i did a job application recently that was 20 something questions then straight away after that i had to do an assessment that consisted of 129 questions
that is ridiculous seriously.. 129 really?!
i have to admit i'm starting to feel depressed
i did all that and the crazy part is i'm still not guaranteed a job at all
i am getting really tired
my life has so many problems right now its insane
i could go into more issues but i'll pass.. people rarely really understand the totality of what i'm talking about anyway.. i mean i try to share my feelings and people try to convince me why i shouldn't feel the way i feel
so what is the point
and that's my whole take on things lately.......
WHAT IS THE POINT
there are certain things I understand about women a lot more lately.. for example I used to always be like
why are women always saying stupid things like “I like to have fun” or “I like to laugh”
but I see now that what they are really trying to say is something like
“I am simple”
“I am fairly easy to please”
“I am available to whoever shows me a good time”
“this is the key to you having your way with me”
“I will be what you want me to be if you give me fun and laughter”
its also like indirectly saying “I am not very unique” which isn’t necessarily bad because as a guy you might just want a girl by your side who just sticks by your side and does regular “girl” things
I wonder if these women are literally giving you the keys when they say things like “I like to have fun”
They don’t usually say “I like it when guys give me money” or “I like it when I get compliments”
They say “I like to have a good time”
The more I think about it, the more I am seeing maybe us guys make things harder than they need to be
the fact that this picture exists is enough to keep cam'ron's swag solidified throughout the ages
The problem with tv/magazines/Hollywood are:
the images a person takes in will more than likely make them feel inadequate about their lives, finances, body type, etc.
There’s really no balance because you rarely see someone who is just "f*cked up" or failing in life, and if you do get a glimpse into a real situation, its usually in hindsight
Failure and negativity should be shown for balance’s sake.. like take stunts for example.. that’s why they have to have disclaimers.. because they literally make it look easy.. they show the one successful stunt out of 100 unsuccessful ones
It’s the same with these Hollywood people.. they show all these rich successful people and all it does is make you feel like you should be that also which causes you to feel inadequate.. when in reality you might be doing really well for yourself- given your circumstances and situations
I heard a Kendrick lamar song and he said something about talking to the light skinned girls and this made me think about how a lot of rappers rap about light skinned girls
What do you guys think of this?
Is it disrespectful to the darker girls or is it just something where you shouldn’t be offended by it?
I don’t really have an opinion on it so much but personally, I don’t think I’d go on a song bigging-up one skin type
But I guess in their defense, maybe it creates an atmosphere where they can attract more of what they want personally.. like if u do a song about liking light skinned girls then.. open mouths get fed I guess
But do dark skinned girls ever get props in songs?
and if they do, but the song is "conscious" rap.. does it still count?
I thought a little about old love vs new love.. or maybe I should say.. a love you have history with vs an ‘unfamiliar’ face
There are pros and cons to each
The pro with having history with someone is they understand each aspect of you.. one tiny facial expression change is enough for them to see what you are feeling
The con is that sometimes familiarity breeds contempt and maybe they will grow bored with how predictable you have become
The con of a new person is they don’t always get how you tick.. one issue I sometimes have is when I laugh and people are like “why is that funny?” but that’s just how I am.. I laugh.. people who really know me understand that
The pro of a new person is they don’t know your past, or your quirks, or bad habits.. you can create a new image, a more positive one and occupy that without being questioned about it
Having a new identity around people can help a person to live a more righteous lifestyle.. for example, when people have kids and their kids think their parents are perfect, it creates an atmosphere where the parent actually wants to live up to that.. you can really flourish into something great when you are not constantly bogged down by an old embarrassment, memory, or image a person has of you
Basically a new love allows you to reinvent yourself
i think these two women look alike
the first girl is royce reed, the second is maliah michel
i don't think royce is pretty, but maliah is gorgeous (google her if interested).. but they still look similar to me
i remember one time i met identical twin girls and one was really pretty and the other one wasn't.. it was so weird.. but that's what this reminds me of
when women on dating sites post pictures of themselves in hotel rooms, I always think “who did she smash that night?” and I always think it was whoever took the picture
I don’t know if women think this far, but this is not a good visual to put out there, you are making the “good” dudes not want to talk to you and you are making the “bad boys” imagine how easy its going to be to smash
Why put that image out there like that? Do women care?
You are in a hotel room in a revealing dress and someone (LIKELY A GUY BECAUSE IF IT WAS A GIRL SHE’D BE IN THE PICTURE WITH YOU) is taking a picture of you.. I can imagine what is going on..
its just not a positive image to put as a first impression on a dating site
I had a job interview recently and a woman at a desk asked me if I was nervous.. I told her no.. and I thought about her question a little.. I kinda asked myself “why am I not nervous?”
once when I was a young teen I went to a cd store and I had really bad social anxiety at the time like worse than what I have now
I remember I made myself ask for a cd and i was so nervous my eyes started watering.. just from an interaction that simple
I know REAL social anxiety and nervousness.. maybe not the worst in the world, but when I was younger I used to get these weird feelings in my stomach like every day.. like a feeling of impending doom is the only way I can describe it
I used to have serious issues.. being the only black guy and having acne on top of that.. dealing with constant comments reminding me I’m “the black guy” and I’m being tolerated but not accepted.. that stuff can really wear you out and mess with your head over time
But looking back I’m kinda glad I went through those times because I kinda feel like I’ve developed certain things from it.. maybe that’s why I don’t get nervous in some situations today
But for the record I sometimes still don’t want to be around people
I don’t want to hear girls on dating sites talking about how they’re “educated”
i finished college and i STILL think that statement sounds arrogant "i'm an educated strong blah blah blah"
Ok maybe you went to college but your Bible is probably collecting dust so as far as I’m concerned your brain is still empty
and you're obviously not humble so...
