i want to talk about something that is difficult to deal with when it comes to women
some of you may have seen my "women are beta" post not too long ago and i totally 100% believe that.. it has been reiterated to me about 100 times since that revelation when i say 'beta' i mean like.. non alpha.. meaning like- the way they think and act is in line with the beta personality this (like i said before) makes everything about women make sense.. there were so many times in my life where i'd be like literally dumbfounded at how/why a woman would act in a certain way.. but "women are beta" makes it all make sense now that we've gotten that out of the way again, i want to talk about a thing women/betas do that i have a hard time with they withhold their true feelings this also explains why women will talk to all their friends about how great their man is, but she won't tell him any of that stuff they say things like "i don't want to give __ the satisfaction of knowing they affected me" or "i love __ but i don't want them to know that" or "he wants me to like him so i can't tell him i like him" or "i want to be noticed so i will act like i'm taken" etc. etc. these tactics- though they all still fall under the "women are beta" category - are still a bit weird to me i would also generally categorize them as "overthinking" or "self defeating" sometimes but let me talk about my PERSONAL problem with it when i flirt with women.. its kinda fun and everything- i mean it is what it is.. i don't mind showing my hand or putting my cards on the table whether it is direct or indirect but my personal issue is, after a while it gets old.. like we all want an ebb and flow.. if its just me giving compliments and showing interest and inviting you places and things- after a while it just plain gets old.. it becomes like one-sided.. like its not ebb and flow, its just ebb.. its just me putting myself out there and you watching me do it sorry but i want some validation too.. i mean wow can i get a call or a text or a "how's your day" or even just something as simple as a reply-text that doesn't take you 4 hours to send? and another thing i have to say.. (i am speaking from the heart right now) i almost cannot begin to tell you how tired i am of getting a text or call from a girl 3 days after i contacted her and she has a stupid excuse like "i didn't get your call until now" or "my phone died" or "my phone wasn't working but i went to get it fixed" or something.. and part of what makes it so bad is even if you call them on it they will never admit it.. they will never admit they just met another guy or they were mad at you for a 30 second disagreement or because you said another girl was pretty or whatever.. so when they refuse to acknowledge anything they do- you are forced to just overlook everything... you can't even confront them and say "hey i didn't like that" because they will say "you didn't like what? i didn't do anything" one time i confronted a girl and she legit said "i didn't do what you think i did but i apologize" .. i was like "if u apologize then you acknowledge you did it" she was like "no, i did nothing but i apologize to you" this just made me even more upset than what i originally was! sidenote: one way you can tell women are lying to you about their phone dying or whatever is because they usually stop talking to you afterwards.. like ok say u are calling a girl and she doesn't answer and u get to the 4th time and she doesn't answer and so ur like ok forget it.. then one day she comes back with a stupid excuse.. then AFTER THE EXCUSE she still won't really talk to you so its not like "my phone broke and now it's fixed, so lets talk again like normal" its really like her just finding a way to say "don't be mad at me" without admitting fault and without apologizing, and without changing (committing to be a reliable friend/spouse) i mean its one thing to be beta.. its another thing to just lie to my face and act like you are always innocent.. its the evil phone company that is sabotaging our relationship and connection.. no its never you and your silent treatment.. oh no its never your attitude and pride that get in the way.. oh no its never those I AM TIRED OF IT i am thankful for the struggles because i have lived long enough to sort of deduce that a struggle with a thing generally precedes the fruit thereof but look- i am human too sometimes it just boils down to something as simple as "treat people the way you'd like to be treated" sometimes its not about men and women and beta and alpha.. sometimes its just.. can a brotha get some golden rule type of people in his life like i get so worn out trying and trying and giving and giving and not getting the corresponding positive outcome if i give a compliment- don't reply with sarcasm if i crack a joke, don't roll your eyes can i get a smile or a hug or a "how's your day?" i mean you can't withhold your feelings all the time and expect men to actually like you past sexual attraction.. at some point you women have to show some affection our way.. show me something, smile, act happy to see me when i drive to your house- why do u have to look all tired and lethargic like i could leave and you wouldn't even care? why do women hide it all.. like literally i am tired of trying and putting in effort yet never knowing if they like me back or not.. like i'm not asking for anything big.. just show some interest what is it? am i paying for what a previous man did to you? you just absolutely refuse to put your heart out there at all in any way shape or form!? i am so tired of feeling like i am just another option.. just another "i can take it or leave it" its not fun at all.. women are like "yeah this guy tried to holler at me in the mall blah blah blah" always making it seem like they could drop me at any second.. i feel like i am hanging by a thread in their mind, like if i do one wrong thing it'll not only be "goodbye" but also "f*** you" i want to stand in some sort of security knowing you won't wake up tomorrow and block me on your phone the Bible says that love is first "patient," it also says that love will wax cold in the last days so each time a minor thing causes a person i care about to completely turn their back on me- i realize where we are at this moment in time.. and i probably am in fact asking for too much
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