recently i've come to the conclusion that i'm done comparing new girls to old ones i've dated
i've had a really hard time with comparing girls i feel like i'm just at a point now where i'm just seriously looking forward to having a girl in my life.. period.. i'm finally ready to accept "her" however she comes so i'm just going to try and look at what's there instead of what's not i'm ready to just accept whoever comes.. in whatever shape or size or personality type i'm just going to focus on whatever connection is in front of me i have to dash my expectations and just go into it like a kid- with no ideas in my head of how she should be i honestly have not been able to do this at all really.. when i get into a person i am really into that person and when we are pulled apart i still have their residue all over my heart and mind so is all the residue gone? or am i FORCING myself to ignore it now? i honestly don't really know or care.. the fact of the matter is- i'm over it every girl i meet from now on will get a fair shot a fair shot at my heart and remember ladies... "buy me, get one studio free" -mike skinner (the streets)
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i heard this song at a store today so i memorized some of the lyrics cuz i didn't know who it was i came home and typed the lyrics in google and here it is this song is incredible i looked over some of my previous blogs today
i must say.. i'm pretty happy with this site i hope someone else appreciates this site on some level its definitely not politically correct because its not pc to be a christian in modern america and even with my christianity.. i'm still not even perfect in that but i kinda like all these aspects i like that i'm being honest despite my honesty being unpopular i like that i even let u guys know how ridiculous i am sometimes.. how i get angry or how i can at times be socially awkward i am really pleased with my website i don't really get many comments but i appreciate all the comments i DO get overall i just want to say i'm happy with this place.. i look at it like.. this is a place of honesty.. there are no ads on the site.. no one tells me what to say or what to post.. i just say whatever and i hope some of it serves a positive purpose for someone my website is one place in my life where.. i don't know.. it means a lot to me.. i come to the site and talk and it helps me to feel normal again.. so often in my life people just disagree with me for whatever reason but my site is all my thoughts and they are here to stay so i just wanted to say how thankful i am to be able to express myself in a place where my ideas are not undermined or wasted u know? peaCe i just found this on a website.. i had to post it because i relate.. the guy's words are in orange
Do you ever get tired of telling women they're wrong? (then he went on to say a girl he knew said a sound effect word was an oxymoron- but he told her no it was an onomatopoeia and she got angry) In all, do you feel that sometimes you should just let women be right? I know a lot of men beat down on women and dont give them the time to articulate, or acknowledge their minds and reason. I don't like to make women feel bad, even though the truth hurts, but I'd prefer not to bend the truth , or limit it blatantly. Ignorance is bliss , and sometimes I feel it's not "right," or proper to take that away from them. A slave who doesn't know freedom is happy, and truth is abusive to ignorance. So do you ever just give chicks a pass sometimes? this is something i've experienced also i sometimes ask myself what it all comes from why don't women accept when they are wrong? like instead of getting an "oh, ur right" or a "let's look it up" you get a mean stare or a cold attitude.. and i've noticed generally- a mean/angry female outlasts a goodhearted man in a standoff of "NO..YOU back down!" this situation makes it dang near impossible to tell some females anything a goodhearted man wants to keep the peace so bad that he may just concede.. just to keep her from being so cold and to keep her from holding herself for ransom for an undeserved apology again.. i wonder what this comes from.. i have two theories on what it stems from 1. pride.. just not wanting to be seen as anything less than perfect or extremely close to it 2. previous boyfriend/male baggage.. some guy raked her over the coals for being wrong and so now she refuses to acknowledge or accept any criticism no matter how minute i once got in an argument with a girl years ago because she said she had a 10megapixel camera and that was the highest that they go i was like.. no they go higher than that then i got the whole gum-smacking eye-rolling thing and this was after a good night we had do you have any idea how demoralizing it is to have a good time capped off with your love interest's displeasure? its like everything you guys just did no longer matters.. and as a male you know she isn't going to call you back or anything i said outloud.. "i'm not trying to diss you, i'm just saying, they go higher than that because i used to work at an electronics store" it is painful when a person gets so mad at you for trivial nonsense.. it makes you feel absolutely worthless can you imagine trying to keep someone happy and impressed for 4 to 6 hours only to have them get upset at you because you point out that some cameras have more than 10 megapixels? it makes you feel like trash.. if you are that easily thrown away then regardless of how much she laughed at your jokes, regardless of how much she liked dinner, and regardless of how much she claims to enjoy spending time with you- her actions just proved to you that she sees you as someone who is easily disposable SO whoever wrote that mini article thing.. THANK YOU for expressing something i've never really seen put into words before but if you've read this far.. leave a comment.. tell me what you think has this happened to you? are you a guy or a girl? what do you think this unwarranted hostility and attitude stems from? recently i saw a crime show where this racist black lady shot and killed a white guy
she was college educated and had a good job and everything but she was wildly racist against white people lol.. it was ridiculous i was thinking to myself.. i wonder what racist white people would think if they saw this episode would they think 1. "wow man, i need to change because i just dislike people for no reason.. i'm prejudiced and i have this festering animosity toward certain people without even knowing them" or 2. (and i think this is more likely) "those black people are always doing dumb things" if they had any type of humility they'd take heed and be like the 1st quote sometimes you have to see yourself to see yourself u know what i mean? i definitely always try to watch out for ways i am doing something wrong in life in general hopefully others do too.. pride is not a beneficial trait since i've been so down lately and i've been expressing my discontentment and distrust of others- i decided to post something positive so i just did an 8-wk class.. here are some of my grades and comments i got back i'm just showing this to show that my life and experiences aren't 100% bad.. i just sometimes feel down.. i'm actually very blessed and fortunate though some of the grades and comments aren't posted yet btw.. i have no idea why since i already did the final exam but whatever this class is called 'principles of media advertising' here's assignment 1.. i got 100/100 here's assignment 3.. i got 200/200
i read a book on body language
it was interesting because to explain body language fully- you have to get into certain dynamics like the differences between masculine and feminine body language one of the main things i took away from the book was the body language and things people do when they lie what the book said (without getting into the body language aspect) was that men lie while women avoid if a man is about to be caught red handed he will try to lie his way out of the scenario if a woman is about to be exposed for something she will avoid you.. act busy.. appear like she "can't talk right now" etc. when ur girl avoids you- you know she is up to something .. she starts rushing you off the phone or making up dumb excuses hey what's up oh sorry i didn't call you back i was busy u were busy the entire two days? i mean i was worried about you yeah. okayyyyy... busy doing what? (afraid of the answer) look i was just busy ok and anyway my mom's on the other line i gotta go w-wait! *click* i prefer for women to just tell me what the deal is don't avoid me women come up with convoluted schemes to make u look and feel crazy like i've noticed women avoid you and then turn around and call you crazy for pursuing them lol.. if we've hung out every day for 6 months and all of a sudden you disappear why wouldn't i be calling you more than once? so now i'm "crazy" because i have concern for you right? good times. |
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