sin and forgiveness Posted by poolboyjames on September 8, 2010 at 9:14 PM comments (0)so i was at church not too long ago and i heard a message about grace but to me it was beginning to sound weird so i'm going to talk about grace and what it means
ok we all have sinned and fallen short of God's righteousness and therefore His acceptance.. but God sent his son Jesus to die on the cross for our sins so that Jesus who is sinless would take the punishment for us so we are saved by grace.. aka God's mercy.. aka God's provision.. His sacrifice of His son Jesus ok so with all that said i want to explain what grace is like in today's standards to me its like this: say u got into debt somehow.. say u owe a loan shark $200,000 they are going to break both of your arms and legs if u don't pay them soon.. but u work at mcdonalds so u have no money to pay on the loan u got urself into this mess and u know rightfully u deserve to have all of your limbs broken HOWEVER... say a rich person hears ur story, has pity on you.. and comes along and pays your debt for you you now owe nothing because the rich person paid the debt for you NOW.. onto sin and forgiveness since this rich person just paid your $200,000 debt.. it would be stupid of you to call the loan shark the next day and get another loan wouldn't it? ^that's what its like when we go back to our sinful ways... its like a slap in the face to the one who paid your debt.. like yeah i know i just cost u $200,000 but since ur so rich i'll just waste more of ur money... NO.. the rich person had mercy on you.. u thank them and STOP doing what got u in bondage in the first place! since the rich person paid ur $200,000 debt.. it would be really stupid to go and beat someone up over the fact that they owe u $20 wouldn't it? ^that's what its like when u refuse to forgive someone.. because God sent His only Son to die on the cross for you.. He paid a huge cost for your salvation.. He paid a huge cost so that He could forgive and accept you.. so when u don't forgive someone for an offense, you are being selfish and again, its like a slap in the face to the one who paid your debt so this is why we should always avoid our past life of sin and commit to righteousness after being saved.. and also why we should always forgive others after being saved i wanted to explain that because some people don't seem to understand these concepts like some people say "go ahead and sin, God'll forgive you" ..but that's not really a full picture of what is going on when u do such a thing
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the right direction Posted by poolboyjames on September 8, 2010 at 12:55 PM comments (0)yesterday i was at the grocery store and i picked up some candy and i was about to get them until i thought.. wait.. these have no nutritional value.. in fact they will probably make me sleepy or end up giving me a headache or something
then i thought.. just get them and eat them in moderation.. everything in moderation then i thought.. what sense does that make? how can anything that is negative be good in moderation u would never say.. oh i just want to snort a LITTLE cocaine today i only beat my wife up a LITTLE bit today these things don't make any sense so why should we compromise on other things that we know are still no good? just cuz it tastes good? because it provides some sort of satisfaction? how about the satisfaction of doing what is right in every given situation? how about the satisfaction of living above life's various temptations and striving for what is good and right at all times? we always sell ourselves short when we make bad decisions.. and i know saying this stuff is one thing and living it is another, so hopefully you or i will one day TRULY understand the importance of constant good decision-making what is the difference between myself and the richest person in the world? decisions right? discipline right? diligence right? what is the difference between myself and a person with a great and lucrative career? what is the difference between myself and a guy with magazine worthy abs? i mean really.. if we want to get our lives in better shape we have to stop looking at what other people do and just start making the right decisions for ourselves... it all starts with decisions discipline and diligence u would never wake up and say.. "i want to sell myself short today" but that's what we do everytime we make a bad decision so lets try to get our lives in order, lets cut out the bad and shoot for the top!!! if u are feelin me on this then i have 2 words for you..... LET'S GO!!!!! *stomps on candy bag and runs to a different aisle *** word for todayz Posted by poolboyjames on September 6, 2010 at 10:29 AM comments (0)
