today a girl asked me why guys like to play video games
she said she doesn't understand how they are fun at all
imo.. i don't see how video games are so much diff from movies.. to me they are the same thing
if u have nothing to do and u feel like chilling out, then whether you are reading a fiction book, playing a video game, or watching a movie, to me all those sorts of things are the same
u are taking time out to visit a diff world
when someone asks me why video games are fun, to me its like asking me why watching a movie is fun.. i don't really see a difference between the two except one is interactive and one isn't.. they are both entertainment
or maybe she was she trying to finger-point at the fact that games are a mostly male thing
if that's the case, i could point at anything mostly female and ask why that's fun
"why do women like weddings?"
like do u see how weird a question like that is?
nothing a person says will sate the inquisitor
this is their best trailer yet
rainbow mika is such a cool character!
i have to find a way to get some money so i can get this game on release day
i hate it when people say men should pursue women
they have all these notions about what a man should do to get a woman's attention or love
none of it ever works
as i look over my life, going after a woman has ALWAYS guaranteed one thing.. that she will run away
if a woman likes you she will make it known
i remember like 2 yrs ago i was working at directv and some girl was saying "james no stop touching my thighs" and laughing.. sort of teasing me and trying to get my attention.. and this was in public
so women have their ways, both overt and subtle
but never in my life has a girl ever liked me when i pursued her
i literally can't think of one time where i have expressed interest in a girl and had it work out on any level
NOT ONE TIME
but every single time a girl invites herself into my world, then we can get along and have a friendship or we can date or get to know each other or whatever
i have a few theories on why this is
1. women don't know who to trust.. so when u go after a woman, she is already looking at you with suspicion.. she is saying "who is this guy? what does he want? does he have bad intentions?" ..by pursuing her, you are actually making her walls go up as opposed to come down
whereas if she goes after you- then she already feels two things about you A. curious and B. safe
2. women like male validation a lot and i feel like they fear it will go away if a man gets to know them for who they really are
so say i go after a girl and show interest and tell her she's pretty, and i am excited about her- she likes that attention, and she feels like if she really lets me see who she is- that attention will not increase, it will only decrease..
in other words she feels like she has nothing to gain, only something to lose.. you have already given her what she loves, so she doesn't imagine things being better over time, she imagines you becoming familiar with her and thus losing that 'excitement'
this is why pursuing a woman leads to just being "strung along".. because she doesn't want the attention to go away
she would rather go from invisible to visible to you, than visible to invisible
this is why women say they "like a challenge".. because growing in your affection is far better to them than the prospect of losing it
these are just my opinions, i could be wrong but those are my theories on why women don't react well to a man's pursuit
now.. i have a wrench to throw in the system
now, if a man pursues a woman for sex, he may get her to like him, the reason i believe this is so is because many women will let you have their vagina before they let you have any pull on the strings of their heart
this is why men who are whore-ish, usually have a lot of women.. because here's the thing.. a woman will say "hey its just sex" and have sex with a guy she doesn't really fully 'approve' yet.. but then you have a little situation occur
and i have questioned this before.. is it- where the heart goes, the body follows?
or is it where the body goes, the heart follows?
well it may be diff for some people, but for the most part, for women in 2015, where the body goes, the heart follows
thus seeking and acquiring sex can lead to a woman's heart and affection, so it is in a sense- an exception to the rule of pursuit not working on women..
but i will say- this leaves pool boy in an odd position because i don't believe in sex prior to marriage.. so when you have women who only feel like they know a man after sex, what happens is, i meet women who always have a wall up.. it never comes down because sex is a prerequisite for that
they have developed habits over the years that exclude a man like me being #1 in their lives
so with all that said i believe there is pretty much only one option for a guy like me
that option is to not focus any attention on women, because they are essentially a waste of time.. pursuing them without pursuing sex will get me nowhere
most women will A. get bored B. go have sex with a diff guy thus ruining our connection C. just never let the walls down
so i have one option since pursuit will usually not work for a God-fearing man in 2015.. that is to try and attract a woman to come to me by her own free will
which basically means... women might as well not exist to me, because i cannot control a woman's free will on any level... i am thus free to do and be whatever i want
in layman's terms- i have zero control over the situation
Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man.
