so i was on boxden again and someone posted this video..
note: this video is DIRTY.. no nakedness but a lot of "mature" things going on
DONT WATCH IT IF IT IF THAT WILL BUG YOU.. just want to give fair warning
now.. if you've seen the whole thing or at least to the part where he is talking to women with his cell phone i want to ask a few questions
ok supposing that footage was real, my question is-
IS THIS WHAT WOMEN WANT?
like is that what a man has to be to get a woman? i am not dissing this guy at all- i am genuinely asking this question.. is this seriously what women want from men?
this is what i take from this guy.. these are the things he has:
muscles, jewelry, good hair style, fast talker, a guy with some jokes, a guy who isn't beating around the bush
now.. i am not dissing him for any of this at all.. but i guess from my perspective as a self-proclaimed "square" (i say i'm a square because i found this video to be completely astonishing) i feel like maybe i have given women too much credit? maybe i feel like women want a guy who listens to them, takes them out, asks them normal things like "how was your day," etc.
but this video shows me that women don't care about any of that.. so the song was right then? "girls just want to have fun" ??
are women really like this? they really just want to bang the buffest guy they can find with no strings attached? they like giving their bodies away quickly because it is "exciting" to them? they like arguing with men about where they've been because they like the unpredictability?
do women like being lied to? i mean i know there's that song "love the way you lie" but i guess i thought those words were hyperbolic.. until seeing this video
do women really not care for- or want sincerity? does confidence trump an honest heart? and what is confidence to a woman exactly? to a woman, does this man exemplify masculine confidence?
these are honest questions i have after seeing this video because again- if that footage was real, my mind is blown
real talk.. i would appreciate any comments on this video.. do you guys think i have given women too much credit? is thinking women want a relationship a false assumption? women are always saying they don't want friends with benefits, they are always saying they want a possible relationship.. is that all a lie? what should a person assume? how do women want to be treated?
don't give me those cliche answers, i want to know the honest truth
how does a man appeal to a woman? does the approach change based on whether she is ratchet or religious?
what pieces of the puzzle am i missing?
should i just quit asking questions and get a clean cut, hit the gym, and rock some ice? as far as women are concerned- is there any difference between a man wanting a girl for sex and a man wanting a girl for long term relationship and possible committment? which one sounds better to a woman's ears?
are these answers dependent upon something i can alter, change, or manipulate?
and am i seriously doing EVERYTHING wrong when it comes to women?
i may not know everything, but let me answer that last one before anyone else:
smh.. i've been trying to meet this one girl since like.. summer
today i told her i am lonely and need a woman in my life.. why did she say: "cheer up, i still haven't lost interest"
i am trying so hard not to use cuss words right now
I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO HANG OUT WITH YOU FOR MONTHS AND YOU ALWAYS HAVE A STUPID EXCUSE SO WHAT GOOD IS YOUR INTEREST!?
TELL ME! WHAT GOOD IS IT!?
your interest is about as valuable as a fart sandwich.. seriously what is wrong with women? why do they say and do so many stupid things? WHY!?
i wanted to uppercut her through the phone when she said that
btw i'm not actually lonely.. i think "horny" would be the better description.. but they sometimes feel similar..
- under pressure -
i go to a website called boxden sometimes.. lol i have to post a comment i saw from that site
this is what some guy wrote on the topic of "hitting it raw:"
Sometimes you just gotta. Nigga i fucked a chick in the parking lot of Walmart raw once. And 10 secs before i nutted i thought to myself "Nigga, you coulda walked a 100 feet and got a condom" & even with that thought i still didn't pull out
ok.. this had me cracking up but i want to say a little something about this
life in general can be dangerous, i hope people reading this will learn from what i am typing right now
life is not really a joke.. everything you say and do can affect your future.. see this guy's comment is such a perfect example of what we oftentimes do as humans
we sell ourselves short.. we want what we want but we are not seeing the consequences.. but the consequences of our actions are more real than the actions themselves because the consequences last longer
this guy's comment is such a perfect example of how stupid we can be as humans..
