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guess who's back lolz Posted by poolboyjames on September 18, 2010 at 10:48 PM comments (0)just a quick freestyle.. wasn't my best flow by any means but we are keepin it raw and uncut on the site!!
let's go!!! incredibly random things Posted by poolboyjames on September 17, 2010 at 6:43 PM comments (0)today i was at wal-mart and there was an old white guy with one of those "i heart new york" style shirts on.. except his said "i love to fart" instead
SMH ++++++++++ i got the playstation move controller todayz good tymes^ btw it came out 2 days early.. it was scheduled to come out sunday but it came out today (friday).. i just saw it when i was out and i was like.. "indeed" ++++++++++++ i want to make a shout-out to God right now.. thank you for the wisdom, knowledge, and understanding you give me to anyone reading this, i really have some trying times at some points in trying to act in accordance with God's will for my life but God is merciful, faithful, and helpful.. i have issues but God stays with me.. my hope remains in Him and not in myself.. thank you Lord for not leaving me.. staying by my side and always coming through for me despite my flaws Lord my prayer is that you keep your hand on myself as well as my blog readers, please help us to please you in our ways.. please be with us and order our steps.. please help us to do your will, help us to look past our various lusts and live righteously because those who heed the call to patient endurance are your choicest servants please keep a watchful eye on us and lead us into greener pastures please help us to stay with you and not stray because in your word it says if we touch no unclean thing you will be a father to us please help us to know what to do when u seem far away so that we don't stray in what seems to be your absence please help us to see the benefit and joy of doing your will.. please help us to not envy the wicked, unrighteous and unjust please help us to tread over the scorpions and snakes of this world without fear if u are in agreement then say amen and we will have the words i have typed!!! let's go!!! the 4 p's Posted by poolboyjames on September 17, 2010 at 6:16 PM comments (0)ok one thing that's been floating around in my head is a concept that i came up with during a time when i was doing a bit of bible study
i came up with 4 p's that u get when u live in the will of God and you are obedient to Him you get protection, provision, peace and pleasure ok no one quote me on this.. this is just something i came up with.. i haven't done any studying to back this up but i think it rings true for the most part i also am inclined to believe that i put them in the order u will likely get each one from God like say u give your life to God, for the most part i think He will first make sure u are protected.. like if u were in a gang He will provide a way out for you without u having to get shot for betraying them then when u are at a place of not having anything from your old life to fall back on, God will then give u provision.. meaning say u were spending stolen money and spending drug money.. but now that you've given your life to Christ you no longer have that income.. but out of nowhere one of your old friends says you can stay with them for a few months.. that is God's provision then i think the last 2 are more difficult for most people to come by and keep.. but if you keep your mind on God u will have peace and you will have the comfort of knowing u are on the right path in life which wipes away a lot of selfishness and fear (like fear of death for example) then i think the last thing u get is pleasure.. i think its the hardest one to capture, but trust me God wants us to have pleasure and enjoy our lives.. just in healthy ways.. so if you stick with God He will reveal His good and perfect will for you, your career, spouse, etc. u have to realize He already knew u before you were born.. He knows everything He has good thoughts toward u and He wants to bless you.. and when God gives a blessing nothing bad comes with it so there is definitely pleasure in living a Godly lifestyle i think the issue is a lot of times people give up before making it to that place soooo.. i tried to say all of this as quickly as possible.. i feel like i could go on and on about this however i really just wanted to point out the 4 p's i came up with protection, provision, peace, and pleasure just wanted to throw that out there just talkin Posted by poolboyjames on September 16, 2010 at 9:33 PM comments (0)my intent is to kinda revamp my site if i can
i've been a bit limited in what i can do partly because there is a limit on picture memory.. i am finding ways around this so bare with me my goal is like.. when i don't have much to say, to just post more pictures and things i may post a song or video thing on the blog page also so it can enhance the mood a bit.. if u dnt like the song u can just stop it however it will give an idea as to what i'm currently listening to n junk i have a few ideas for the site but be patient peeps.. this is a labor of love to me so i hope u guys like the site.. like i said.. a lot of things in the works for the site.. my hope is that one day u will come to my site and see that it is much better, more fun, more entertaining.. as much as this site is about me its also about u.. i am trying to just connect with everyone and maybe people will see themselves reflected in me at some points ++++++++++ yesterday on malcolm in the middle, malcolm said: "going out with sarah would make me happy.. therefore it'll never happen" i was cracking up when he said that.. its cynical but wow i relate to feeling like that +++++++++++ i have been thinking about how things in the Bible were kinda practical like things working by faith + action.. when u think