friends and fellowship.. who should i seek out? who should i keep a distance from? I am a friend to all who fear you,to all who follow your precepts. psalms 119:63 Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common? Or whatfellowship can light have with darkness? What harmony is there between Christ and Belial? What does a believer have in common with an unbeliever? What agreement is there between the temple of God and idols? For we are the temple of the living God. As God has said: "I will live with them and walk among them, and I will be their God, and they will be my people." "Therefore come out from them and be separate, says the Lord. Touch no unclean thing, and I will receive you." "I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty." 2 corinthians 6:14-18 my prayer for tonight Posted by poolboyjames on September 6, 2010 at 11:18 PM comments (0)"delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart"
psalms 37:4 i don't even necessarily want to post Bible verses all the time but these things are what i'm trying to hold on to so that hopefully i will obey and see the manifestations of the promises this one i just posted here seems a bit difficult to grasp in a way.. u are told to delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.. .. this is written to people who do not currently have the desires of their heart.. meaning u have to delight in the Lord or find a praise even when u don't have what u want.. in other words.. praise God even when u feel like crying, or even when u feel like giving up doesn't seem too easy does it? but this sort of thing is what i am standing on daily i am believing God for a good woman DAILY and i am not going to get arrogant and say i'm a perfect believer but i am trying i feel very blessed in my life but i have a big woman-shaped hole in my life and i need a girl to fill it this desire came into my life after i got my studio equipment.. i guess seeking the equipment out was somewhat of a high in and of itself.. .. a driving force if you will.. i didn't really think about other things too much but about 2 weeks after i got everything i began to feel my soul calling out for something else.. beauty, affection, companionship, intimacy, etc my life is missing all of these i guess this is just my current struggle in a lot of ways i don't want to praise God or even talk to God because i feel like He is ignoring me.. allowing me to live an incredibly unfulfilled lifestyle and it seems like He doesn't care but that only describes what it FEELS and SEEMS like.. reality is different.. and my faith is in what i know i know He does care and i know He is doing great things in my life.. i just have to remain on track and not let my problems take my victory i don't want to go backwards i want to go forward in my walk with God and so my objective is to wait on Him for as long as it takes inside i want to abuse women just like every other guy.. i want to pick up a girl, use her for a period of time, then move on to another one.. but i flat-out refuse to go against God's moral standards i am going to remain strong, praise God, and walk in the spirit daily.. i walk around everyday feeling like there's a hole in my chest.. DO U THINK I WANT TO PRAISE GOD!? i want to look up in the sky and say God where are you!? but its not about where God is.. its about where i am.. am i pleasing God in my walk? am i being a living sacrifice? i don't know about you but i want the full blessing of the Lord.. i want the whole thing.. i want a good woman who will love me for me, a good woman i can respect, a good woman who is beautiful, a good woman who is loyal, a woman who is to be admired, a woman with wisdom.. i can go and get a girl who will be fun for a few nights but she is eventually going to leave me or cheat on me or tell me i don't live up to some stupid superficial standard.. i'm tired of being rejected or losing in the game of love.. so i am done playing GAMES.. that's all they are.. GAMES.. people don't accept u for who u are, people aren't patient with u, people reject u for things u can't change, people are cool with u one day then the next they don't answer when u call.. i'm so done with the whole thing.. i am tired of having my heart long for people who don't even have love to give.. so let's skip all of this garbage and go to the REAL SOURCE... i want the person God has for me i want God's mate He wants to give me.. that's it.. i want nothing less than exactly the person God has hand-picked for James Smedley because of this i am willing to do whatever it takes i am going to stand strong i am not going to be sidetracked by these women with booty-shorts walking around.. i am going to remain strong and control myself and ready myself for what God has for me a person perfectly suited to be my helper.. a girl i delight in and admire.. a girl who is a source of joy in my life i am not interested in any second bests.. i almost feel like i can't say that enough.. I AM GOING TO STAY STRONG AND GET WHAT THE LORD HAS FOR ME I AM NOT GOING TO WASTE MY TIME ON UNBELIEF AND UNBELIEVERS.. I AM STAYING ON THE WINNING TEAM LORD BE MY STRENGTH my flesh is weak but i can do all things through Christ temptation is everywhere but i will not let go. question 4 today Posted by poolboyjames on September 5, 2010 at 12:30 PM comments (3)why do rappers brag about banging hoes?