some guy put out an album about black history recently so I checked it out and while the content was good, I realized how much black people need to stop with the “nigga” and “bitch” thing
the language in the album totally compromised the message
I thought about it a little and realized its like telling your mom: “I love you, bitch”
It just ruins the whole message of what you are saying.. I just wish black people would realize this and take the music back
How can you really be respectful or pay homage when you color everything through such disrespectful language
i've said this before but i'll say it again.. I don’t want to hear women talking about being ‘independent’ ..when you really think about what that means.. you’re really just saying you have a job
I mean seriously that could be the only thing you have going for yourself.. you could have an std and be out of shape and be going to therapy every week.. stop trying to impress people with your “independence”
I GET IT, YOU HAVE A JOB.. WOW.. BRAVO YOU F*CKING IDIOT
Why wave that flag all the time?
That is so damn annoying
when i was a kid i used to always have this problem where my parents would tell me to do something and i would think once i finished it, i would be done
but instead of being done, they would tell me to do something else
i'd be like "hey i washed the car!" and i'd just be waiting for like a "good job thanks" or something, but instead- a lot of times i'd just get another task.. "good now clean the garage"
its hard to explain how demoralizing that is
when i think back to that.. i can see how that probably shaped my life in a negative way.. sometimes i feel like "what is the point" of doing something because in my head i think there will just be more work, problems, or red tape once a positive task is accomplished
i find it funny that this is actually a reflection of my life today
i was hoping my life would get better after finishing school but honestly i kinda feel like i still don't get a break.. i am qualified to do more jobs now but from what i've experienced- the doubt is still there
its still the same old "he said one thing wrong, lets hire the next person" "he didn't wear a blazer, he must not want this job" "he only put down two references.. we can't trust him"
i don't know for sure that this^ is what it is but it sure is what it seems like..
its like i did the alotted chore but the "good job, now you can play your video game" isn't there
i went to school but the "prize" is not there.. the difference between graduating and not graduating might be something like a two dollar an hour difference.. as opposed to a good career where you can actually support yourself and feel good about where you are in life
honestly it feels like a bait and switch to me
"go to college or else you'll end up flipping burgers"
*goes to college*
*ends up flipping burgers*
"go to college and you'll make a million dollars more over 20 yrs"
*goes to college*
*ends up in debt for 20 yrs*
ok that concludes my random thoughts, holla
joe budden has been tied to many gorgeous women including all the ones you see here and more
no offense to joe budden or anything.. and i don't know his personal life, but i want to make a comment from the outside looking in
my comment is more of a question i guess
what is the point of having all these great women if you only want to use them for a short period and then get another one? like what are you building apart from emotional baggage?
keep it real joey.. either build or destroy
i don't know your personal life and i can't say what your relationships with these women are.. but i would imagine at some point you have to get tired of dating.. at some point you gotta get tired of the ins and outs of relationships without commitments
i'll give you props though.. you proposed to tahiry.. so maybe you are growing up.. but she turned you down so from here on- you still have to evaluate your decisions
are you looking to meet a need and be a good man to a woman? or are you just looking to get your needs met? if you are just getting your needs met, that might not last long.. and in the end i would imagine you only irritate yourself because one day you have the baddest chick on the block and the next day she is with another guy
but if you hold her down then you have the baddest chick on the block.. and 10 yrs later you still have the baddest chick on the block
just a few thoughts
i think one of our biggest problems in america is high level greed
my main solution to this is that a maximum wage should be instituted
there should be a minimum wage and a maximum wage
the minimum wage should go up.. i say this because the $8/hr service jobs are difficult and people still can't afford to do something as simple as live alone
the maximum wage should be instituted because literally no one should be walking around with a billion dollars.. i say the maxiumum wage should be something like.. i don't know... $40million/yr
the government already knows how much everyone makes so once a person made over $40million.. anything above that should have to be confiscated and put into helping society to function
hospitals, schools, paying off national debt, helping citizens, making sure people have jobs, social programs, etc
a $40m cap is high enough to where people still want to strive.. but its low enough to where its not like a person just has absurd amounts of power
so with the minimum wage raising, overall morale of the country would go up and desperation would decrease.. causing crime and drug abuse and prostitution to also decrease
and the maximum wage would basically serve as a sort of reminder that we are all people.. no one is a "god" contrary to what arrogant characters like jay-z and kanye might try to say on wax.. WE ARE ALL PEOPLE, we have a responsibility to eachother, and it would serve us all well to have at least one law against greed
they say kids are greedy when they don't want to share an extra jolly rancher.. but the law allows people to be billionaires?
the government needs to institute a maximum wage and cut these arrogant characters down a notch and "water the flowers" aka help the masses in the process
sidenote: the terms of the maximum wage would have to be worked out for corporations as well.. not just individual households.. but obviously the rules and regulations would be much different.. corporate level gross profit caps would likely primarily consist of serious anti-monopoly legislation
...think my life is a piece of cake?/
complete mistake, you ain’t thinkin straight/
there’s a lot on my plate that I freakin hate/
like the the fact that I ain’t got cream or cake/
cuz when it comes to the cash, I can’t keep it straight/
friends leave and stray, playin keep away/
they pull their phones out and delete my name/
plus I wake up sleep and I sleep awake/
i might screw with this some more before i end up spitting it.. but u get the idea