i think what i want more than anything in life is to be able to do something i'm good at for money
what i'd like to do most is make music i just don't know how to make money doing it i hate going to my job every day and they change things so much that i never get good at anything.. when i stand back and look at myself, i can tell that i've given up on my job i think its a male thing- every man wants to do something and get really good at it.. he wants to master it and exude a control over it and do it with ease and precision based on familiarity and practice women are more flexible or adaptable, but men are more the type to zero in on something and really delve into it, and get a deep understanding and then execute a performance or a mastery over that thing i feel like men are called to a purpose while women are called to do more miscellaneous tasks.. i think this is why women can multi-task and men are more objective thinkers.. logical/analytical etc. but what i've seen in our society is men are sort of robbed of their ability to master anything everything is totally feminized and multi-tasking based or service based men excel in a focused environment where each time we do a thing- we are allowed to get better at it, then we get to a point where we are so good at something that we are able to support and provide for ourselves, our wives, and our children with ease.. because our work is just that good and just that valuable but men are robbed of this these days.. i see it everywhere i want to defeat this modern day nonsense that is going on, and i want to help other young men up the ladder when i get to that other side everywhere you look, men are being robbed of the things that make men valuable women are constantly questioning and undermining the things that give men identity women don't seem to understand they have a masculine spirit that isn't natural or attractive.. instead of women saying "i want to be with the muscle man" they are saying "i want to be the muscle man" .......but by chasing a man's role, you are abandoning your own but anyway... i am not going to drag this out i just truly desire to exude AND BE COMPENSATED FOR mastery over a thing
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i had an idea
u peeps can let me know if u think this is legit or not ok this idea is for anyone who wants to drop a bad habit the idea is this- in order to drop a bad habit easier, drop two bad habits instead of one what makes it work is the fact that you drop habits that feed eachother, thus making them easier to drop since they will not be being fed who wants to try this with me? one of the most interesting things he said was said in passing
he said abortions are sacrifices to molech i just looked up molech on google and one of the linked things was abortion i'm gnna look into this as much as i'd like to be with my "h.s. sweetheart" .. i am glad i'm not
i'm 30 so i feel like i am able to approach love with a little more of a level head and a little more perspective the thing that scares me about being young and having the love of your life is the fact that as a man, you develop a feeling of ownership over her u feel protective and you feel possessive over her.. u feel like that is really your girl while i think that is a beautiful thing, it is also a little scary because of the amount of your head and heart the woman may have if she ever decides to leave you or cheat on you or something, what would that do to you? i am 30.. if a woman comes into my life today, and then leaves me when i'm 45, i'll likely still be ok but if you have a girl at age 15, and they cheat on you at age 30, you would probably go insane why? cuz you're not looking at her like she's "a woman" ... you're looking at her like she's "my woman" i have met a lot of women over the years and i have been disappointed by a lot of them i have been disappointed so many times that my expectations of women are extremely low, which makes me feel prepared for any potential nonsense they may bring into my life if you meet a girl at a young age and she does you wrong while you are still wearing rose-colored lenses, that would probably really hurt you in ways that can't be described you are thinking your wife is the most beautiful and perfect creature, even in her faults and flaws you see the best in her and you love her... so seeing her bang another man or something would shatter that whole illusion and cut you to your core but since i am 30 and i pretty much think most women are scum, i feel like for the most part i am immune to their crap i'm not saying i am 100% immune, i just think i am MOSTLY immune.. let me put it like this.. in 2015, i am more surprised when women act right than when they act wrong at this point.. so when they violate- i might feel low for a minute, but i'll bounce right back and instead of internalizing their crap as something i did wrong, i am able to instead express my emotion as anger... which believe it or not- is better than despair instead of saying "f my life" i am able to say "f that dumb thot" and keep it movin but you can't really bring yourself to say something like that about your "high school sweetheart" because she is too important, she has too much of your heart.. she could cheat on you and you could still desire her touch.. which would at that point be poison and toxic to you a man's "one and only" can bring him to his knees.. make him feel weak, make him shed real tears "oh my one and only love banged another man" the thought alone would eat away at his soul so i must say i am happy to be chronically single in this regard because every woman i meet at this point- its like i am detached from them enough to be able to leave her or put her in her place there's a freedom in my situation i can CHOOSE to love or CHOOSE to hate/disregard no woman has 80% of my heart.. no woman can have me eating out of her hand, because i am older, and i have experienced so much crap from women, that at any given moment, in the back of my mind i know a woman could possibly turn out to be worthless to me based on her conduct and to some extent, i am ok with that i regard my current state as freedom. especially in this feminized society where women think bashing men, aborting their kids, divorcing their husbands, and having flings with muscle bound "bad boys" are empowering things |
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