just checked it out.. this chick airs people out.. i like it
today i saw that 29yr old i liked last semester
MAN SHE IS SO FINE
i saw her for a second and it didn't register that it was her but i was like dang she is out of CONTROL then i realized it was her and i just wanted to chase her down and go tazmanian devil on her but obviously i had to just control myself
SOMETIMES CONTROLLING MYSELF FEELS LIKE ITS GETTING OLD
i got 86 on the 2nd history midterm
what's crazy about this is the fact that there were 20 multiple choice questions and 2 essays
i didn't study
i got over half the multiple choice right purely by guessing
then i wrote an essay about franklin roosevelt.. but the question only said roosevelt.. so i ended up writing theodore roosevelt's name while i proceeded to talk about franklin
then on the other essay i was REACHING.. LOL, like i didn't study so i had to wing an essay about a coal strike.. i guess my theory was correct.. all strikes ARE the same!
however my goal with music is to make something immediately audibly appealing with a depth that will allow u to continue listening to the song
when i say audibly appealing, that applies to both the music as well as the cadence and flow of the lyrics
when i say depth, that applies to the lyrical content as well as the actual instrumental
i find that today, it seems to be a trend to have a decent set of lyrics but the instrumental has no real depth
the instrumentals of the 90s are better overall than the instrumentals of today in my opinion because the ones in the 90s sampled and each sound came with its own "baggage" so to speak.. that "baggage" (reverberation, surrounding noise, etc.) made each hip hop song that much more "full" sounding
these days it seems a lot more artists are reluctant to sample and the beats are very "clean" which reduces the depth of the instrumental.. which creates in essence an instrumental without a soul
music today has no flaws.. we went from analog to digital, there's no tape hiss, there's no scratch of a record, audio these days is basically lossless and that takes away from music in a way.. especially hip hop because hip hop is already using manufactured sounds from the get-go
personally i look forward to finding ways around sampling, but at the same time finding ways to make things sound like samples.. because we need originality, but at the same time we need music to bare its soul to us and not sound too clean orrobotic
just puttin this stuff out there.. if ur into music u probably feel me, if ur not deep into music then u are probably wondering what on earth i'm talking about
then i thought.. i mean.. its not WRONG its just.........
see here's the deal, i don't think a guy would really ever do that
like females don't ever fall out of love with a guy, instead they fall in love with another guy
its so harsh i think
like for women there doesn't ever seem to be a period of just being alone or reflecting or anything.. instead its like "ok since ur not working out i'm going to see someone else and not tell u about it.. then i'll leave u like nothing ever happened"
(^^an example of what i mean by women emotionally-raping guys)
if ur the boyfriend and ur girl just one day says some ish like "i love someone else" or "i'm getting married" .... its SO harsh i think, and i don't think guys really operate like that
guys r like way more loyal than that
a break up from a guy is like "i don't think this is working out"
a break up from a girl is like "i'm engaged"
u see what i'm saying?
its just over the top.. its like not civil.. its like just ripping a person's heart out, throwing it in the air and blasting it with a shotgun
so the parents decided to have a meeting with their pregnant daughter and her boyfriend
as they were asking her questions it didn't seem like they were being very receptive to anything the girl had to say
here's the deal.. the parents wanted to have a meeting for their own well-being and peace of mind
"what happened" "what r ur plans now?" "what do u expect me to do about this?" "are u planning on getting married?" etc. etc. etc.
they wanted to have their questions answered
but what they clearly DIDN'T want, was to validate anything the daughter or boyfriend said in their DEFENSE <-------(should they even have to be on the defense? NO but thats the position their parents put them in)
the reason the girl's parents refuse to validate anything she says in her defense is because no answer will ever be good enough
its like asking someone why they cheated on you.. yes u want to know why they did it, but no matter what their response is, u still feel completely betrayed and nothing will ever change that
with that said, u have to make a decision really
are u going to be under someone's care and follow their rules or are u going to do what u want to do, and be on ur own? (because if u cross the line, they can no longer really make excuses and exceptions for your behavior)
either one will work.. but to be in a gray-area is to be in the wrong place
well one day i ran across this book superstud in the bookstore and i picked it up simply because the cover made me laugh
i looked inside it and kinda skimmed through it
well to my surprise everything i skimmed over was like incredibly funny
so i read the entire book
once i finished superstud i found out he had another book called kick me, so i read that one too
it was also very good
so i'm just puttin it out there that i read both of them and they are great books
if u read them i reccommend reading superstud first.. i think that one was more inspired.. superstud was like "i absolutely have to get this stuff off my chest" and kick me was more like "oh and by the way.. this stuff happened too"
so if u ever have time check these books out
VERY funny and also true.. they are both autobiographical.. they just have different focuses
a james story is something from my life that no one knows about
back in 04 i was in school at belmont university
well what happened was one day i got in my car and started driving away from school when i noticed a note on my windshield
"james i've been watching u and i really like u.. ur funny and u have a cool style.. i hope u will like me too"
from: your secret admirer
(^please note, those r not direct quotes, it was years ago so i'm just saying it as i recall it.. i'm likely leaving things out)
so i get in my car and i'm like wow.. that was... unexpected
this continued to happen for a while
i just kept getting these notes on my car.. i didn't know who this person was but they kept leaving secret admirer notes on my windshield.. not every day, but like one day they'd leave one.. then like a week later i'd get another one.. it was semi-sporadic
then they started leaving their name on it
i forgot what her name was.. it was like jennifer -something i think
so i tried to find this girl but i was having a hard time.. and i began to think someone was playing a trick on me
i remember i had a girlfriend at the time and i told her about the notes and i think it bugged her a bit.. but what was i gonna do? it wasn't like i could stop the notes from coming
so basically i think what happened was that was around the time i wasn't doing well in school or something, and during that time i stopped going
so i never got to find out who that jennifer girl was
but it was great while it lasted
especially for me.. a MALE.. women get noticed for their looks and get all sorts of invitations, cat-calls, attention, etc. etc.
but males don't really get any recognition.. especially me- at the time being a black male at a white college with no muscles, no fame, not even tall.. just a dude .. a black guy as plain as doug funnie
it was just cool.. like wow this jennifer chick likes me and we are going to meet face to face at some point
don't get me wrong, i didn't let it get to my head, i definitely pondered if someone was playing a joke on me.. but again, it felt good to think someone "secretly admired" me
and there's no point in tryin so i lay there and blink/
i'm showin u i feel more stress than u see/
but my business is my business and i keep it all to me/"
what i like about this is it starts off like.. i know u will probably just think i'm rhyming just to say stuff.. but on the real, i am literally about to tell u about what's going on in my life and in my mind
as he goes on with the rhyme everything becomes more specific.. but those first 6 bars can apply to anyone
he's basically like, i know u guys think i live in some kind of fantasy world but i have issues and the reason u think i live in a fantasy world is because i specifically don't let on to what bothers me, but for this song, i'll make a quick exception
personally i think there's a strength there.. to have issues and keep them veiled.. basically refusing to complain about an issue and preferring to keep it quiet until it can be extinguished
subtleties like these are what made boy in da corner one of my fave albums of all time
i've always felt like it was my version of illmatic.. u know how people say illmatic was like an instant classic, and u can kinda see why based on what u heard prior to that album, then hearing that album.. it was like hyper descriptive street poetry art-rap.. the listener can't really help but be transported into nas's world