be selective in the Z Posted by poolboyjames on April 13, 2010 at 11:09 AM comments (0)
ok... here's the deal i saw ^those the other day and it was kinda like my words being replayed in front of me through someone else's life what i mean by that is.. i've been saying stay in the zone, aka the Z.. ur Z is your personal place of normalcy.. a place where u exert as much control over your fate as possible.. a place where u exercise a sort of tunnel vision.. where u are concerned with achieving your goals and not concerned with things u cannot control.. u are not concerned with the affairs of others.. and u are living in a positive zone for yourself as much as possible and these videos ^above are a part of what i've been saying all along.. both to myself and here and there on the site as well as to other people be careful about who u allow into your Z u have this dude who is in college with a full athletic scholarship.. he's about to graduate soon with a degree in engineering.. things are looking good for him are they not? his job is to maintain the positivity in his life however he met this girl at a club and she APPEARED harmless but look at what she has done.. cause him dismay.. brought destruction with her and allowed it to manifest in his life what student in college needs 4 flat tires? who needs drama 24 hours a day from a power hungry jump-off? this chick has a mouth that never closes and nothing she says or does is positive she is vindictive to the point where it defies all logic and ^these reasons are why i say when ur in ur Z.. appreciate ur Z.. don't just say.. "i have peace and normalcy and an extremely productive lifestyle.. so i'm going to allow someone to come in my Z and ruin it so i can rebuild it all over again!" NO.. just be selective about who u allow in your zone in the first place why do i say this? because if u allow someone in ur life and they take your peace.. u will be wishing u never even allowed them in in the first place what can replace your peace? u may be alone more often than u want to be, but withstand that and u get to keep everything u have built.. and u leave an open space for an actual GOOD person who deserves a spot in your Z peaCe btw.. she is the defendant.. but the first thing out of her mouth in the case was "yeah i did it" HOW IN THE FCK WAS THAT A DEFENSE?!
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good news Posted by poolboyjames on April 13, 2010 at 11:52 PM comments (0)i got an A on my history paper
he handed me the paper and said it was one of the best/most enjoyable ones he graded i had to read an entire book to do the paper oh yeah and get this.. it was due by midnight one night.. i turned that ish in at 11:58pm SMH ^dnt kno why i put myself in situations like that but yeah i was very thankful about that grade peaCe no empathy 4 ur relationship Posted by poolboyjames on April 13, 2010 at 9:04 PM comments (0)ok i want to talk about why i'm not empathetic to people with relationship issues/problems
if u have relationship problems.. i will not sit and cry with u BECAUSE.... #1. it takes two.. u have ur side but there's another side and deep down u know what u did #2. some people are alone.. on some level u should be happy u have someone in ur life to have problems with #3. within reason u should expect some issues to arise in a relationship regardless of how good it is #4. sometimes u are just reaping what u have sewed.. in which case u have brought the pain on yourself #5. u are probably ignorant about the opposite sex on some level.. in which case its up to u to learn how to change and do better #6. a lot of these people have unrealistic expectations.. like for example if u start a relationship off by being the "other" man/woman then u should've had enough foresight to see that u will eventually be cheated on by that person also #7. (for unmarried people) do u really truly expect someone to be 100% true to u when they're not married to u? by carrying on a relationship with u with all benefits and no commitment they are pretty much saying (by their actions) "ur cool but i like to keep my options open" so should it REALLY be that big a surprise if they cheat on u? the list goes on and on the point is.. i really don't care about how bad u feel or how u got treated like trash by your ex dnt get me wrong, if i know u r really in pain and u are struggling i will be there for u.. but it has to be a REAL messed up situation.. like u've been happily married for like 5 yrs and u've just been cheated on for no real reason other than the person got "bored" or was seduced ^that i can understand but a lot of other stuff to me is just not worthy of mourning u feel me? oh and one last thing i had my heart ripped out of my ass and flushed down the toilet it was hard but its like what el-p said on the song 't.o.j.' "before i could become a grown man i had to lose my mind" meaning.. yes it is hard to have ur heart broken but u learn a LOT.. u mature, and u move on and ANOTHER THING i have noticed people oftentimes don't know the difference between dealing with feelings of rejection and actual mourning over a lost love rejection is death of ur pride.. to be honest.. just get over yourself.. let it die.. pride is not helpful.. its the same thing that won't let u get over an offense.. its the same thing that won't allow u to forgive however if ur truly mourning a lost relationship.. that is different.. that's not about pride, its just like whoa they are gone and i feel EMPTY ^i will show support to those in mourning if u are just upset because a person (who u were gonna break up with anyway) broke up with u first and u feel like they "won" .. then to me u need to wake up and look in the mirror ..ur wasting ur own time and energy being upset when u should really be feelin good about the situation *steps off pedestal* peaCe fatherless effers Posted by poolboyjames on April 13, 2010 at 2:14 AM comments (0)lately i've been thinking about 2 words
