the last part of m.c.s. is still on its way.. i'm not sure how long it'll be but i just want to let it be known that i haven't forgot about it... but it might be a minute
as far as the pictures on the right side.. i think i may just leave it to the sonic and tails picture... i haven't really felt inspired this year and the gifs didn't work correctly for some reason
tonight a girl from my job who is a lesbian let me read her raps
i was reading them then the lyrics got into the whole lesbian thing so i just closed the notebook and gave it back to her
she was like "what did you think?" i was like "its not really my cup of tea"
keep in mind that i make music.... so i really wanted to encourage her, but i couldn't based on her content
*rewind back 2 yrs ago when i was still in college in clarksville*
i met a girl who rapped.. so i went to her house to talk about music but i soon realized she was a lesbian.. and as she was playing me one of her songs, in it she said: "if loving you is wrong, i don't want to be right"
which is basically like her saying "i choose my sin of homosexuality over the walk of righteous living"
*back to the present*
so then tonight it happened again with this girl at my job..
when i was reading her rap, one of the lines said: (and i quote) "who needs heaven when i got you"
which is basically like her acknowledging that her lesbianism is leading her away from the pearly gates
this is a shame imo, because its one thing to just be in sin and not know it.. but if you already know you are in sin and you know in the back of your mind it is wrong.. then why don't you stop?
and i'm not trying to just say "stop" like as if to say it will be easy or simple to stop your sin
what i'm saying is why don't you AT LEAST pray to God that He will help you let it go.. i mean it may not work right away, but I'd imagine after a while God would grant that prayer for you.. i mean anything is better than being proud of your sin and saying "who needs heaven" smh
why don't you at least just be like "God i know this is wrong and i'm doing it but please help me to get my life right" or "God if you think this is wrong then please show me"
its sad when people (like those two girls) know their sin and they don't do anything about it
i'm not trying to be holier than anyone or anything like that, i'm just pointing out that this is a problem we have in society.. many people know they are sinning but they don't repent or ask God for help.. they acknowledge that they are wrong but they don't care enough to change
we should try to repent.. even DURING our sin we should say "God, i'm sinning but help me to let this go because this displeases you"
then maybe He will have mercy on us and help us to have the strength to overcome our struggles
this is an oddly personal entry.. when i got to seattle i ended up hearing this song on the radio.. then while i was there i bought the album
however i felt that this song was way better than the rest of the album, so i kinda ended up listening to this song the whole time i was out there..... in other words
this song completely represents seattle to me.. both because of my experience with it in the city.. as well as because i believe it fits that whole area.. seattle, tukwila, tacoma, etc.
listen to it i'm sure you'll agree with me.. i think sharing this feels personal because my experience in that city with this song was just one of those things.. an irreplaceable moment in time where you feel everything around yourself
...they step up in the building to the smell of piss/
the sight of urine stains should drive them pure insane/
but its embedded there, the ghetto is everywhere/
they're used to the dark, the sun is hardly ever there/
mothers are lonely, their son is hardly ever there/
until he dies and at funerals the family gathers/
and they sing in the rain like fred astaire/
this was on his album sober karaoke.. which i'd say is a classic.. no one really knows about it but its one of the best rap albums out there
i can't believe how good some of his lines were on that album man.. smh
the ice bucket challenge is the stupidest thing ever
people are such followers its ridiculous
it all reminds me of that phrase you hear parents say "so if your friends jumped off a bridge would you do that too?"
the answer in america is yes
you see a few celebrities do something and so you do it too regardless of how pointless it is
"look! i can throw a bucket of ice water on my head! i'm just as stupid as everyone else! ahyuck!"
no one even knew what amyotrophic lateral sclerosis was a few months ago.. now everyone is just all about it.. do you know anyone with this ailment?
and i hate the way people raise money for diseases.. wtf man, like they have been raising billions of dollars for cancer for how many years and they still don't have a cure?
i don't see the point because if they had a cure which they probably do- they'd only suppress it and keep collecting free money
don't believe me? look up cars that run on water... they have had the ability to make those since the 80s.. but we don't drive them.. can you guess why?
how about all you pea-brained puppets put your money to good use and cure my student loans instead? how about that? and if you don't want to donate i get to click a button on my keyboard that will send a boxing glove through your computer screen to bash your face in
and another thing... guess what? ...you're gnna die anyway.. lol
why can't people just die the old fashioned way? people used to just get sick and die.. they accepted the ups and downs of life with a certain maturity.. but today? no- you gotta be sexy at 60.. you gotta be 90 years young.. you can't just age gracefully, and pass away.. nope.. you gotta be on 30 meds.. you gotta be in a hospital bed with a machine pumping your heart.. you got an oxygen tank and ish.. you have all this stuff keeping you alive.. what is the point?
