i saw a few decent examples of what i want to do on my next cd
here's some stuff i liked
i'm alone at all times of the week/
i just zone and talk rhymes on a beat/
i don't pout about the plights that i live with/
i zone out and just write what i'm given/
a lone child with clear sight for my vision/
its on now in here, i'm gnna win this/
basically, what i like about this sort of style is the rhymes match in meter for each line and its not just the end of the line its each stressed word of each sentence.. the rhymes match in vowel sounds not necessarily consonants
like analyze the first 2 lines for example
i'm - a - lone - at - all - times - of - the - week/
i - just - zone - and - talk - rhymes - on - a - beat/
each vowel sound matches the one below it
i hope to do this on my new project like throughout the whole thing as much as possible.. at the same time i hope to make sense, and tell stories and give some real substance
i'm really hoping to be able to do some big things with my new project!!!!
i feel like i've developed a signature rhyme style but i am hoping to basically take it much further this time!!!
if u guys feel the same as i do then make sure u keep up with me here on the site cuz all my music is going to be clean (i'm referring to my new cd.. u already know my older stuff is clean)
i like to acknowledge negativity but not revel in it u know what i mean?
i really don't get what the point is with rappers cursing all the time
i use curse-words on my blog but that's me quickly venting
when i speak in person i don't do that.. and i've never really done it in music
i've used curse-words in music before.. like some of my first rhymes were filled with them but i decided early on that i wanted to be really good at writing lyrics, so i decided (this was back in like 10th grade) to cut out all filler words and just challenge myself to really just find ways to say what i wanted to say without cursing
since then i've only cursed in i think 2 songs
one i lost, and the other one i just did from the standpoint of battling someone so i was kinda more playing a part than being myself
when i hear something really dirty i can't even listen to it
some of my favorite songs just sit and collect dust because i really can't nod my head to such ridiculous language
i can take cursing here and there but there's a limit
what i really hate is when people say them over and over.. like i don't understand that.. its so... for me its like audio-rape.. like ur just nodding ur head to some music then they veer off into some ugly territory
hopefully my blog is not too dirty for people
if someone tells me it is then i will likely change it
its so boring like no joke it sometimes makes me feel like i'm dead inside
that's what extreme boredom feels like.. like something inside of yourself is dying
i just want good grades and i want to know that i never have todeal with these classes ever again
my advisor was telling me i should re-take some classes just to help my gpa
i was like "i'm gonna try to only take classes i have to take to graduate"
i really wanted to say "are you fcking serious?"
why in the fck would i want to re-take any of these stupid worthless classes? it was such a dumb suggestion, like i may not have a 4.0 but i'm not that desperate.. she is acting like taking these classes is FUN or something
like sometimes i feel like school is such a struggle because its just so boring and like..
u know the thing that has bothered me the most this semester has been literature.. i've always loved writing and all that but this literature class has just been complete garbage
like i miss music so much because i feel like school has sucked some life out of me.. like i want it back.. i want to wake up and know that i don't have to hear another hour-long lecture from a pretentious faggot with a horrible voice
like ok i'm trying not to complain but i feel like i need to vent
i seem to have some anxiety about exams
like last semester our literature exam was to write 3 essays in one hour about a topic the teacher chose
when ur used to writing one essay in 3 hours how in the fck do u write 3 essays in one hour?
and i think we have to do that again for this upcoming exam!!!!
i hate his class so much.. like it went from i hate his class to i hate him, like i can't stand to look at him.. every assignment has been so shitty i can't believe it
its like if someone told u "go sit and write a scholarly essay about paperclips"
that's what his assignments are like to me.. its just fluff and b.s. and it just bothers me.. like i don't know what it is.. on some level it shouldn't bother me.. it should just be, do the dumb assignment right?
but after a while, the fact that the assignment is dumb begins to wear on me.. and i think that's overall what it is.. i just feel worn out.. just plain worn out.. like my patience (which is what allows me to deal with things i don't like) has been depleted and i don't know how to replenish it
like i need a pick-me-up or some sort of recharge, or something so that i can finish my exams successfully
i'm just gonna leave it at that
i'm only going to talk positive from now on.. i can keep my composure, i will get really good grades, i will stay cool and i won't take my anger out on anyone.. i will make it work for my good
here's what he said (i'm cutting some things out to keep it short)
How are you all? what have you been up to/working towards or on? I know a lot of you that come to this site aspire to be something.. so have you been on your grind? Well, Let me know, I'm interested because I've been on mine heavily.
It may seem like a lot or even overwhelming but believe it or not i love my "work" days way more than the off days. I guess that's because I don't consider what I do to be work and in a previous TWEET I wrote on my twitter page on 3/5/2010 I quoted at 4:42 AM
"UP & AWAKE Long day, but I live 4 these. What some would consider work I refer to as joy and what I love 2 do."
And that's something that I really feel is true because I don't even feel as though my work is work I enjoy it and that's something I wanna live by for the rest of my life for real. I find it very sad when people don't even enjoy what they do and then that leads to living life sluggish and being depressed.
(this is pool boy talking.. ADD BORED TO THAT!!!^^)
I know some people don't even have the choice to pick their job and they gotta do what they gotta do, but if you do have that choice and if your young like me I'm encouraging you to grind now. You don't even have to necessarily start now; but make those beginning steps for the future.
But on another note, I'm real excited for school to come to an end. I'm home schooled and have 4 hrs of it but, c'mon son.. who want's to be cooped up in a house/classroom? lol So in the midst of everything that's goin on I'm ready to put an end to my freshman year of high school lol.
what i noticed about this entry is its exactly the same page i've been on for the past week or two
i'm just tired of school and ready to start doing something i like again.. i.e. MUSIC
i'm happy to have the opportunity to go to college but some of it is just kinda out of hand like for example i'm not getting points for this paper i have to do in literature but i still have to do it to pass the class "because the teacher says so"
i'm just over it right now and i miss music.. i don't know if its because of spring weather or what but i feel like i'm just trying to get back to me for a while and do something i love rather than just achieve these mindless college tasks
i have been in some bad moods lately n i think its cuz i'm so anxious for this school year to just end so i can do music and zone out in that area
but don't get me wrong again, i am glad to be able to be in school.. in a week i should be just about done with this semester, thank the Lord