so please evaluate your own life and take this as a warning
wise up.. don't make a bad or unnecessarily risky decision.. look at the big picture before its too late
i just wanted to put that out there.. may God bless
i kinda think i have started seeing a demon.. not like physically but like in life in general.. like i feel like i have started to understand how they work
there are certain things i deal with that people don't really know about
mental pain and anguish like heartbreak or fear or odd thoughts
i don't know a lot about God and stuff but i have started distinguishing voices in my head
in the past i felt that everything was a thought from myself
however nowadays i feel that spirits "minister" to us a lot.. and it is important to distinguish who is saying something to you.. because then you will know whether to act on the thought or dismiss it
i feel like a demon tries to limit me (or demons try to limit us.. either one) or keep me afraid of things or keep me from having a decent life
here's an example:
not too long ago i was trying to do my benefits at my job and this girl at my job was asking people if they did their benefits or not.. i was the only person who hadn't done it yet so she asked me if i did it and i said no and then i said "when is it all due?" and she said "today.. you better hurry up" and walked off
this imo, was that demon.. i say that because 1. it was a lie 2. it confused me 3. it discouraged me
here's the background.. i had already been looking over the benefits and i sort of saw that i had until a certain date to finish my benefits.. in reality, i had a whole week to finish them
so when i asked this girl when they were due, i was basically just asking for confirmation.. she is above me at my job so i thought i could trust her to tell me the right answer.. but no.. and so then i was confused like.. "wait.. i must've read it all wrong"
then i was thinking.. "oh crap i won't have time because i don't get home until like 9pm so how am i going to do it all in time when i haven't read over things yet?"
then another thought came, and i realized when she told me the benefits were due "today" she grinned
i feel that was that demon who tries to limit me from achieving normal things in life
such as "having my own place" "having a decent job" "finishing school" "having a good wife" "having benefits at my job" etc etc
in this natural realm you would just say "that girl was a b*tch" but the bible says we don't wrestle against flesh and blood.. there was NO REASON for her to lie to me, but she did.. so where did that come from?
so I feel like the enemy sends demons to discourage us.. this is why you tell people your dreams and they immediately trample on them..
i just feel like i am starting to see deeper into what reality actually is
like a chess game between good and evil
and some people know what is going on and some don't
to anyone reading this- please try to recognize what is happening in your life as well
if you KNOW what is going on you may not fall for the tricks.. if you know who is speaking to you- you know which voice to follow
is the voice in your head a demon or an angel?
if a voice tells you to kill yourself- where is it coming from? how can you fight it?
do you see a series of things happening in your life.. do you start to see patterns?
maybe it is not a mere pattern, maybe it is a PLAN.. a plan of attack against you and your faith
how can you get the tormenting spirits away from you?
how can you combat their plans to discourage you?
its like.. you may not be able to see things in the natural, but via circumstances and situations and cycles, you can see things
its like you can't see gravity but you see evidence of it everywhere
so when you look at your life, what do you see evidence of?
think about it.. recognize what is there.... and then take a step in the right direction
what's up peeps
i could use some extra money
i want to explain my money issue.. this is not a complaint at all.. just a rundown of the situation
it kinda seems in general that a lot of my expenses come toward the end of the year.. keep in mind i moved twice this year so i have no savings to pull from
i started paying my student loans recently.. also last week i kid you not i paid over $350 for car insurance.. wouldn't you know, i now owe my renter's insurance.. i don't remember how much it is off the top of my head..
its like each time i have been getting paid, i've had to pay something.. and when i say "something" i'm talking about things outside of rent, food, gas, haircuts, phone bill etc
oh and get this- like 2 days ago, i was talking to my sister and i'm like "i want to take you to my fave restaurant so you can see what its like" she was like "no no no, i just deposited over $3200 in my account from teaching and poetry.. i still want to get you a birthday gift"
smh.. my birthday is 10-31.. how are you going to tell me you "still want to get me a birthday gift" on 11-16 and you are getting all this money?
i could use some money right now! anything would help!
i find myself lately having to rely on my credit card which is something i don't really like to do because it can sometimes put you in a position to have to retroactively pay for things and dig a financial hole
last week i couldn't even afford a hair cut lol.. my facial hair grows out and it hurts! lol.. it really bothers my neck
i don't have a bed.. i don't have a dresser.. don't have a tv stand.. don't have a couch.. my apartment is like the epitome of a bachelor's pad.. its just what you'd expect a young single man to have.. an empty apartment lol.. you come in and you can hear your voice echo and ish
these^ are not complaints.. i am just explaining.. i could use any sort of help i can get
it amazes me how much money i have spent in the last few months.. it is really weird how i have somehow stayed afloat this long.. it seems like i keep finding myself paying something.. like you sometimes think "pretty soon i will catch up with myself financially" but it seems like lately, the expenses just keep rolling in
i do hope i can eventually get some extra money so i can get some new glasses, get a bed, take a flaky and ungrateful girl out on a date, etc
i sometimes think to myself.. "if only i could get an extra $____"
i remember listening to a kanye song (back when he was good) and he explained how he went from $50,000 to $1,500 in a week
at first i thought "what kind of idiot would do something like that?"
