first of all, this does not really pertain to anyone, so u may perhaps want to skip this.. its just me reminiscing lolz
i thought today about the first girl i liked who didn't come to me first what i mean by that is, this was just ME, meaning she didn't like me or do anything nice for me, or flirt with me, i just secretly admired her all on my own her name was angie she was biracial.. my whole life i've had an admiration for biracial people both for their looks as well as their awareness of things, cultures, norms, society, prejudice, how to get along with people, etc etc they always seemed to be able to just be who they were as opposed to who people wanted them to be and i always liked that angie was GORGEOUS she was little.. not like a midget but she was just like short and cute and she was voluptuous for a kid.. meaning she wasn't exactly skinny, she wasn't fat at all but she wasn't thin, she just looked very healthy in a non-athletic type of way she had somewhat of a baby face she always seemed cooler than me to where i was too nervous to ever really approach her one day her and her friend came up to me and angie had her hands over her eyes.. and her friend said "we heard u like angie, is this true?" i wanted to be like YES!!! but since she had her hands over her eyes i said no and let them walk away angie always appeared very unique to me.. i just wanted to get into her life and know her .. like for real.. i guess that is what u call intrigue but it was more than that even still.. it was like.. i don't know, i really wanted to know her on a deep level.. i was extremely drawn to her but i always felt like i was just going to be dissed because she was just angie, but her best friend was like the top girl at the school, also i was a grade under her but actually.. my best friend was the top guy at the school now that i think about it.. so maybe it wasn't that bad anyway.. i have noticed in life a lot of times inner things also have an outer marking one outer mark of her uniqueness was she had a pink eyelid and the eyelash hairs on this eye were white she LITERALLY had a pink eyelid i think the story was somehow her eyelid was burnt by something and it turned pink.. it was like a normal looking eyelid, but it was just pink it sounds weird but it just drew me to her even more.. i wanted a part of who she was, i used to just watch her and think about how bad i wanted her to be in my life i hope i get to see her again one day
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