man i really wish college would end i am so tired of having to have my ideas, thoughts, and opinions scrutinized by arrogant atheist white male professors and feminazi white female professors to address the "white" thing... i have nothing against white people at all, but if you are white reading this then put yourself in my shoes i have only had one black professor in my entire time in college if you had all black teachers would you expect to be given the benefit of the doubt? would you expect to be understood? would you expect that your perspective would be widely accepted? a white girl the other day told me she is going to an hbc which is a "historically black college" she followed that tidbit of information up with "i'm going to school for free since i'm going to a predominantly black college" now i'm not hatin, she needs to do what she needs to do, but ask yourself.. do black people get this type of treatment? if i go through 4 or 5 years of college and NEVER have a black professor, do you think i am getting a tuition reduction? do u think if i go to school and feel alienated from all my peers due to cultural differences and subtle discrimination.. do u think i am going to lay my head on my pillow at night and say "at least i'm going to college for free" ?? let me tell you something.. i went to belmont university for a while years ago.. this is a private school and at the time i was there it was probably 95% white i STILL would go in the bathroom and see that people wrote "DIE NIGGERS" all over the stalls.. with other races, blacks were only like 3 or 4% of the whole population and they were still mad at us!? WTF!? ask yourself, do u think anyone said.. "hey, lets give our black students a grant!" i go to austin peay and no professor is like me at all.. do i look like a damn feminist to you? would i ever dare be stupid enough to call myself an atheist? but all my work is filtered through these people every day i just turned in an assignment and i got a lowered grade because the teacher said my views on women are "antiquated" so the f*ck what!? so because my views are rooted in clear cut gender roles then they are wrong? because i don't embrace the dumbass new-age "i-want-to-abort-my-baby-and-be-a-slut" mentality then i'm wrong? because my views are more like your grandparents views than YOUR views then i'm wrong? this is just another feminist who only wants benefits in her life with no responsibilities.. "i want to be able to kill my inconvenient baby without any stigma" "i want to work 40 hours a week for the same pay and i still want a man to ask ME out and pay for MY dinner" "i want to rub it in your face that i can do everything you can do and probably even better but i still want you to open doors for me when we go places" hey teacher.. is chivalry "ANTIQUATED!?" hey u MORONIC FEMINAZI... IS "WOMEN AND CHILDREN FIRST" ANTIQUATED!? i've already written about this.. this is a problem with this generation of people.. everyone thinks they are smarter than everyone before them this generation thinks anything that's not a "new" belief is stupid newsflash #1.. paganism is not "new" newsflash #2... YOU'RE AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!! and another thing.. just because my views sound like they may possibly be similar to other views DOES NOT MEAN those views are what my views are based on for example, i could say the government needs to stop spending so much.. just because that is a financially conservative view doesn't mean i'm a republican just because i have a certain view on gender roles doesn't mean i'm copying "the 50s" people are too stupid to realize i have my own views based on my own knowledge.. in other words.. STOP TRYING TO PIGEONHOLE ME !!!!!! all this bs makes me want to rap the 2nd verse to my school zone song everything in life is an oddity/ no one'll hire you until you're brainwashed properly/ this is how to think and here's how u gotta be/ bandwagon life, don't think- just follow me/
I WILL NEVER FOLLOW YOU FEMINIST ATHEIST PRO-GAY JACKASSES!!!! and get some black, hispanic, and asian professors at these damn schools for once! stop alienating people!!!!!!
