sometimes i deal with a thing where i am like "where is God?"
if you believe in God you probably know what i am talking about
sometimes God seems so far away.. or it seems like He is not listening
it is very comforting to know that is also how Jesus felt on the cross.. when he said "God why have you forsaken me?"
its like.. comforting to know that it happens to the best of us
if you feel like God is far away.. just deal with it and endure it because Christ rose again 3 days after being crucified
so i guess at the end of the day, no matter how low we feel or how low we actually get.. or how far God appears to be.. He is still there.. maybe just testing us or something i suppose
i definitely feel alone a lot in a way that is not even superficial.. it extends to my heart
so its good to know i'm not the only one, and it is likely a temporary struggle
there's a girl i talk to who really makes me feel good
when i talk to her its so easy
i never feel judged, i never feel like i'm being subtly dissed, i always feel heard, i always feel like... an undercurrent of love and patience
it is very refreshing
all i gotta dew is get either her or someone like her to be with me all the time
that would be so great.. i mean really think about what i am saying.. think about your own life.. who makes u feel good? who makes u feel heard and accepted? who seems to like you for you with no strings attached?
these types of people get all the little things right.. like they ask you how your day was and listen and give you understanding and encouragement.. things like that are so small but so important!
the importance of little things cannot be understated.. they frame our attitudes a lot of times don't they!?
like if someone treats u with contempt and rolls their eyes at u and gives u a funky attitude it can potentially really change your mood or whole day for the worst in a matter of seconds.. but good people bring perspective to your life and make u feel better so u share a lot with them
people who are helpful and humble and nice.. not nice superficially but genuinely
it seriously means a lot to me.. and like i said i want it on a steady basis.. in the form of long term female companionship and love of course
diggy^ looks like he has a clear head and he knows where he's going in life.. great fashion sense.. he's obviously gifted in that area
lenny kravitz^ is old as fck lol.. he was making records in the 80s i think wasn't he? .. i mean how does he look like this!? he is now officially my role model
charles hamilton put out 3 'albums' today (i have to use the term loosely because they are so wack)
this guy has become so terrible that it is amazing
when you download these new 'albums' you're like "wow this is a 400megabyte download!"
well that's because he uploaded videos of himself on imovie in his 'albums' and those make up most of the file size.. in one video he had on a shower cap (i don't know why)
in another video he talked about how "beyonce is silver the hedgehog" smh
the actual songs that accompany these videos are complete trash.. he's still not using a real mic.. just the built in imac mic LOL
also some of the 'songs' are just bare beats that sound like he made them in 5 seconds but they go on for like 5 minutes each.. and then what's worse is they will be at a low volume, and the next song will blow your ears off (i learned the hard way, smh)
at this point i don't expect him to ever make a good song again
"when its too quiet, my thoughts are too loud
my brain ends up asking me questions i don't know the answers to" -tehpoolboy
i really dislike it when people try to look cool too much
i mean, there is a line.. you can be cool without being a complete copycat
people who try too hard end up being copycats
no two people on earth have the same brain or exact same outlooks/opinions as someone else
this is why there should never be carbon copy people walking around
you don't do what is cool... you do what YOU THINK is cool
when you step outside of that.. it becomes overload and you become a walking cliche
be yourself.. i mean yes we live in this world so you are bound to pick up some ideas from others.. but still... BE YOURSELF PLEASE
my psa for the day^
the Bible talks about a "great falling away" in the last days meaning many people will fall away from morality and faith in God in the last days and i think that is now
look at life 20 yrs ago vs. now
20 yrs ago u had wholesome shows like urkel and step by step and cosby
now u have all types of shows about illicit sex and nonsense
and every time i look up it seems like there's a gay person next to me or something.. like i don't want to hear anything about homosexuals but it seems like its just everywhere, constantly being pushed on everyone
today at work two guys came in (gay 'couple') and one looked fairly normal (except for his eyes) and the other one just looked like the male version of a woman with his clothing, demeanor, and mannerisms.. it was really gross.. he also had on purple eyeshadow
why does a gay man say he wants to have sex with a man, but his 'partner' looks and acts like a woman?
same w/ lesbians.. i don't get the logic..ur not a woman who wants a woman.. ur a woman who wants a woman who acts/looks like a man.. like why not just skip the bs and get a man? even in THEIR world, it doesn't make any sense
lesbian: "i want a man without a penis"
homo: "i want a woman with a dick"
even in the atheist choice belief of darwinism it doesn't make sense considering people are supposed to do the things that allow them to pass down their genes and survive by any means.. yet homosexuality doesn't accomplish those tasks
anyway.. later i got on a video game website and they said this new game that is coming out has gay sex in it
really? gay sex?
i kid you not i am considering selling my playstation now.. if games turn into what tv has turned into then screw it
what happened to crash bandicoot? jak and daxter? kingdom hearts?
adventure and gameplay replaced with gay propaganda and sodomy
my roommate is gay and if i have to hear beyonce's f*cking voice coming out of his room one more time i'm going to set this whole place on fire
when God tells me my time is up on this earth i'm going to be happy to leave.. (beam me up angels!) that's all i'm concerned with
earthlings can have their nonsensical perversions.. i'll be in heaven straight keepen it bonkers
today gay people want to be married, straight people just want to fornicate, and the family unit consisting of mom, dad, and kids along with morality, stability, and love is seen as 'boring'
everyone is distracted, no one is reading their Bible
the last days will be like the days of noah.. everyday its getting closer to your demise but u are too busy with your perversions and busy lifestyles to pay God any attention
people just being mean to other people for no reason
do u know a woman came into my job today, and treated me like crap.. so i said i needed someone else to work the register because "i don't know what happened to it" obviously just to get away from her
and would u know she was nice to the person i got to ring her up?
what is that? why treat me bad and then treat the next person with respect? you don't know me OR the person i got to help you, you buffoon.. you treat me bad because you think you 'can' or because of some preconceived notion but YOU DONT KNOW ME
i get so tired of people and their bs
oh yeah and another thing
setting up a time to chill with a girl only really works 30% of the time
70% of the time you will be ignored or stood up or a stupid excuse will be made
thanks a lot (o:
i love to feel unimportant
yep.. i'm all smiles today
(btw.. this is not meant to be complaining as much as it is meant to just share.. i am not perfect just like the people i talk about in this, but i wanted to share my thoughts anyway.. also i didn't actually write this today, its about a week old)
i really have nothing to say about meth however i saw this picture and i thought it was hilarious
once i saw that ad i looked up more things on meth
then i saw a few more pics of meth.. here are the ingredients used to make meth, and here is a meth lab
and another thing.. this is meth being cooked.. this concoction just LOOKS demonic!!!
meth is one of those things where i don't understand why a person would start doing it
i mean, i can understand why people do some 'bad' things but not meth.. no sir