i can't say i'll really listen to it cuz it will probably have too many cursewords and stuff.. however i'm gnna at least play it once or twice to sate my curiosity
i like his music.. people who don't like it (which is apparently everyone over 20) don't understand it imo
i'm excited i've been waiting to hear his new material since this summer.. both his other albums were great imo
(a few minutes later)
the album is good, just as i suspected its not something i'll really listen to due to the lyrical content.. just like 99% of all other rap albums
however from a purely audible standpoint its a good cd.. i see what he's attempting to prove with this album.. the first song is amazing.. i could only stand it if it was an edited wal-martversion or something
one thing about me is.. i can edit albums since i have the software to do it.. but i don't spend time doing things like that.. i'd rather just not listen at all than spend time buying albums and editing them
i'm currently excited about this song i'm doin with a friend of mine
right now i have to come up with a 2nd verse and i'm hoping i really come up with something great
hopefully i'll get the song done within the week and i'll either post it on the site or just email it to friends
its very different from the last song i did called "guilty"
one thing i want to say is umm.. i've been just trying to get rid of all my rhymes i have sitting around
i've lost a LOT of lyrics (due to computer troubles)... A LOT
i've even thrown a bunch of songs away recently
however i still have some rhymes i haven't really used
so i'm hoping to just use them all for some sort of project
having lyrics has actually become somewhat annoying to me believe it or not
i feel like i'm at a place where i want to just go in spontaneously.. be less planned and/or premeditated
also one other thing i'm hoping to do is just have more fun with music.. just remember to do what i want as opposed to what i think people want to hear
honestly i have things i want to say that i never really say and i'm hoping to start saying it all
i have a certain freedom when it comes to music because i don't depend on music for money
i do music for my own enjoyment and fulfillment.. because of this i can say and do whatever i want.. even if i'm the only person who appreciates it, its still valuable to me
gran turismo recently came out but wow no one is reviewing it
this is ridiculous to me
gamespot has no review at all
ign has a score but no video review
classic game room has no review
this is the worst year in video game journalism EVER
it bothers me a lot
because we've been waiting for the game to come out for what.. 6 years?
now its out and days have passed and no one has reviewed it
think about it.. its like... hmmm
its like being a virgin and waiting for your wedding day all ur life and then on ur honeymoon when ur supposed to get it in then the dr says u can't have any sexual relations for a month
its just REALLY annoying.. i feel like the reviews should be out and i honestly kinda feel insulted by this whole thing.. gran turismo 5 is like the biggest release of the year and we have todeal with this?
its like some sort of head game and its not funny
i've been seeing a lot of pretty girls at school .. i deal with a lot of lustful thoughts
i see a girl and i.... its like the korn song a.d.i.d.a.s. where johnathan davis is like "i don't kno ur name, but so what.. lets f**k"
in a way its really funny because God gave me sexual desires but God also is the one who wants me to control myself in that area
controlling urself can be hard but at the end of the day its really good because it allows for order as well as self preservation
i don't put the cart before the horse and as a result i sidestep a LOT of unnecessary bs
watch cheaters or maury and ask me that question again
the new donkey kong country game looks great.. if i had a wii i'd get it
speaking of games i STILL play dirt 2.. SMH that game is so good when dirt 3 comes out i hope i can be the first to buy it!!!
its one of the most... whats the word.. edifying things u can do it seems
i've been watching a few specific ones where people have sold their souls to satan
one guy cried out to satan and said he'd be his servant for fame and fortune.. he got offered a record deal 2 days later
and another guy sold his soul in exchange for the healing of his leg (so it wouldn't have to be amputated) and that night he felt an agony he had never felt before and spent a good deal of time looking for ways to break that deal
these are quite good.. interesting and easy ways to edify your faith
i just deleted some girls from my facebook friend list
i liked them at one point but they didn't like me
all the girls i've cared about seem to be etched in my brain
i really hope to get married one day so i can direct all these emotions somewhere
its like.. u have talent to rap but u have no equipment
u have a desire to drive but no car
i have a lot of love and affection and emotions but no woman to direct them to
what can u say or do? .. it really hurts to have a genuine love and admiration for someone who thinks u are a nobody
however i like birdman's music and persona in theory in a lot of ways
i have heard his album called "priceless" and i thought it had a lot of good qualities that most people wouldn't notice or appreciate
see the thing i like about birdman is the same thing i like about donald trump
there's a complete absence of conflict in the things they say and do
if you listen to a birdman album u realize every song is a celebration.. every song is "i got money" LOL
every song is "i have this, i have that, i'm great, lil wayne is great, young money is great, cash money is great, we ballin, we poppin bottles" etc etc etc
there's no conflict or negativity to sort out in his lyrics
everything is a celebration and a victory.. in some ways its very refreshing
when i see donald trump its kinda the same sort of thing.. i remember one time an interviewer asked trump about his newborn and he said something like "i can tell he's going to grow up and do great things" and he talked about how great his newborn was
and its like.. how can he know that? its a NEWBORN! .. and they asked him what he meant by that and he said something like "well i've never seen it before but he never cries, its phenomenal, i have a baby who never cries, he's a strong baby"
u see what i mean? some people are always saying something positive even if it doesn't necessarily make sense or even if it seems corny.. but it seems to really become their reality
this is why i keep trying not to say things i normally say such as "i hate school" .. instead i might as well just talk about cool thing and as a result bring them closer to me
but yeah.. if u ever feel like listening to a kinda dumb yet really positive sounding album.. go get birdman's "priceless"
its nothing but an hour of success without conflict.. like i said.. its refreshing.. its like the opposite of depressing.. its like listening to an episode of mtv cribs or some ish.. and pretending ur living a life of privilege and blessings feels good even if it is vicariously through an album
^just some ish i wanted to point out
btw.. baby has a bugatti.. (a 2 million dollar car)
as i was looking for a pic of baby/birdman to put on this blog i ran across some other pics
because they're basically nothing but pagans with a catchier name
people who ignore God and pursue various lusts and passions
there's a lot of pagan ish on tv these days btw
like.. u probably never would have made the connection here, but just to prove my point here is a video of modern paganism, and here's a normal music video from today
try to watch all of each and find the similarities between the two as well as what u know about hippies
its all the same ish
and they push these lifestyles on people through music
its all very subversive
^note they have swastikas as their logo.. it may look a tad more festive but it is still a swastika.. 666 the mark of the beast, illuminati, swastikas, masons.. they are all from the same spirit.. these people may not understand it but regardless of whether they understand it or not their god (or gods) is the enemy.. there are 1000 different ways into hell..
