2013 was definitely the worst year yet for the website
the reason for that was because my life just basically went haywire when i say haywire i mean i lost any real sense of self or normalcy what do you say when you don't know who you are anymore? everything started to feel like i was forcing it.. it still feels that way honestly anyway i want to talk about how irritated i am right now i just got a haircut and my beard which i have been growing out for a long time is now gone.. the guy i normally go to wasn't there so i went to someone else and i guess he thought "edge me up" meant "f*ck me up".. this has put me in a sour mood so without further ado... i am tired of not having any nice clothes.. tired of the illuminati being in everything whether it be music or video games or movies.. i'm tired of people being in my business.. tired of google plus and youtube constantly prying more and more into everything we all do.. tired of all news being bad news.. tired of knowing the world is on a downward spiral.. tired of tv mocking Jesus every 5 seconds.. tired of tv being 60% about gay people.. tired of not having anyone to share my life with.. tired of temporary jobs.. tired of having debt.. tired of my website and music and pretty much all of my talents never helping to pad my pockets.. tired of having to resort to jobs i care nothing about to make money.. tired of going to stores only to find they don't have what i want ..i went to the store yesterday to buy mouthwash and you would have thought it was national mouthwash day because they didn't even have one of the ones i wanted left.. i look at things like that and i wonder about my "luck" or lack thereof.. i am tired of going places and they are closed or something.. tired of not having a decent audio system in my car.. tired of music in general being so dirty.. tired of women i like not paying me any attention.. tired of women i don't like paying me a lot of attention.. whatever man.. like i want something to go right man.. like seriously can something just be a source of happiness for me? like why can't i achieve something that would be good? why do i feel like i just wake up to experience a new set of problems, issues, and insurmountable odds? no one i know has any money.. everyone is suffering what are we supposed to even do in life to attain any sort of freedom or blessing? u just work and work and work and you look up and you're still in the same place you were 5 years ago
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dlux
1/9/2014 01:03:11 pm
I really liked this blog and think it was expressed perfectly. makes me think of doing the same "im tired of" list just to process some frustration and disappointment ive been feeling lately cuz I really don't think ive dealt with it...jus been "mad" for "no reason" u know? keep writing!
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pool boi
1/10/2014 03:40:50 am
yeah its crazy its like.. there's so much discontentment for a lot of people in our age group because we were promised a lot of things growing up if we just do A, B, and C but we did A, B, C, AND EVEN D!!! and we look up and we don't have anything to show for it
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