they're easy by definition there is nothing to brag about ryme tyme Posted by poolboyjames on September 5, 2010 at 9:42 AM comments (0)"since i've been thinking deeply, i might try to see
about maybe going down to get my ears pierced its a slightly different style for me different from the one i have usually but i'm told it will prepare my mind surely for having a wife, full time and all week u learn how to deal with pain like i foresee and of course ur required to buy jewelry!" - the streets aka mike skinner (2004 fit but u kno it remix) brought to my attention Posted by poolboyjames on September 5, 2010 at 11:02 AM comments (4)i saw a thing on fantasia and noticed some questionable lyrics for a song she did called 'hood boy'
ok we have already established she doesn't have the best taste in men haven't we? she got involved with a married man and got his name tattoo'd on herself and when everything got out on tv she tried to o.d. on pills and kill herself so here in this song we have her looking for a 'hood boy' and projecting her bad taste onto millions of listeners (sidenote: the gray is all her lyrics, the red is my commentary) Yeah ya gotta understand what I'm talkin' about I'm talkin' about on this one Sexy Sexy as hell to me (ok, so hell is sexy now?) Yeah Verse:1 So let me tell ya bout a playa I know 6 foot 4 225 he's all the way live see where I come from we like em like that He don't talk smack he just twist caps off (u want someone who is violent... great) see that's the only kinda dude I'm demandin' And every girl like me understand it And the ones that ain't they still gotta have it they don't know why But they stay chantin' {Chorus} I need a hood boy Wifebeaters and jeans always in the trap (u want someone who sells drugs.. awesome) and he looks so mean (because smiling is for weak men) I need a hood boy go'on head pretty nigga (u want someone ugly LOL ok cool) We don't like them there need somethin' mo realer I need a hood boy hot boys rock boys (rock boy. because selling crack has benefits, stability, and a retirement plan) street boys B-boys man I love them boys Go on say Verse: 2 He knows how to treat a lady but he won't let you get too rowdy (this line warrants a very wholehearted 'SMH' for many reasons) He stands up for himself that's what I like most about him (^now for this 'he stands up for himself, that's what i likeMOST about him' line.. this may not be a 100% terrible line but.. ok let me point this out... i once read an article about a black man and a jewish man who had a conversation.. the jewish man asked the black man, what is the main thing ur parents taught u? the black man with a sense of pride responded "if someone hits you, you hit em' back" so the black guy's chest is poked out with pride and he asks the jewish man the same question.. "what is the main thing your parents taught you?" the jewish man said "to help another jew" the black man then deflated and realized how selfish and destructive he had been taught to be.. and it changed his life for the better and now he is focused on helping people.. and that's what this line reminds me of.. yes standing up for urself is not necessarily bad in every given situation, but if standing up for yourself' or 'fighting back' is the whole of your belief system, then u are ultimately feeding into a destructive system.. people who think this way are the same ones u end up seeing on first 48 in handcuffs if i was to put it in biblical terms here's what i'd say: "in humility regard others as better than yourselves. Let each of you look not to your own interests, but to the interests of others. Let the same mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus." phiippians 2:3-5) He's all I see and all I need (umm... so u need this hood boy more than you need Christ.. hm.. ok) and all that I want (smh) and all that I'm used to I swear that my man's the truth (here we go with that TRUTH thing again.. Christ says "I am the way, the truth, and the light, no man makes it to the Father except through me" -john14:6.. but here she is saying that this hood boy is the "truth".. essentially replacing Jesus with a man who sells crack) I said I swear that my man's the truth (SHE SAID IT A SECOND TIME FOR EMPHASIS!! ARE YOU SERIOUS!!!!!??????) {Chorus} I need a hood boy Wifebeaters and jeans always in the trap and he looks so mean I need a hood boy go'on head pretty nigga We don't like them there need somethin' mo' realer I need a hood boy hot boys rock boys street boys B-boys man I love them boys ok.... this is why i can't even listen to music the way i used to.. because this song is probably perceived by most people as harmless but it is terrible in a lot of ways i could go on but i'm just going to leave it at that go ahead and judge for yourself i'm out. labor day weekend thoughts Posted by poolboyjames on September 4, 2010 at 3:22 PM comments (0)when this semester started i really thought one of my classes was going to be annoying
