i am tired right now i am just going to say whatever pops in my head for a minute.. none of this will be important so skip if you wish.. i just feel like thinking outloud +++++ i would like to get a jacket.. i don't have one.. i might peruse levi's online to see what they have +++++ i missed black friday but it actually didn't bother me as much as i thought it would.. maybe what i should do is set aside like $40/month from now until november 2016 and then go out and buy a cheap 4k tv... not to use for tv, but for video games/blu-rays i really hate tv btw.. i mean everything on tv is crap.. i mean all they talk about anymore is gay people, racism, and other nonsense +++++ i have been kinda down lately because i feel a bit constrained by my limited amounts of time each day.. i know i could seize the day more efficiently but sometimes its hard when u come home and all u want to do is surf the net and sleep my cousin david who got the $15,000 scholarship really kinda made me think.. i mean he was telling me he makes like 3 songs in an hour and a half.. his songs sound great too.. i'm really proud of him and he makes me want to do more with my evenings.. his focus really was an eye-opener for a brotha +++++ i've been getting up early for a while now since i got this newer job and wowzers.. its a little rough.. i like a good 4 hours at least before work but its hard when u have to be there by 7am.. but its cool, cuz it could be worse! i think ideally i'd like to go to sleep every night at 3am and get up at about 11am this way i could maximize my night time hours, minimize my day time hours, and also avoid morning altogether.. for some reason i dislike the time of dawn.. it just irritates me for some reason +++++ i was thinking recently about being married and wondering how certain things work.. like what if u had beans for dinner do u go downstairs and sleep on the couch? or do u just hop in bed and let em' rip all night? i asked my mom how it works and she said "u just have to deal with it, and its really messed up" or something like that and i was just marinating on that lol its something i never really thought about before.. do u think other couples think about that? i was talking to one girl i liked last year and she told me she was "gassy" and i was wondering what that meant.. like did that mean she farts nonstop? like i met a guy who belched literally all day everyday.. was she the same way with that butt-trumpet? do u want someone who describes theirself as "gassy" ?? like are they warning you that u are screwed if you marry them? are they on that- "dairy don't agree with me but i still eat ice cream" type ish? +++++ i've been working out and it somewhat bothers me to know that 3yrs ago i was running pretty much double the amount of time that i run now... i feel like a bum or something.. but deep down i know that overcoming discouragement is a part of any worthwhile process i also have to say that, back then i don't think i was working full time.. so that gave me a little more time i really wanna get back to this.. i think this was 2008 +++++
do u ever wake up and just feel like complaining? that's how i felt today.. i was trying to just not say anything and just get through the day.. i don't know what that's about.. i guess that's how old men feel when they are cranky or whatever.. i really felt that way today +++++ its crazy how i stay afloat financially.. weird things happen that make me understand God makes a way for me.. its not me, its definitely the Lord because of how things happen.. the thing that has been happening recently is i will be thinking "how am i gnna pay such and such when it comes?" then it comes and it will be severely discounted for no reason.. or i've even had bills just not come some months lol.. i kid you not +++++ kb sent me an ill beat a minute ago.. i told him i will have a rap done by a week from today so look out for that i have been ignoring rap for too long this year
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