the f-word and 'bastard' in a sense they describe the same thing we learned in history last semester that the f-word began as an acronym for fornication under cardinal knowledge cardinal meant like something having to do with the catholic church i read recently on wikipedia that the f-word never meant that.. but who really knows history anyway? i mean honestly i've seen history get misconstrued in my own life so how can anyone TRULY know anything about history hundreds or thousands of years ago? history oftentimes is molded by popular opinion... which is not fact anyway lets just say what i learned in class was true that puts bastard and the f-word in the same category in a sense they both describe someone or something undesirable.. something of disdain i find it funny that they both essentially describe a person without discretion, guidance, or self control like kids without dads and fornicators just ran around causing mischief all day and so they began to be characterized with words and treated with contempt i can actually see how that could happen too no hate to people without dads in their life but sometimes i see someone and i think they had to have been a bastard child.. like one day i walked down a hallway in a school building and i saw that a light had been deliberately knocked off the wall, broken, and left on the floor i said to myself.. whoever did that was probably a guy because it was violent and pointless.. he was also obviously an asshole.. he's probably an asshole because he wasn't raised correctly.. he probably lacked a decent father or male figure in his life u could say.. wow james u were really reaching! but one funny thing happened recently i had a conversation with someone and i asked about their relationship with their dad.. he said it was non-existant and he hated his dad for neglecting him his whole life.. and then he said "i used to break things all the time for no real reason, i was just angry" so that made me think my previous assessment was not as far-fetched as it may have seemed now as for fornicators.. back in the day they probably caused all kinds of issues.. why? well today we have dna testing.. but back then there was no such thing! so just think of all the lies and heartache and pain people could cause like for example u know how on the show king of the hill dale's kid is native american and for some reason he never notices it that's probably how life was back years and years ago.. except instead of it being funny.. it really caused lots of problems in society (btw there are WAY more scenarios than just the one i touched on.. but i don't want to make this an example-a-thon) so with all that said.. i can see why the f-word and 'bastard' have such negative connotations today bastard children beating up non-bastard kids n takin their lunch money cuz they're angry and have no fear of anything.. bastard kids breaking things for no reason.. ruining peoples' gardens or wreaking some kind of havoc because of the issues that come with not having an authoritative male figure in their life and fornicators running around doing things behind peoples' back and never owning up to their infidelities, and dishonest conduct.. causing some dismay to those who may have wanted to live upright for the time these people were likely the bane of society.. and in some ways they still are or still can be.. but today we have political correctness and tolerance and things which seem to try and take the 'sting' out of some things that were once considered highly negative situations and/or behaviors u know how in the 1920's and 30's america had the prohibition and no one could legally drink alcohol? i think that's what bastards and f*ckers were like at some time in history.. they were like an illegal thing that people couldn't stop from happening.. with all that said i can see why both words carry such a negative connotation iono.. just some ish to think about ok im back Posted by poolboyjames on April 12, 2010 at 12:48 AM comments (0)i'm back to the blogs.. the time is officially right so i'm back and i plan to do them everyday again like i was doing before the hiatus
sometimes doing it everyday is a bit of a challenge but i think i can handle it -------------------- ok first thing is i've been thinkin about an ex a lot.. the one i was with for like 4 yrs we had a lot going for us as a couple.. pretty much all the important things were there physical attraction mutual respect similar religious beliefs different viewpoints of life different senses of humor different interests all these things combined gave us a strong connection.. we weren't too much alike or too different.. it was just right we had a genuine thing going on i'm not saying any of this to say i want her back or miss her.. i don't miss HER, i miss what we had u feel me? sometimes just think about how we really had something for a while there sometimes i wonder if i will ever find something that pure again u kno what i mean? blah.. iono -------------------------- this one girl i used to really like won't add me as a friend on her facebook lol i almost felt bad about that but u always have to remember no one in the world has to like u the people u have in ur life are a blessing and they should be treated as such the people who refuse to be in ur life are just there to make u appreciate those u DO have even more -------------------------- here's something i've wanted to touch on for a while: i can be pretty callous when it comes to females who seem upset about not getting their way the reason for this is because i've seen females manipulate others with their emotions the classic example is a woman is about to get a ticket so she (fake) cries and the officer lets her off the hook thinking he did a good deed when in reality she is cracking up laughing and telling all her friends about how she played the officer one thing i have learned with women is to just stick to your guns sometimes they beg, plead, present ultimatums, they act mean, they act nice, they start fights... sometimes females do whatever they can to control u ...and since i'm aware that a lot of what they do is rooted in manipulation, i resist it a girl could be in front of me screaming at me begging me to do something and i can be as cool as i want to be, because oftentimes i doubt their motives are sincere at all i'm not saying i hate females.. i'm saying i refuse to be manipulated (in a future entry i may talk about why i am callous towards people with relationship problems also) -------------------------- i think that'll cover it for now.. holla back the site Posted by poolboyjames on April 5, 2010 at 11:10 PM comments (0)i missed a few days of entry because i was out of town
but i dnt feel like writing now so i guess at this point u could call this hiatus a full fledged "break" for me i plan to get back on when the time is right or whenever i HAVE to say something whichever comes first PAUL PHOENIX... WINS!!! Posted by poolboyjames on April 1, 2010 at 12:06 AM comments (0)
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