when i was in there that first day i was annoyed and dreading the rest of the semester.. so i actually decided to walk out and change my schedule.. there was a moment about a half hour intothe class where people were talking and stuff so i decided to leave i literally had my hand on my books and was getting out of my seat then a guy came up to me and stuck his hand out for me toshake it he was blocking my way and smiling from ear to ear from there i pretty much decided to stay in the class.. i took it as a "james relax it won't be as bad as ur expecting it to be" type of thing i could have still left but sometimes i find it good to pay attention to... lets call it "coincidental opposition" so i'm going to try and not let anything bother me this school year because at the beginning and end of the day i'm at school for a degree not to enjoy every single aspect of the process.. in hindsight i actually feel like i was being a bit immature about it.. like james calm down you have a good schedule don't change it based on a first impression of a class.. i realize in any given situation i have to put my attitude on the backburner and just get the job done.. see things through and not always look for a different or easier way +++++++++++++++ this woman at work has given me a compliment every day for like at least 10 days in a row she always is amazed at how well i dress i just show up and she says hi and then a few minutes later she gets a look at me up and down and she's like "wow james is hooked up today" and she tells me i look nice and coordinate well and things of that nature the first 5 or 6 times she did this she didn't even realize it.. it was pure shock, but now she is at the point where she's just like "james is a really good dresser!" LOL this is cool to me.. not in an arrogant way but just like.. to me a lot of art is connected, so to me i feel like i'm being recognized on a certain talent.. to me, the same thing that gives me good fashion sense is the same thing that gives me good taste in music, as well as the ability to write lyrics or blog entries i am thankful to have a certain flair (if u will) for arts and creative output of various sorts btw someone a few days ago messaged me on facebook and said they like my website i appreciated it (if u happen to read this, thank you.. u didn't have to do that but u did) .. some people come to my site and read it but they don't comment or share input of any sort.. so thank u for that ++++++++++++++++ i have been thinking recently i wish i had a prayer partner "I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them." matthew 18:19-20 based on ^that, it seems to me that having a prayer partner would be an invaluable resource i think the ideal situation would be to hook up with the person every weekday in the morning and bring our requests before the Lord.. i hope i can get a prayer partner one day.. prayers wouldn't be deep or long.. just constant, and they'd have that element of agreement which carries with it guaranteed results +++++++++++++++++ i have really been running through tissue boxes.. wow my nose is a faucet and ish it seems like everytime i'm at wal-mart i have to get 2 or 3 more boxes of tissues, smh +++++++++++++++++ one funny thing that happened to me this year is.. i did a fast for a week.. 7 days i didn't tell anyone about it so then after the 7th day when my fast was over i got up and i was just chillin, doin my morning stuff and i got a text from my sister it said "The Lord put it on my heart to encourage you today.. there will be a breakthrough for your diligence." i thought WOW how amazing is that... cuz like i said i JUST finished the fast and NO ONE knew about it.. i knew God used my sister to speak to me directly (this wasn't even long ago at all btw) its things like this^ that really help me to remain strong in my beliefs.. the Bible says God knew us before He formed us in the womb and it also says He knows the number of hairs on our heads He knows and loves each of us individually... He cares for us and He knows what we need before we ask Him for it i'm just going to say keep that in mind today +++++++++++++++ i think that'll cover it for todayz peaCe + Luvs parallel sentiments Posted by poolboyjames on September 3, 2010 at 6:37 PM comments (0)i saw this in a book today and i totally relate to it:
"I put her in a taxi and followed it with my eyes until it was lost in the stream of traffic. In the days that followed, a bleak winter settled over my soul. Life was so empty. Every task was drudgery." i'm going to forego getting personal or "emo" about this, so instead i will just say i 100% COMPLETELY know what that's like.. its good to know i'm not the only one who has experienced that kind of pain which is it? Posted by poolboyjames on September 3, 2010 at 7:15 PM comments (0)today at school one of the teachers pointed out some things about words.. he pointed out that many times people use big words to sound intelligent when they can cut their words down and say the same thing.. such as:
utilize = use due to the fact that = because subsequently = after in the case that = if he was right but the only thing i thought about is the fact that from elementary through high school we are all encouraged to use big words and to expand our vocabulary and display our "intelligence" we are praised for this and esteemed and respected for it so why teach us to dumb it down in college? isn't that the educational system contradicting itself? why spend so much time emphasizing big words only to deem them as unnecessary filler later? one day u are getting an 'A' because you used 10 big words for no reason then the next day u do the same thing and u are seen as snooty or ridiculous.. shamelessly seeking to display and affirm your own intelligence to me this is a flaw in the educational system u tell me for 10 yrs i shouldn't say "i'm sad" because its too simple but then when i finally say "the frustrations and uncertainties of life have led me to a melancholy sorrow" u say i'm being a show-off what do u guys think? |
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