you could prevent every disease on earth but guess what? that would just mean that one day you're going to die for no reason
when you donate all this money to diseases all you do is create incentive for people to not find (and/or release) a cure
f*ck the ice bucket challenge
you people disgust me.
when will you clowns get a mind of your own
"Political language is designed to make lies sound truthful- murder respectable, and to give an appearance of solidity to pure wind."
wow this was a great video.. definitely helpful for a guy like me
its hard to get decent advice on women that's not condescending and/or confusing... but this was legit!
one thing i've noticed about women is they like men who
"have their life together"
as a male.. i can say that "having your life together" is one of the hardest things to accomplish
it is massively difficult
i mean graduating school = hard
acquiring a car on low wages = hard
finding a decent place to live that you can afford = hard
if you did anything in college other than medical field or accounting then finding a good paying and steady job = hard
keeping in good shape, finding the time to workout = hard
again.. women like men who ALREADY have their lives together.. with that said- DOING ALL OF THE ABOVE THINGS ALONE (because women don't want you until its all accomplished) = hard
i am not complaining but real talk "having your life together" seems to be a long process that can take years.. its not like something you can just wake up and have.. you women ask us men for a hard thing.. however i do think its positive and if we do what you ask of us then we are allowing you women to make us better men
just like you women ask hard things of us men.. us men ask you to do hard things also.. we primarily ask you women to close your legs and i'm sure that's hard for you because i always hear women saying things like "i hate sleeping alone" or "i like to feel protected and loved"
so being alone and waiting for a husband is a struggle for a lot of you women (this is just based on my perception so correct me if i'm wrong) ... but if you women can adhere to what we men say to you- then when you finally do find a man, you will be happy you kept your legs closed to all those other men
conversely.. we men have a rough lonely struggle.. wrestling with the world.. but if we make it and gain the acceptance of a woman, then we will likely be able to look back and see that it was all worth it
i feel that for the most part.. all the wants and desires of the opposite sex are there to help make us better and keep us in line
that's why when men speak- women should listen, and when women speak- men should listen
take some things with a grain of salt, but overall.. there are some true nuggets in there
like yesterday i was on meetme.com and a woman left a comment saying "why don't men like me, yes i have kids but i'm a decent woman" or something
and a guy commented below her "men don't like another man's kids"
instead of trying to accept or understand that or say "how can i get a man despite having kids" or trying to HEAR him out.. she literally said "what you say doesn't matter"
(btw i might try to get back on there and find that and screen cap it)
we have to accept the words of the opposite sex to an extent because that guy was right.. do i think that woman is out of luck? not at all... but she's the one asking why she can't find a man but she won't accept the answer.. if she would listen though, then she might have a shift in her thinking and she could say "hmm.. maybe i should start talking to men with kids" then her situation could change.. but she refuses to accept the harsh truths that are staring her in the face
so when you hear the opposite sex speaking, don't always combat it.. try to let their needs, wants, and desires make you into a better person despite how challenging the expectation at hand may look
i don't know who this guy on twitter is, but i thought what he said about nicki minaj's anaconda video was super true:
wow.. i never thought about that but its very true.. if a woman ever came out talking about how she is skinny and guys like her and fat girls are wack then all the heavier women would rant and rave and riot about images in the media and "fat acceptance" and "fat shaming" or whatever they are talking about these days
if anaconda had been about how sexy skinny girls are then adele would've been on a talk show crying and whining about media standards and how nicki is so destructive lol.. its a total double standard
i mean look at this ish...
i tell you what, now's not the time for women to be talking about going on diets because the "bootylicious" "thick" "she-get-it-from-her-mama" thing is going pretty strong these days
at the end of the day though, men like what they like.. some like bigger, some like smaller.. i happen to like bigger
i don't know what to tell women except.. audition for the part you want to play
chances are big or small you will still get a guy especially if you are still proportioned in your size.. because its not all about size, its also about proportion
as a guy who likes bigger women i like it when skinny is chic because then i can get a pretty heavier girl without her being totally arrogant about her looks.. but heavier women in general (whether top heavy, bottom heavy, or overall just thick) seem to be in much higher demand right now than they were 10-15yrs ago.. sort of makes things harder for me i guess (at least in theory)