i was seriously happy being single..
no joke i've been 100% content being single lately
which^ is rare as f*ck cuz normally i feel lonely and like i'm about to reach insanity's peak.. but anyway..
i guess i'm back to feeling that void, cuz i saw a girl today who completely shattered my whole 'content-being-alone' bubble
she had EVERYTHING.
will i see her again?
*eyes crossed, looken bonkers*
i've never been to heaven but this LITERALLY sounds like the music you'd hear in heaven to me
subconsciously i just feel that something like this is very close to what music is like up there.. eternally comforting, and "loving" sounding.. its not boring at all.. as a matter of fact, it even exudes a complexity that composers could appreciate, but its still something you'd want to play for a newborn
i wonder why we don't worship God with this type of music at all.. imo, it seems fitting
what do you guys think?
at the VERY LEAST its a nice departure from most of the modern day nonsense music we come across
more and more i find myself seeing through the mindless consumerism that is promoted today
basically you buy something and 6 months later its no longer the "coolest" or the "best"
companies plan to make your products obsolete somehow.. either by making you feel like what you have is inadequate or literally just making products not last long
since making a product not last very long can be thin ice.. (because it affects customer loyalty) the main way they get you to buy more things is by releasing newer and "better" versions of what you already have
it happens pretty much across the board
fashion, video games, electronics, cars, and more
this is happening more and more in video games lately since they now have online capability.. developers put out a game that is essentially 60% finished, and sell you the other 40% 3 months later as a download
"buy buy buy" just seems to be in society's dna
not to make this about video games but nintendo keeps putting out new versions of their handheld the 'ds'
they will come out with one with 4 hour battery life and a 4 inch screen
then literally a year later they will put out one with 6 hour battery life and a 6 inch screen
you have brainless customers or should i say consumers- who thank nintendo for releasing the same thing but better at a higher price.. they thank nintendo for making what they bought just one year prior seem stupid and irrelevant
do u think nintendo didn't plan this whole thing out?
do u think nintendo couldn't have just put out the 6 inch screen with 6 hour battery life in the first place?
trust me, they could have, but they planned to make their first model obsolete.. planned obsalescence = more money from mindless consumerism
a smart customer will say, i like my 'ds' just fine
or better yet, they'll say.. you know what? screw nintendo.. i will give up video games and spend more time at the gym or doing homework or hanging with my family
but most people want their trinkets in whatever form they come in
oh this fashion is 'in' now
oh that car model is outdated
oh that tv doesn't have 3-d
the car thing really trips me out btw.. no cars are that much different from others.. they all use gas, and drive and have power steering, power windows, air conditioning, and stereo sound
but a person will pay $30,000 more for an insignia.. a logo.. its all a perceived value as opposed to ACTUAL value
if i buy a $20,000 v-6 and you buy a $50,000 v-6.. guess what? aside from minor cosmetics- we bought the same thing
anyway, i just wanted to say a few things about consumerism
mainly- watch out for it
think about what i said and see how you might be being nickel-and-dimed in some (not so subtle anymore) way shape or form
once you realize what is going on then you are able to make better decisions with your money and even take back a great deal of your self-worth.. as the saying goes- the truth shall make you free
here's a decent example of the direction i'm going in with the newer album material
kinda easy to get into, yet kinda alternative, kinda serious yet also relatable.. this is just one 16, like a demo track not a full song
feel free to let me know what u think if you want
i want to talk about why i don't care for shows
this is not only why i don't care for shows, but also why i don't care to perform shows
when you go to shows, you are subjected to a lot of stupidity
here are a few things that have happened to me at shows
went to a show once and my girlfriend at the time ended up getting punched in the face (the fight was between two girls and one of them ducked and so my g/f who was standing close by got punched)
i went to one show once and the security guys were patting us all down.. well as i was in line i saw the security guys find joints on some people but they didn't care, they just gave them back to them
when it was my turn, i had a bag of unopened gummi bears in my pocket.. the security guard threw them away
at one show a guy came up to me and kept trying to ask me for drugs without actually asking me.. so he kept saying things like "i think you got what i need" and it took me a minute to catch on
btw.. i have this issue every once in a while to where people think i'm high even though i'm not.. its been happening since high school
at one show i was talking to some guy about music based on the artist who was on his shirt.. he talked to me for like 5 seconds and then he asked me if i would buy him a beer since he was underage.. smh
i went to a show once and this smell was making me sick the whole time.. i couldn't figure out what it was
toward the end of the show, my stomach was beginning to feel sick from this smell.. then the girl behind me at some point finally tapped me and said "hey my feet stink don't they?" and there she was airing her feet out.. she didn't have on any shoes or socks, and based on how the seating was, her feet were right next to my head..
