with intention
and on the flip side of that- i have to be there for people when they need me.. i can't turn people on and off at will just because i do or don't feel like talking.. people deserve that as a courtesy or respect
who would've thought i'd still be dealing with bad karma 10 yrs later smh
i notice lately i have sort of fallen into a trap of trying to keep people in my life
i know its a reaction to being abandoned by people i care about, but i have to take control of the situation
the "don't leave me" mindstate is what makes men into "bug-a-boos"
i'm going to get a grip on this and not let it drag me down into the depths of despair
its crazy because i have noticed that every single thing you love or care about outside of God can be used against you
i'm still learning
i just have to say this
why do women go on dating sites and say things like "i'm just looking for friends"
why would a person go on a DATING SITE for friendship?
like seriously what guy is on there like "i hope i can just find a friend out of all these beautiful women"
legit- this is something i do not understand AT ALL
there is not one part of me anywhere in my mind or body that understands why women go on dating sites and say "i'm just looking for friends"
why would a guy want to take you out on a date to be friend-zoned?
WHY WOULD A GUY WANT TO TAKE YOU OUT ON A DATE TO BE FRIEND-ZONED!?
why do women do this seriously.. if you want friends then go on a friend site like meetme.com but don't go to something like plenty of fish which is very clearly a DATING site.. meaning a place where people are seeking dating, courtship, and relationships.. plenty of fish says 'online dating' in the headline! it never says "meet-ups" or "a place for friends" or even "social networking" no.. it is about DATING which has certain implications
why do women do this why would you say "i am only looking for friends" why did you get on a dating site and then say that?
seriously why do women do that!!!!?????
to me- this is one of the stupidest things that women do
can someone explain this to me?
like am i missing something?
if i- as a male signed up on a dating site and said "i'm just looking for friends" would that make sense to women? would they want to talk to me if i said something like that?
like what am i not getting here!?
i am utterly baffled
i want to reiterate something about my website
i want everyone to be clear on this.. i don't know why this is on my mind to share but i feel like i should say it (again)
there is a reason i call this a website and not a blog site
there is a reason i call my posts 'entries' instead of blogs
to an extent its like "what's in a name?" ..but to me personally i feel that blogs are generally there to A. generate money or B. create and foster a fanbase of people who "like" it
what i have here is a personal website slash open diary
in other words i don't care what anyone thinks of what i am posting or what i have to say
i speak to all readers by saying things like "you guys" or "peeps" but i legit just don't care if anyone likes what i am saying or not
i don't care if i lose friends or anything at all.. and its not for profit so i don't care if people aren't reading
i just felt the need to point that out- if anyone is reading this and doesn't like some of the things i say- then it just is what it is
i honestly don't care.. like from my heart i seriously DO NOT CARE AT ALL
i don't know why i felt like saying that but it felt cathartic and necessary
i guess i just want everyone to know what this is- its not something i am doing to be liked.. this website is just purely "me" based
i've noticed recently this sort of undercurrent in women.. this sort of competitive thing they do
i've never really been privy to it because i'm a guy and there's that gender buffer between us but lately i even see it crossing over that buffer
u imagine a woman would only compete with other women and feel a certain way about other women.. but i've been seeing them rear the ugly head of envy and completely needless contention with men lately also..
i've seen it from my sister before and figured "hey she can't control herself" or "hey she has her reasons"
but now that i've been seeing it with women who are mere acquaintances- i am seeing how large the problem really is because if you are an acquaintance then "hey she can't control herself" may be valid, but "hey she has her reasons" ISN'T.
women sometimes have this issue where they think u are in a competition with them or they think you're insulting them.. they don't have a "stand back and watch" button, or a "they didn't mean it like that" button
why are they so suspicious? i think it is because "it takes one to know one" ..you take subtle jabs at people so you think other people are doing that to you as well
for example: one day at work i spoke to this girl in her voice- not as a diss, but just as a tease, like to say "hello" in a funny way.. but instead of laughing along she responded with "at least i have numbers this month"
i was thinking to myself.. "wow this girl doesn't know how to take a joke!" lol i'm also thinking to myself.. great- you have higher numbers than me- i guess that means "you win" (although we still make the same amount of money, dumbass lol)
see that's my point.. I AM NOT PARTICIPATING IN THE GAME.. the whole one-upmanship game isn't even a game i play so i will gladly let you "win"
my point is- i've noticed that women are SO caught up in their delusional world of competition and one-upmanship and comparing and envy and vanity that THEY LITERALLY DONT EVEN REALIZE WHEN OTHER PEOPLE ARENT PLAYING THE GAME AGAINST THEM
they oftentimes CANT EVEN PROPERLY COMPREHEND THAT I DONT GIVE A F*CK
like legit- those petty games aren't even really on my radar
like for example a few days ago i told some people at work i was wanting to take pto (paid time off) and instead of the conversation being like "oh really what are you going to do when you take off?" or "that's cool, get some rest" it was like "can i have some of your pto?" or "good for you" you know.. like statements that show self-interest and/or a disingenuous attitude
u can't tell certain people certain things..
oh man i remember i told one girl at my job when i got my apartment and i don't think she even let me finish my sentence before she started talking about herself and her husband buying a house... i mean i literally just said like one thing and she EXPLODED with a thousand of her plans and things, as if she was trying her best to dwarf my good fortune
its like wow some women REALLY CANNOT HANDLE HEARING ANYTHING GOOD FROM ANYONE OTHER THAN THEMSELVES
i never knew how much of a stronghold this has on many women until recently
i see more clearly now why many women don't like women
sidenote: i also see why dyke-ass lesbians are always sitting around complaining everyday about their "relationship" (f*ck outta here- you ain't built like that literally or figuratively.. you're stupid to think a woman can deal with a woman on that level.. open your bible dumbass)
lol i just overdid it^
i have noticed this undercurrent of unhappiness, bitterness, and envy in the hearts of many women
but i believe they can break free of the garbage if they would like to!!!
btw.. I DO NOT CONSIDER THIS A DISS TO WOMEN
at the end of the day i think men have their own choice issues as well.. like for me personally- if you asked me which of the 7 deadly sins are most difficult for men, i'd say lust, anger, and sloth
women just happen to deal with the envy and pride ones a lot more than i ever realized.. and that's all i'm saying
so how about you?
out of the 7 deadly sins.. which are the least and most tempting to you? (or maybe not "tempting" but easiest to fall into)