a suitable woman will either be presented to me, or she won't
there is no pursuit
i think mgmt is a crap band
this is just my honest opinion
they had that first album that had interesting imagery and it also had a few really good songs like electric feel and time to pretend
their second album, congratulations was underwhelming and all those new hippie fans didn't really have anything to cheer for when they got that album
i remember when their 3rd album was about to come out, i was really curious to see what they would do.. would they go back to the sound that people like? the soulful hippie thing with the catchy style? or would they go with the experimental noise and uninteresting tinkering thing again
they went with the latter
and so basically... i feel they made the wrong decision
i feel almost like they are afraid to make good music again.. its like um.. its like not wanting to show your dad you got an 'A' in math because you know the first thing he will say is "since i know you can do it, i expect to see those from here on out"
and it creates an expectation that you feel might be too hard to live up to
i feel like they are ruining their career with their own fear.. i could be wrong, but this is just my opinion on them
before i move on, i want to point out a few other things about them quickly
1. their interviews are ridiculous.. their whole "crappy interview" schtick is funny for about 5 minutes, after that you find yourself saying "can you answer a question like a normal person for once?" ..they just have absolutely terrible interviews that don't help you get to know who they are and what motivates them and what they stand for
2. everyone online says their live show is awful
3. i think they are gay.. i never saw it before, but i looked up some of their interviews the other day and i was like wow... these dudes are gay.. they look at each other too much.. i feel like they look at each other almost as if they are looking for approval from each other- it just appears to me like they are too close as men.. also they conduct themselves like 2 middle school girls who have a bunch of secrets
ok so now back to my overall talk
mgmt is a crap band, they had an opportunity to really go in and do some amazing work for the masses.. but they keep making this weird stuff that isn't really anything anyone can latch onto
i'm not saying go full on pop.. i'm saying make a good song.. i mean look at some of my fave bands, curve, cocteau twins.. etc.. its like they aren't pop at all, but they make good music.. they aren't just going in the studio and doing whatever
i think back to someone like kenny loggins.. kenny loggins apparently liked making folk music, but when it was time for him to make music for the masses, he made phenomenal songs "danger zone" "playin with the boys" "i'm free (heaven helps the man)"
that is what mgmt should do imo.. be like- ok maybe u like making this crappy music that only 3% of the population like, but 97% of people like songs like electric feel.. so make both types of songs, but only release the music that 97% of people like for mgmt and keep the other music u just do for fun- or release it under a diff moniker
but no... they only release the crappy music
to me just seems like mgmt is totally BS'ing
i feel they have become like a joke
they started with so much promise and just threw it all away.. i love time to pretend, but their work after oracular spectacular is just not good.. and its not good to a point where it feels like its on purpose
i have noticed i am really frustrated with the fact that i feel like my sister never reaches out to me for help or for a listening ear or anything
it bugs me to see her going through things but she never seems to come to me for anything
like today my dad told me he threatened to kick her out of my parents' house a few days ago.. and he didn't kick her out but still... she never called me- but if she did i would've said "you don't have to put up with that, just stay at my place"
or a few weeks ago when she had nowhere to stay; her friends got her a motel.. well why didn't she ever call me? she could've left her kids with her husband and she could've stayed at my place
it really is starting to bother me, because its making me feel like i don't even have a sister
like i live in my apartment alone.. i don't have any girls in my world so i don't understand why she doesn't call me when she needs a place to stay or peace and quiet.. it feels insulting at this point
my friend kevin came out to see me twice and its a long drive for him.. and my sister hasn't come to see me even once and i've lived here for 11 months now
i just don't understand it.. and another thing- i always have to hear about her life from people other than her.. why not ever just give me a call?
iono man its frustrating.. i guess i'll just give up and let her do her thing
here is a link to every charles hamilton project that has come out
there are over 200
i just downloaded the one called "the broken pink lavalamp" and it's knockin.. he made it in 2007, i never heard of it before or anything
what do u expose yourself to?
i remember i once met a girl who was sweet and cool
we went to church once and she said she had fun
then she got new friends when she got to college who seemed to have a lot of influence on her and she seemed to change
i remember one day she was telling me about this movie she wanted to see where "the protagonists kill god"
so some time passed and now she is way different than when i first met her
she is like an asshole.. she is really opinionated to the point where you tell her something about your life and she talks about it more than you do.. and even gets genuinely upset at you for not taking her advice lol
she went to college for like 6 years and has no degree (this is not a diss, i'm just pointing out her life has taken a wrong turn)
she was recently dating a guy who didn't give a f*ck about her.. i know because she is black and she told me he was white.. she called me and asked if i wanted to hang out because her boyfriend's parents were in town so he couldn't spend time with her because they didn't approve
i wanted to say to her "if he was worth anything to you he would stand up for you to his parents and not hide you" but i couldn't say anything because she is so opinionated
so i chilled
and not long after, he left her and ripped her heart out of her ass
that's another thing.. she was a virgin but she let that go too
so my point is this....
what do u expose yourself to?
are your friends good or bad influences?
is your entertainment good or bad?
in 5 years, are you going to be morally bankrupt, blind, and clueless? or are you going to be a better version of who you are today?
i saw her go from a sheltered sweet girl to becoming like every other pseudo feminist woman out here
totally misguided and without the light of God's direction because she now walks in pride and places her opinion above God's (not a diss, just my perception)
i hope she gets it together
i am not saying i have it together- i am just using this whole thing as an example
what do u peeps think?
if people perish for a lack of knowledge- u have to be exposing yourself to the ways of wisdom
are u better than you were 5 yrs ago?
will u be better than you are today in 5 yrs?
make sure your influences are legit, don't be like that girl who was once sweet and is now brazen
i drove out to alabama today
i took some pictures out at the bridge street town center
its a really nice area.. it felt really good and peaceful
tyga's new music video is called "bu$$in out da bag"
i can't really post it here because vevo won't let me embed it
however i suggest you watch it if you'd like to see one of the worst rap song/videos i've ever seen in my life
it was so bad it actually made me laugh out loud