so i finally figured out how to edit my website backgrounds and stuff according to the way i want it as opposed to just finding a template
as you can see i got rid of the orange motif
i won't be going back to it
hope u guys r feeling the current layout.. i dig it but at the same time now that i know how to edit this thing, it is still subject to change whenever i feel like changing it
there's no real reason behind the whole pink thing.. i just like it.. it 'pops' especially with the black and dark blues behind it
here are some things i think God recently told me to be mindful of
1. watch what you say about Christians (His people)
don't talk about peoples' churches even if you think they are odd because a lot of times that is counted to you as arrogance
2. cut out the middle man, don't depend on a tv ministry, or a youtube ministry, or a written ministry.. why do that when you can read His word for yourself?
why not spend time with God Himself in prayer and in His Word? why would you allow people to be your source of God's Word all the time when its available to you directly?
females read too much into things
this is a result of their ability to see subtleties and read unspoken messages, however it gets to where it is very overboard
i was on skype with a girl a few days ago and she said that i insinuated that i am "holier than she"
the problem was she accused me of this even though i never said that.. i never said anything like that at all
she kept accusing me of things i never did or said, even when she signed off she kept messaging me and she said "you made a face at me and it hurt my feelings"
what do u mean? what kind of face did i make? what are you even talking about!?
she worked herself up into this upset state and i just sat there watching her, somewhat amused and somewhat dumbfounded
she said "maybe we should go our separate ways" and left because i "offended her and hurt her feelings" when i didn't even do anything.. i literally said and did NOTHING offensive to her
it just made me wonder what happened to her before she met me.. like what hurt is she hanging onto? why is she so paranoid?
today a chick at work came up to me and she said "how do i look for a lunch date?" i told her she looked fine.. she's like "great, i look fine" i'm like how do u want to look? she's like "i want to look stunning" .. i'm like.. "ok..."
then she's like "ur always saying i look older than my age so tell me if i look old right now" .. i said "no comment"
she said "thanks james ur a dick"
here it happened again, a female assuming i am saying something i didn't even say
i said 'no comment' because once a week she accuses me of saying she looks old when i never said that in the first place, and i have explained to her that i don't want her coming to me saying that all the time.. but does she listen? no.. so instead of getting into a verbal issue with her as if we're married i said no comment.. not as in YES U LOOK OLD AS F*CK but as in, LEAVE ME ALONE, because you and i both know we've been over this before
stop trying to get validation from me, like i could see if i was her husband or boyfriend but i'm not.. i'm just a guy and i don't want to be bothered with your insatiable insecurities everyday do i? NO!
so i don't give her the answer she wants but its like.. even if i said "you look great u look gorgeous" she would say i'm being insincere wouldn't she?
so i lose either way so LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!
females.. stop making mountains out of molehills, stop with this thing where u find an insult where there wasn't one
get a grip on reality please
i watched "the decline of western civilization part 2: the metal years" documentary
it was like circa 1987 - 1988
part 1 i think is actually a whole diff movie done in 1981 about the punk scene but i haven't seen that yet
anyway.. this documentary was good.. the most eye opening thing was the pool interview w/ chris holmes
oh yeah.. and coincidentally, this also kinda goes with my last entry i did about how i stay 'young'.. think about what i said and compare it to his life and what he says/does
i felt so bad for his mom after seeing this
i also thought about how demons in hell are laughing at him because when you see him you can see the strongholds they have on his life (i'm not dissing him, just saying)
anyway.. this documentary as a whole was good.. it was about the whole glam rock/ hair metal scene from the 80s, they interviewed a lot of artists both established and up and coming and examined their points of view
i'd like to see someone do this to rap today
the documentary really seems to take a good look at what motivates people to be artists.. i think after watching this it kinda makes most people see that having a normal life is actually a LOT better than they thought, and being in a band is actually a LOT worse than they thought
but all i really wanted to say is i watched it, it was good.. i would like to keep an eye out for more music style documentaries
everyone says i look younger than what i am, so i decided to talk about the reasons why i look/appear young and how u can too
1. i don't drink
drinking and drugs age people.. we all know this.. just look up 'faces of meth' if you don't believe me
meth ages you faster than a lot of drugs, but alcohol still does it.. as does smoking and more.. the worst thing i do is strong coffee
2. i don't have sex
i don't really share this info often because i don't like how people make me talk about it forever and look at me like i'm an alien.. but sex is for marriage imo
sometimes people listen to my music and think i am a pimp or they think i have sex.. my album called 'love is elusive' was more about what i was thinking as opposed to what i actually do
for example in the song 'rain' i talk about suicide.. would i actually do that? NO.