but i thought about it some more and i realized that THAT WOULD TOTALLY BE DOABLE
whoever is reading this- if i gave you $50,000 right now, you would be able to spend it quicker than you think probably!!!!
i really thought about it and i thought..
giving to friends/family (even if its just your mom)
all of your outstanding needs (food, gas, rent, clothes, etc)
a lot of people would upgrade their car out of necessity as they may have a car over 7 yrs old
maybe u have a goal or dream that takes money to accomplish
like.. when you think about it- its crazy like.. the disparity between where we are vs. where we want to be
its generally a huge gap
a lot of people can't even afford something as basic as the ability to live alone
anyway.. i just wanted to talk about money matters a bit
pua's are pick-up artists
pick up artists are men who have learned the art of getting women into their lives
this is something many people don't know about.. the whole pua culture.. however many men are instructed and taught by it
i have no issues with the pua communities however i do sort of question a lot of them.. my issue with a lot of the greatest pua's is many of them are not married
sometimes i ask myself what their knowledge is leading to
is it sex? is it marriage? or is it up to the man?
i am not 100% sure
i also do not know the theories behind some of the actions.. such as.. if you are able to obtain sex from a woman, does that mean you can then get her to comply? like "where the body goes the mind follows" ?
or is it more.. "where the mind goes, the body follows" ?
i feel that is a decent question to ask because the answer would show us men what we should seek to obtain in order to get what we want from women
i do not criticize the pua community because they provide a great service to men.. as knowledge is power.. i also do not claim to know the answers at all
but i do sometimes feel that if we are seeking sex, that is a sort of second-rate experience.. if it is not accompanied with love and commitment
i say this because i have been offered sex many times in my life.. i feel that sex is fairly easy to come by.. however i have only once in my life had a woman who was willing to marry me, love me, stay with me, and commit to me.. so i feel that- that should be the ultimate goal, because it is harder to achieve, it is more rare and valuable to have a woman commit to loving and supporting me as a man than it is to have a woman spread her legs to me
i can buy a woman dinner and have sex with her.. or i can even get a woman to drive to my house to have sex with me
but to find a woman who is truly willing to be in my corner, for sex, support, affection, love, patience, kindness, and continued assistance, and help through ups and downs.. that is what is valuable
so when i see these unmarried pua's.. sometimes i feel that they are not actually successful
again- you would be hard pressed to find a man who has not been offered sex
so are unmarried pua's teaching us to reach for one piece of a much bigger puzzle?
this is just something that has crossed my mind
again i withold any judgment.. just a thought
i want to talk about the weekly grind
each week you have two choices on how to go about things
1. work all week, then do errands/chores on the weekend
2. work and do errands and chores all week, then rest on the weekend
the second option is better.
if you have time to rest on the weekend here are some of the main important things you can do that will help you to rejuvenate:
2. do your hobbies
3. spend time with God or learn about God
i just wanted to put this out there
pay bills in the morning before work, get your car worked on before work, after work get groceries, clean your house after work
just TRY NOT TO BRING ERRANDS AND RESPONSIBILITIES WITH YOU TO THE WEEKEND
because if you do you will likely hinder your own effectiveness, your overall levels of happiness and fulfillment, your decision-making, your relationship with God, and even the amount of physical energy you have
try to do all or most of your grown up things during the work week
do you always feel like you are missing something? like you always wish you had more time? ...create a proper weekend for yourself- it will help you "catch up" with yourself
its like exercise.. you go hard then you stop.. you put your hands on your knees or sit down and you breathe for a minute before you start again.. imagine not stopping to breathe.. after a while you feel like you are running on fumes
i learned how important weekends were this summer when i lost them (from trying to find a place to live 7 days a week)
weekends are not a joke
do as much as you can during the week
monday through friday say to yourself "success is a full time job"
but when the weekend comes.. get butt-naked and warm up them pizza rolls, brah
finally after like a year, i got some time to myself to set up my stuff and record something.. this is a verse i wrote a few weeks ago or whatever..
i'ma try to listen to this a bit to try and get back into the swing of recording.. people keep asking me if i still rap or when i'm going to do it.. i appreciate that.. i'm hopefully gearing up to drop something cool.. no promises.. but since i've kinda stopped unsuccessfully chasing women- i find myself with more time on my hands
anyway.. if i sound rusty or wack.. forgive me.. i literally just set my stuff up