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i had to do this because some spammer (person or bot) keeps leaving comments here in hope of getting people to go to their website and spend money i find it sad that people do things like this and ruin things for so many people but whatever no further comment. here is another "educational look" music blog.. this is the sequel/follow-up to the one i did with diana king's "shy guy" i'm not sure how many of these i will do but i want to make sure i show that songs mean more than meets the eye normally.. that is the whole point behind these- to show that music can be extremely educational in this entry i will take a very "stupid" or "silly" insane clown posse song and explain why its educational, with quotes from a sociology book ok if you're interested in this then first listen to this from the beginning to 3:28 then stop the song and read on below... ok.. everyone generally says icp is "stupid" or the worst band ever i don't really listen to icp anymore however i used to be a big fan as someone who was a big fan, my view is that they are the complete opposite of "stupid" ..for me, listening to them in the 90s, i found them to be creative geniuses they are extremely intelligent to a point that many people don't "get" them or they simply don't like the ideas they express.. for example: they are extremely against racism.. so if you are racist then you may be inclined to say "i hate icp" as opposed to "they diss racist people like me" now.. with that said.. let me explain this particular song about "the smog" this song is a humorous and hyperbolic (exaggerated) take on a thing called 'environmental racism' in icp's case, it would be environmental classism since they are white.. however seeing as how the vast majority of the neighborhoods they hung out at and lived in in inner-city detroit were black and hispanic.. we can still very safely call it environmental racism this song is about the living conditions the poor, black, and hispanic neighborhoods have to live in if a city needs to build a brand new trash dump, tell me- which side of the tracks do you think it'll end up on? here's the text i wanted to share from a sociology book: "Environmental racism is the disproportionate exposure of some racial groups to environmental toxic substances. Race is the strongest predictor of hazardous waste facility location in the country, even after adjustment for social class. Even before Hurricane Katrina struck in 2005, New Orleans was already struggling with environmental assaults that ranged from floodwaters to toxic debris. People of color were most vulnerable to these assaults. Katrina was among the deadliest and most devastating disasters in U.S. history. Although public attention has focused on rebuilding the Gulf Coast, a lesser known crisis of lethal debris lingers, left over from Hurricane Katrina. Nationally, three out of five African Americans and Latinos live in communities with abandoned toxic waste sites because of land use, housing patterns, and infrastructure development." ^this is literally straight out of one of my college textbooks so.. there you have it.. entry number two.. i explained to you that a song from insane clown posse that sounds like it has no relevance whatsoever to anything rooted in reality is actually a look at the effects of race and class inequality in our society just because they poke fun at these serious issues, does not mean what they're saying isn't important, relevant, or rooted in reality so i hope some of you are beginning to see where i'm going with this music is a relevant educational tool.. this silly icp song and my textbook are indeed saying the same things the other day i was thinking about how i write these entries, and how i write rhymes.. and i was thinking about all the linguistic things i do in my life
i was driving around town and i tried to pinpoint the time where i first started to like, or show an affinity towards writing in my mind i went back to high school, then i went back some more, then i went back some more.. and i came to the conclusion that i've always been like this first of all, i was put in school early.. sometimes i'd run into people who were a grade under me who were older than i was.. which was bonkers but one aspect of being put in school early is you learn to read at an early age i learned to read really early.. i remember one day sitting in the car with my mom and it occurred to me that i could read.. i was reading signs and things as we passed them by and in my own way, i took ownership of my ability that day moving forward.. in school i was always reading at a higher grade level than where i was at.. we used to do this game where we'd read a book one by one as a class and whenever you made a mistake then the teacher would let someone else read.. well whenever it was my turn the teacher would literally have to make me stop reading because i never made mistakes.. the book would just come to me and no one else would get a turn to read lol when i was in elementary i remember i won a school-wide spelling bee.. what was crazy about this was i remember when i won, i was like wow this is neat or whatever.. but my teacher who was this black lady, who was almost like a mom or an aunt more than a teacher- was SO happy i won.. like she grabbed me and hugged me and i was like "wow!" lol.. my sister was also really proud of me the next few years in middle school and high school i got no recognition for any writing or anything.. sometimes i wonder if some of this was discriminatory because my middle school and high school were like 99% white.. a lot of modern day racism is just quiet things that discourage you like people not giving you the credit you deserve i remember one time some kid drew a picture and said "hey james look here's a picture of you" and i looked at it and it was a picture of a person with a huge wide-nose and huge lips.. it was an obvious mockery of me being black and so i gave it to the teacher, hoping she would see the harassment but she didn't do anything about it its things like this that make me wonder about that school.. and i don't think it was the whole school but a few bad apples seemed to be in there.. if i was in her shoes and someone did that to a lone white kid in a black school i would stick up for the white kid, but hey i guess that's just me anyway.. when i was in this school i still enjoyed when we had to do definitions and use words in a sentence.. i used to KILL those assignments .. it was nothing to me to use a brand new word in a sentence and add humor in it or whatever.. once i moved to tennessee i got to overton high school.. this school was more mixed again and so there seemed to be less discrimination.. once i got to overton i started seeing accolades again.. i turned in a poem about "a raisin in the sun" and the teacher gave me an A and wrote on the paper that i have a real talent.. she wrote "WOW!" on my paper and everything this really kinda tripped me out because i wasn't used to getting any sort of good comments on anything.. i continued at overton getting some really positive feedback also one of my teachers beat the 5-paragraph essay into our heads.. this actually is a valuable thing.. its not so much that you will write 5-paragraph essays often, but it teaches you about structure and flow to writing also we learned about poetic devices and i ATE THAT UP, i thought all of that was so cool and i wrote the most amazing poem you've ever seen in high school.. i used about 10 poetic devices in one and made it a riddle, it was so good it was absurd.. making that poem tripped me out because when i was finished i seriously sat back and admired my work.. it wasn't like "yes i'm so glad i'm done with that stupid assignment" it was like "wow i want to hang this on my wall!" when i got to college i met my friend eric and i remember eric always saying he never cared about beats in music, for him it was all about lyrics.. eric had a big influence on me, i always liked to talk to him and pick his brain so when he said this i started listening to lyrics a lot closer.. doing this gave me a whole different perspective on music.. you can listen, or you can LISTEN.. if you LISTEN, you will see all the subtleties in the lyrics and inflections also around this time i got the 'eminem show' album and that had the lyrics in the booklet and that album really made me excited to write and to write with a real lyrical precision and mastery that album was lyrically bonkers i'd recommend it to anyone who really wants to study the craft.. i used to carry the booklet with me everywhere and i just soaked that thing up because from my perspective at the time, NO ONE was spitting like that anyway.. that pretty much covers my development.. everything after that stuff is pretty much trial, error, and execution.. and i still LISTEN.. and try to have fun with everything i write but that is my background in writing, lyrics, and linguistic self expression do u guys think people on dating sites are inherently flawed?