i didn't know the whole time because i had never looked behind me
she left soon after this and the smell left with her.. i was officially disgusted
i went to a show (and this was the last one i went to, because this was the last straw)
some guy stood in the front row flicking off the main act for like 15 minutes straight
a fight broke out between some girls and it interrupted the show
the floor was sticky from spilled alcohol
people were smoking weed and cigarettes like maniacs.. well this show was not outdoors, it was inside, so you can imagine the bacteria and free radicals inside that place.. people smoke and blow it any and everywhere including directly into your ears.. so here's what happened:
bacteria from all that smoke (being everywhere and being blown into my ears) got lodged into my ear canal which is connected to my sinuses.. long story short my entire face swelled up to the point where I COULDNT EVEN OPEN MY MOUTH TO EAT.. i had to go to the local clinic and get antibiotics which made me urinate every 15 minutes until my face healed and all the puss and pain went away
again.. this is not only why i don't care for shows, but also why i don't care to perform them either
i don't care for the crowds.. the people don't exhibit any type of class
this is why i am happy being mainly a web-presence as opposed to being someone who tours and performs and does shows
i honestly just plain have no desire to perform because i don't like the environments.. they tend to be kinda sleazy.. so many people in the music industry talk about how 'its not what its cracked up to be' or 'people are shady' or whatever.. and i understand what they mean.. i mean imagine dealing with all these people and their foolishness plus a promoter who doesn't want to pay you on top of that
another reason i don't like performing is i've found that its not really about the music, its about the artist.. which i find to be backwards
anyway.. just wanted to share some of my thoughts on the show/performance side of music
i have performed a few times but i just really have no desire to do it.. music (to me) is not a commercial, its an extension of life, so i intend to treat it as such
i'm not trying to bo-jangles my way to the top u know what i'm sayin?
not knocking people who do all that, but its just not me
so yeah.. for better or for worse, shows and performing are really just not my thing, besides.. i think music videos are a better representation of a song or idea anyway
this is a video about me explaining some of my psychosis and how i'm trying to be more sane and make better decisions and see through clearer lenses
watching this really
1. takes me back
2. trips me out.. why? this ish is SOOOO creative.. the sets, the hierarchies of power and "economics" based on the food chain, earl sinclair's job pushing down trees, their 'frozen dinner' .. wow
the mix of reality with the dinosaur life is spot-on
as a matter of fact, i think this is a reality show.. yeah.. someone went back in time and put cameras in a dinosaur house!
this show is so well-made !!
theme song is nice tooz ! !
one thing i just want to get off my chest
i have noticed there is madd 80s music with 2 edits
a long version of a song and then the shorter radio edit
the shorter edit is always better
why did people feel the need to make songs so long back in the day?
if you run into a situation where you have a long and short version of a song, definitely just delete the long version because its lame.. its drags on and its not as well edited
the more you cut down and edit an idea, the more clean and concise it becomes.. its like pruning a plant
the more you cut it down- the more you can just center everything around the best parts
7minute song vs 3.5minute song?
trust me the 3.5 is always better