about it its pretty basic isn't it.. like there's nothing to it or blessing and cursing comes from the words we speak.. we talk everyday.. think about how basic these things are.. but so much can change in our lives if we properly submit to these principles imagine the power we have that we don't even realize we wield +++++++++++ speaking of words i've been noticing the power of my words in everyday life i am 25 and i realize being a grown male puts me in a position where people seek to know my opinion or assessment of things naturally people look up to me, or want a male perspective, people are looking for my report, people take my words more seriously than i realize at times.. i see these things in peoples' reactions to my statements my attitude, heart, and sentiments do not go unnoticed by anyone.. people watch me closely and wait for my character to show itself.. they also wait to see how i label them and their thoughts.. they want to kno how they appear in my eyes because of this i understand i can choose to bless or curse anyone within earshot of my words if u look in Genesis u see Adam's (the first representative of a man) job was to NAME the things God brought before him.. i see this echoed today when people seek to kno my report on themselves or other various areas of life.. they want to know what i name them.. what do i deem things to be? i name people and things with an authority i may not ever totally understand in this life as a man it is my job to give identity i am happy to have the position, for the most part i feel like i'm a good steward of my own power speaking of which... i just remembered, yesterday seemingly out of nowhere, a girl said to me "james, u make me feel good about myself" ... i forgot about it until just now, but things like that really mean a lot to me.. i see my seeds growing in those around me at times +++++++++++ if only i could speak as positively about myself as i do for other people lol sometimes i think i have almost no personal pride at all.. but at the same time i'd rather not change that.. i place myself lesser than people but there's a freedom in it.. being without pride i don't have to defend myself, seek revenge, or hold grudges.. in a sense it frees me up to love without looking out for myself so much ++++++++++ u alreddy kno whats next..... LETS GO!!!! ^fave statement second thoughts Posted by poolboyjames on September 16, 2010 at 10:50 PM comments (0)so today i was talkin to this guy and we got into a sort of argument/debate/disagreement
i pointed out a pretty girl to him and he was like "why didn't u talk to her?" i was like "......" to me being cute or attractive doesn't merit talking to someone.. for me there needs to be more to it than that so i was like "i didn't think she was my style" he was like "how do u know that, u don't know her" i was like "..... man.. just because someone is pretty doesn't mean i am willing to date them it doesn't even mean i'd waste my breath talking to them" and at this point we're both looking at eachother like "wtf r u talking about?" he's like "ur judging them, until u talk to someone U DONT KNOW whether or not u'll click with them" i was like.. "let me put it like this.. say a really pretty girl came in here wearing a marilyn manson shirt.. i'm not going to waste my time talking to that girl.. because i know we won't get along... so just because she's attractive to me doesn't mean she is worth something to me" he's like "i think u build up walls in your own head because u are afraid of being rejected.. your chances of being rejected are maximized when a girl appears very 'different' from yourself.. so u say it won't work before u even try as a result of your own insecurity" don't get me wrong i don't relinquish my own statements, but he definitely made some good points instead of agreeing with him, i just mental noted his statements and told him i saw what he was saying it was a neat little meeting of the minds i think either way.. i suppose because both perspectives have an amount of truth to them like in one of my classes i like a girl who is ultra-fluffy but i am telling u it works on her.. shorty is like snuggles from those laundry commercials or some ish but even tho she is attractive, i don't try to date her it definitely is a situation that coincides with the debate i had today so when it comes to my reasons for not asking her out.. wise foresight? or unjust judgement? meh... u decide. rite quickz Posted by poolboyjames on September 15, 2010 at 7:31 AM comments (0)haven't had much to say recently but the point of this site is for people to be able to keep in touch with me at their leisure so let me try to say something
recently i feel better.. i feel less..... less pain inside.. i feel like something has changed i don't exactly know how to explain it.. it seems like a weight has been lifted off yesterday i gave a girl a note in spanish class.. it said ur really pretty and i like ur eyeshadow in spanish.. i don't even know why i did that.. but if i didn't say it then i'd feel like i'm keeping a big secret all day which is not funz i've been blowing my nose a lot i think because i'm losing weight again.. which is very comforting to me because to me it says i'm getting back to normal... GOODBYE SUMMER!!! let's GO!!! at this moment --- Posted by poolboyjames on September 12, 2010 at 7:51 PM comments (0)i don't kno what i'm going to say here.. but consider this an update on my life peeplez