i've tried to tone my music down since that album tho lol
another thing i've noticed about sex is it ages women more than men generally and this is mostly for two reasons:
1. i think this is because women are the ones who are likely to probably have more sex than men in their lifetime (because their options are always open due to eager men) and #2. because women are likely to choose older sexual partners while men are likely to have younger
women regularly have sex with men 10 to 20 years older than they are and they don't realize it but they aren't really the same after that.. its a very easy way to lose your youthful glow, to have sex with someone who is a lot older than you.. just ask a young rape victim, they will tell you they didn't have a childhood, they never felt they could relate to kids their age.. they're an "old soul" .. its the same principle here
3. i value my parents
this keeps me young mentally because of how my parents view me and the fact that i still submit to an earthly authority as being valuable and generally wiser than myself.. these son-to-parent interactions keep me feeling like a son if that makes any sense..
note: this is also a Biblical/spiritual principle because the Bible tells us in the 10 commandments to: "honor thy father and thy mother that thy years may be long in the land"
4. i'm not racist or classist
(here is the race part):
people who have a lot of hatred for their neighbors don't really remain youthful for long.. something about hating people for no apparent reason really takes a toll on your inner and outer spirit
the Bible says fear of the Lord is hatred of evil, not fear of the Lord is hatred of your neighbor
so if your neighbor hasn't done anything unrighteous, hasn't committed an evil perversion, abomination or wicked act, and you hate them without reason, then you are in the wrong and in my eyes, a lot of your unwarranted hate falls back on you in various ways
(here is the class part):
i try to see people for who they are
are you nice to the rich person and do you treat the poor with contempt?
if you treat everyone the same then that is a youthful trait.. because that is what kids do.. i tend to believe God honors this type of behavior
try not to get caught up in outside appearances too much.. status symbols and such.. remember people are people, this will help you remain youthful
5. i am creative
your creative side is kinda like a gateway to things silly, funny, interesting, artistic, etc.. if you keep in touch with it, in a lot of ways it keeps you youthful
look at someone like a johnny depp for example.. or look at some of these old bands
why is it that a 50yr old who plays an instrument generally looks better than a 50yr old who says "that's high school stuff" ?
think about it
6. i prefer honesty over prestige
if you believe 'the' hype or 'your own' hype then the system got you
a lot of times people try to make you choose honesty or prestige in different ways.. one way is this:
'your personal views vs. whatever is politically correct'
when they put the camera on you which will you choose?
i try to take the honest route.. this is generally the route that gets you ridiculed and made fun of however at the end of the night when you go to sleep you submit that clear conscience to the Lord and sleep in utter peace- while the people who choose pride and adulation of the people over honesty and righteousness will forget who they are, what they represent, and they will look great on the outside but inside they will suffer torments that only they will know about
ask a child a question and ask an adult a question.. the kids are way more likely to just tell you the truth.. the adults are the ones who deceive and lie even to the point of consciously trying to redirect their body language to seem more convincing.. well newsflash, God looks at the heart
truth is a youthful thing period
7. i am normally wearing headphones when you see me
this is just something people associate with younger people.. i don't do it on purpose, i just like music
recently a woman called me "mr. headphone man"
even more recently, a guy said to me: "i don't think i'd recognize you without your headphones on"
lol, it is what it is
i have a problem with these women on dating sites who are pregnant
first off, it just happens too much.. it happens enough to where i feel it is indicative of our social climate (need i say 'downward spiral' ??)
second, its just ridiculous, where is the guy who got u pregnant?
here's a profile i ran across the other day:
My names Britt Im just looking for a good guy who will treat me right. I also jus recently found out that I'm pregnant from an abusive ex so u cant have a problem with that if u wana talk to and eventually be with me. I want to be the only one in my mans life so NO CHEATERS. I dont want a guy who goes out and partys every wkend. I want a man who will include me in his life...someone who will b honest and faithful. I cant seem to find that. Please be mature and only msg me if u want a relationship with ONLY ONE GIRL and doesnt mind that shes having a baby!
man.. basically.. man....
*decides to talk instead of type*
i could say more about this topic but i'll let it breathe.. comment if u want <---(i know when i say that i'm talking to air, smh.. whatever.. wishful typing i guess)
do u like locked up abroad?
do u like to catch a predator?
these shows and a few more good ones can be easily accessed and watched at this website
check it out if you want.. mainly it allows u to watch certain shows without searching around for episodes all over youtube, and also without having to sit through commercials
i wish they'd get first 48 and forensic files too tho