i think so more and more.. for women its like they just got out of an 8 yr relationship or a marriage, or they are hoes, or they have 3 kids, or they are just very fat for men its like (at least in my case) i don't have my life 100% together, i'm still in college and i don't even really know what i'll be doing once its over.. some other guys may be players or secretly married or whatever else what made me think of this is.. when i watched the tim dog online dating scam thing on msnbc i realized his whole profile should've rang alarm bells because it said the following: height: 6'1 age: 44 income: $250,000/yr status: single have kids?: no i was sitting there thinking to myself HOW IN THE F*CK COULD A GUY WITH THOSE CREDENTIALS BE SINGLE? like these women should've already known that if all that stuff was true then guess what? ..HE WOULDN'T HAVE TO GET ON A DATING SITE !!!! women would be breaking their backs trying to lock him down so i think to myself.. are any of these people actually worthy of dating? i partially think the whole online dating world is like a pool of the untouchables not pointing fingers, because i used to be on dating sites.. but no one (that i like) seems to ever like me in real life and its the same thing on the dating sites.. so why even bother? i could probably meet someone online who is 300lbs with 3 kids but i'd rather stay single than be with that person or maybe i will find someone online who actually looks good but they will turn out to be so superficial that i can't stand it my point is that, regardless of what the person's "flaw" is.. the fact is i'm meeting up with flaws think about it.. why would a 'great catch' be on a dating site? would you ever see someone like usher on a dating site? do u think i will ever see christina aguilera (post pregnancy <--- my preference hehehe) on a dating site? not to say usher and christina are so great, but i'm just saying that some of the most desirable people probably won't be on there.. or would they? (<---because again, currently this is all just theory) example of what i mean: ok i'm a guy, so say i run across a girl online who looks like a 10.. 500,000 other guys also think she's a 10 so what even would make me think i could stand out from the crowd in her eyes at all? chances are she is only online for attention, because if she's a 10 she probably already has a boyfriend all of this is just me thinking outloud, i'm not calling anyone out.. these are just hypothetical thoughts and questions my question is.. shouldn't you be able to meet someone in real life? and if you can't meet someone in real life.. shouldn't you probably just work on yourself? and if you DO go online.. do u really think the people you meet will have any value to you? maybe for them, going online is an act of desperation and maybe that desperation is a result of no one wanting them in real life in which case, you're essentially scraping the bottom of the barrel aren't you? anyone have any thoughts on this? i wanted to talk real quick about usher's fashion in this pic.. first off, it stood out to me because the simplicity reminds me of how i dress.. anyway.. a lot of times what makes your clothing isn't the actual clothing, its how you wear it.. and a lot of times its your body itself this is why you ('you' as in anyone) buy expensive clothing and still look frumpy.. because you don't understand the true keys to what make fashion work.. its not brand or money spent.. its more about what you bring to the clothing than what the clothing brings to you usher understands this in this photoshoot because if you look at his clothing its extremely simple yet pulled off very well.. he doesn't have to try hard because he knows how to pose, he wears his WRINKLED shirt with confidence, and he has the body to pull off an open shirt my point is you can go out looking like a damn fool and still pull it off if you do it right, and in the right context- meaning: dress for who u are, what you're doing, and where you live don't be fooled into needing brand names, focus on making your clothing work for you and who you are.. play to your strengths and remember to think about the implications of each aspect of your 'look' what a day today has been
i reach out and feel the void i don't resent it.. it's merely reminding me to stay where its safe back to the zone i go and remain not coming up for air this time because the Z loves me why should i ever leave the place i am most welcome? contentment has never eluded me.. I ELUDED IT. that ends. today my dad called me and he asked me what's up
i told him my teacher is a hippie and he is forcing me to regurgitate his rhetoric about america needing to legalize marijuana what did my dad say back? yep.. you guessed it he turned it into something about israel again you should've seen my face. you know what else? the other day i was on the phone with my mom and she said my dad wanted to talk to me.. i said "oh boy.. about what? ..he's always talking to me about israel!!" she said "better you than me" and cracked up laughing and gave my dad the phone i think my dad needs his own blog site all about israel someone set that up for him PRONTO ! |
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