+++++++++++ i have been gradually changing my clothing style.. yesterday i bought some (semi faded and worn-looking) black jeans and a blue thermal.. very simple stuff i am not a hoarder type of person at all.. so since i've been getting new things here and there, i've also been getting rid of things i don't plan on wearing anymore i gave a roommate a black and white shirt i got from aeropostale because the black and white contrast was beginning to seem too loud to me.. also it made me feel like a preppy prison inmate or some ish i have been throwing away some clothing too.. i normally try to give things away but (maybe this is a bit beverly hills) sometimes i think my clothes aren't good enough to give away the main things i've been getting rid of are things that are loud and things that don't fit right ++++++++++++ speaking of "fit".. i want to say something about my issue with jeans i like jeans to have a roomy waist area but a more snug leg area i like the legs to be more snug so i don't look sloppy i like the waist area to be more roomy for basic comfort around my waist as well as BALL-COMFORT when i was 15 i had surgery on my ball-bag because i had a lot of pain due to them getting out of place and my seminal vesicle tying itself into a knot i'm fine now but the thing is.. they can still get out of place.. like i'm fine but i don't sit in chairs with cushions on them and i HONESTLY can't wear nut-hugger jeans or skinny jeans or anything without decent room down there when they hurt they kinda take away ur ability to do anything so i always have to get like a waist with a lot of crotch room this likely means nothing to u but hey i'm glad i got to get that off my chest, i have to deal with these grapefruit nuts everyday and no one knows my woes +++++++++++++++ i shaved my head bald yesterday.. i did it for no real reason.. i don't care if it looks good or bad.. i just felt like it when i do my hair a certain way or dress a certain way i'm only doing it for myself.. to express myself in general, i dnt think people like me bald.. they stare then after they realize they are staring they say "it looks good" as a sort of save smh.. its fine if u don't like it! i didn't do it for u in the first place.. u might as well be honest.. trust me i don't mind ++++++++++++++ a bunch of blog entries ago i talked about "the girl from fossil" lol well i saw her yesterday.. she made me melt again.. her facial expressions are God-given ..we talked and i walked off thinking "she's so pretty" *forces self to stop talking* dnt want to seem obsessed.. **God give me one like that please** +++++++++++++++ i was reminded today of a conversation i had with a roommatelike 2 weeks ago i was telling him "i don't think i really fit in normally" "i felt kinda like an outsider in high school" and things like this he cut me off quick with the sarcastic "NO... YOU?!?" LOL he acted like i told him the most obvious ish in the world i didn't know my different-ness was that obvious he wouldn't even let me finish he just kept going like.. "no, not James.. r u serious? u being different? who'da thunk it?.. i'm AMAZED" i pretty much always feel like a puzzle piece that doesn't fit but i had no clue it was that obvious to other people.. bonkers ++++++++++++++++ i was at the barbershop the other day and i was very inspired by an article i read about an entrepeneur those business magazines are filled with articles from very wise people +++++++++++++++++ God is awsumz *index 2 da sky* stay fly peeps peaCe wow.. they were right Posted by poolboyjames on September 11, 2010 at 12:37 PM comments (0)one thing that is funny to me is the people who seemed ridiculously paranoid in the past were actually right in their predictions and assumptions
like last yr i had a theater class and the teacher said that in the past people only allowed plays that had moral fibers written into the script.. they were careful not to let the arts get away from God's standards of morality they were against art for the sake of art because they believed that it would eventually take on a new life and undermine morality and prudence when he taught this, the way he taught it made these people seem dumb but today i see they were right a normal person would say, there's no sin in art, theater, dancing, or music but with people being fleshly, without God's presence in our artistic endeavors, it doesn't take very long for us to begin using our imaginations for immorally suggestive themes u look at an old man speaking of dance like its a sin and u automatically think he is a complete idiot but maybe he had way more foresight than you because look at what dance has become.. dancing these days isn't what it used to be.. it has become what the old people warned us about.. its people at a club imitating sexual movements.. even ice cube called it "freaky gyrations close to fornication" in a rap these days clubs have become pretty much synonymous with sinful behavior so is that old man really "out of touch?" or was he actually more in touch than any of us could have imagined? was he truly against dancing by itself? or was he simply trying to warn you of dangers you may not be able to see yet? and those people who feared theater done "for the sake of art".... were they out-of-their-mind religious radicals? or did they have the foresight to see the ability theater has to change a culture.. the suggestive ability it has to completely flip a culture upside down on its head.. its ability to make right appear wrong and to make wrong appear right maybe they saw the "jersey shores" the "sex and the city" years before they came.. a result of humans just doing what humans desire to do as opposed to what God wants them to do results in fleshly (sinful) things "There is a way that seems right to a man, but in the end it leads to death." proverbs 14:12 we looked at the older people in the 60s as being "uncool" or "not hip" because they didn't like the hippie movement.. well were they the uninformed ones? or was it the youth? a lot of times when we ask artists how they went about making a song they don't know how they did it.. they claim inspiration.. well the word inspiration comes from the older word "inspiritation" (to be filled with a spirit) so