also note at the end she says "this is the night to indulge your impulses" this is a common theme among hippies/pagans.. just do what u feel like doing.. or "do what thou wilt" which is the main aspect of the satanic bible
many diff religions and ways of life lead to hell because satan doesn't care how he gets u there just as long as u go..
the way into heaven is narrow.. specifically the Bible says no one makes it to the Father except through Christ the Savior
now here's just a normal modern video.. people outside in an open space in front of a fire with flames all around dancing and simulating orgies.. hippies, pagans, modern "entertainment".. its all promoting the same agenda
i just wanted to take a moment to point this out.. i have more examples but i just wanted to put this out there
if u want more examples or points or if u have any questions.. get at me
actually... before i go.. let me add one more example of a modern video that is very pagan
people see this and they think "oh.. its like new hippies!" exactly.. but that's not a good thing.. u might as well say "new pagans!" or "wow an appealing path to hell!"
note the lyrics.. "do what u feel now" .. like i have said.. its all related
i've seen comments on this video and i noticed people leaving comments like
"this song makes me want to get naked!" ..and things like that
do u think that feeling that comes over u after hearing this and seeing the video is by chance?
again.. make the connections.. lust has a specific and subversive purpose
i could probably talk about school on here a lot more and probably entertain you quite a bit.. but honestly i just prefer not to talk about school
i prefer to ignore my thoughts and feelings about it and instead just do it.. this way i stay relatively positive
at the end of the day no matter how bad school feels, its an opportunity to better my position in life and its something within my reach.. all debating and hating stop there
however i will say that this 2 day break is MUCH appreciated lolz
my friend devon sometimes tells me that the things i say on blogs or songs or whatever are helpful and/or on time for situations in her life
or sometimes she says that the things i say are insightful to her..
is there a name for this phenomenon?
when a person seems to unconsciously do things that remain relevant to your life.. what do u call that?
imo when u have that sort of connection with an artist or writer or filmmaker.. that's an invaluable (priceless) thing
one thing i want to talk about is this..
i'm tired of people telling me i'm always wrong in dealing with girls
i always need to adjust my approach or "be more aggressive" or "take it slower" SMH.. like i'm so tired of it you wouldn't believe it
how about someone just accept me for who i am for once?
why is it that i'm always expected to know everything a girl thinks before she thinks it and then i'm expected to execute some sort of casanova romance with flawless perfection?
like say i go on a date and its bad then someone will be like "what happened?" and i'll tell them and its never like "oh she shouldn't have done that" or "wow she really messed up when she did that!"
nope.. that's never the case
instead its like people always wonder what i'm doing wrong
"next time you should..."
"call her back up and apologize for..."
"you shouldn't have said..."
see its like... i used to take all the advice and try my best to apply it but i don't care anymore.. look, if things don't work out i'm not going to blame myself for it anymore
it is what it is.. i'm 26 and i'm not changing or adjusting anymore.. i'm james.. if people don't like me for whatever reason then that's their problem, not mine
i'm so sick of adjusting "for the next one" look i'm just going to be me and do me regardless, if a girl turns me down i'm not going to see that as a personal failure anymore
i can't spend my life chasing some elusive fantasy life, i don't know about u but my life isn't a romantic comedy movie.. at the end of the day someone is going to have to like me for me
i play video games, i sit at home too much, i am always on the computer, i don't dance, i laugh for no reason, i have no muscles, i don't have a lot of money, i eat taco bell like everyday n ish
i am me, and i have a lot of good traits too but u will probably never see them unless u exercise some patience with me enough to get to know me for who i am
like if someone doesn't like me then that's not my fault.. my faith is not in me anymore i'm revoking that and putting it in God
i can only do what i can do
i can give a girl compliments, i can be loyal, i can be thoughtful, i can work for her, i can lift her above my head as i walk through quicksand.. these are things i can do.. i can be a man this is what i can do.. as for the rest of this superficial tv stuff? ..lol smh i'm not an athlete or a doctor and i don't look like an action figure but THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH ME
as a matter of fact, from now on i'm going to place the blame on everyone BUT me! cuz i've internalized rejection for so long that i can't take it anymore
so if i am text driving and i slam into the back of ur car at night.. guess what ngga? ITS YOUR FAULT (metaphor for the dating realm)
so yeah.. no more accepting blames for me.. if you don't like me thats your problem and i'm not changing.. at the end of the day i'd rather have a woman from God's hands than my own anyway.. so the method is stay with God and get what He has for me as opposed to trying to live up to society's impossible and ever-changing standards of what a real or desirable man is