what is inspiring these songs that promote drug use, illicit sex, "freedom" from God's "oppression", etc? u see what i'm saying? the old people who warned us seemed to have the correct thinking all along.. the ones we said were "old fashioned" and "out of the loop" ... they seemed to know.. we are mere vessels.. and no matter what we do we are going to be used for one of two kingdoms we will receive inspiritation from one of two powers are you dancing to entice, seduce, arouse, and sexually excite those around you to gear up for immorality later tonight? or are you dancing in an honorable way, like balet, interpretive dance, or for clean fun? are u doing a play to show that waiting on God benefits the believer? or are you doing a play to show that disregarding God and His ways is the only way to have pleasure and fulfillment? are you making a song with positive lyrics that can help someone through a tough time? or are you making a song that promotes drug use and revelries/gluttonies of various natures? all i'm saying is when u really look at it.. the old people were right.. the people we said were paranoid were right.. the ones who warned us of the dangers were right.. the ones who tried to stop the arts from being taken away from God's morality were right i think we likely are ALL guilty of thinking they are/were out of touch or "fanatical"... but in the aftermath.. who was really right? i struggle to find a decent album that has positive lyrics and messages dancing has been reduced to dry-humping movies seem to all be about the pleasures of fornication ^that's just off the top of my head, i'm sure u can think of ur own examples so what do u think.. were the old people wrong in trying to keep things above a certain morality line? or were they just "old fashioned" think about it like this which one is the better mom the one who tells her daughter she can dress nice but she should still respect herself and dress conservatively or the one who sees her daughter dressed like a woman in a rap video and sends her out the house anyway HMMMMMM u think you kno... Posted by poolboyjames on September 9, 2010 at 3:44 PM comments (0)so today at work some lady came in and she looked weird to me.. she looked like the coffee guy from mad tv actually.. (maybe i'll post a picture later)
so time passes and she strikes up a conversation about God with another girl and i look over to see what it is she has to say.. she acknowledged this by saying something like "i see u looked over.. so what do u believe?" i was like i'm a Christian then she's like.. "are you on fire for Christ?" i was like "i don't know how to answer that" because to me it was like she wanted me to cosign her alotted level of excitement or zeal which i refuse to do, i refuse to be cornered in my speech.. what does "i'm on fire for Christ" mean? i don't have to live up to your religious slang.. i'm a Christian period.. if u ask me "james, are you googly-eyed for Christ?" i'm not going to say yes, i'm simply going to say i'm a Christian but the problem with this was it didn't stop, she kept asking me questions like she was trying to find fault in me somewhere so she could point to how wrong i am in some way, shape, or form i don't know how many questions she asked me and i was just sitting there! ...here's part of what was said: "so what are you thinking?" "i'm not thinking anything" "what do u have to say?" i'm sitting here like.. ok why am i being singled out here? and i don't like being put in the spotlight in public so much because i grew up getting noticed TOO MUCH for being the only black representative at school for years.. and i'm not complaining about my past, but i'm pointing out that that sort of thing stays with u.. i am fine in public but a lot of attention is unwanted to me so i began to grow agitated.. i'm like "i have nothing to say.. what are u asking me? .. are u asking me if i believe in Christ?" "yeah, well no what i mean is u say u believe in Christ now, but if you are put in a position where u have to deny youself, would u still claim Christ?" i was like "yes." she didn't like this answer... i think she felt it was too easy for me to say that so then i got called to help in another room and she said "well i hope u get tested in this area" which REALLY got under my skin so i gave her a thumbs up and laughed at her i was irritated by the whole thing but when she said she hopes i'm tested i was like beginning to really steam for real because to me that was like saying i hope something bad happens to u.. like i know Christians have not always had such simple lives and i don't want to have to go through what some Christians in the past have endured so once i got done doing what i was doing in the other room i came out and the lady was gone and they told me my boss made up a fake task for me to do to get me away from that irritating lady they saw how she was trying to do me when i was just at work trying to do my thing in peace... so i was like wow.. THANKS HEATHER (my boss) and calmed back down why do religious people do this? look just say what u have to say stop with the questions, stop with the beating around the bush.. stop with trying to find faults and incriminate people.. just share your story or ur word and go on about ur business u don't need to be all in my business to give me a word.. other than that.. GO ABOUT UR BUSINESS I DONT CARE WHO U ARE WHAT UR RELIGION IS, WHAT U ARE SELLING, WHAT U WANT ME TO THINK.. get ur approach right or don't approach me at all.. i have the Holy Spirit which is leading me into all truth so ur approach better be on point because to be honest i really doubt that i need whatever u (a mere human) are trying to impress on me ESPECIALLY if its not from a place of humility GET OUT OF HERE WITH THAT peaCe |
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