i was thinking about my view of the world and i pinpointed the root of my cynicism
u know what its from? the amount of work you do is not matched with a corresponding benefit you work and work and work and work and you look up and you have nothing you have enough to eat and live in a house, but you don't have enough to really justify the work you put in i mean elementary, middle school, high school, college, plus whatever u do with your talents and gifts and you still have nothing to really show for it all i look at some people who have an overflow of blessings, but most people have less than what they put in that is what causes me to have an inner anger and a sort of bone to pick with life in general
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i just felt like saying this
it is important if you do music NOT TO listen to the most popular rappers remember when jay-z was the biggest thing ever and every rapper sounded like a fake jay-z? now its drake.. everyone sounds like a fake drake DO NOT LISTEN TO BIG RAPPERS IF YOU RAP BECAUSE YOU WILL PROBABLY END UP SOUNDING LIKE THEM SOUNDING LIKE THEM WILL MAKE YOU UNIMPORTANT IMMEDIATELY BECAUSE NO ONE NEEDS TWO DRAKES do not allow a rapper to get a cadence in your head .. do you this is just my opinion on rap.. its hard to stand out if u listen to what's current all the time i honestly recommend that you try to stay away from rap altogether listen to something old or listen to something people don't listen to like something from another country if you only listen to current rap, you will likely end up looking like a walking stereotype or at best- a carbon copy is it just me or is she like your best friend's hott mom she is looken RIGHT brah. i thought about something weird the other day
i have no idea what pepper is i know what salt is and where it comes from.. but i have no idea what pepper is.. what does it look like and how does it grow? i'm going to google it but i was just wondering.. am i the only person who has no idea what it is? ok i just want to get this off my chest
this was mad offensive to me recently i was talking to a friend and they were like "sometimes i just want to give up" so i said "what's wrong?" they were like "i don't want to bore you with my problems" and didn't say anything else ok why even say "sometimes i want to give up" if you're not going to expand on that at all? look at it from my perspective... its like you could've just said: "JAMES, GUESS WHAT? I DONT TRUST YOU AT ALL" and it would've had the exact same effect i don't understand sometimes why people don't think i'm a good enough friend to share things with when i really try to be open and cool with everyone thanks a lot, "friend" smh i thought the other day about michael jackson and his development as an artist and i also thought about his fans
i thought about how michael was the frontman to the jackson 5 for years then he started to branch out and go solo, so i was thinking his fans must've already been like wow this dude is dope so then motown 25 came and i thought about the moonwalk and the impact it must've had on the fans i was just imagining how dumbfounded everyone must've been to see this dude on stage solo walking backwards i mean seriously everyone must've lost their minds.. no one knew about the moonwalk back then, and it was before the internet- so people couldn't look up 'how-to' videos or anything.. it must've been pure speculation as to how this dude was walking forward but moving backwards i'm not trying to give michael props or anything i'm just saying.. peoples' heads must've straight up exploded ! as a matter of fact, i think i'm gnna ask some older people if they remember motown 25 and if they remember that first moonwalk.. i want to see if they really flipped their lid the way i imagine they would have i want to talk about what was probably my biggest adrenaline rush
one time i turned a paper in.. i was like 19 in college at the time the thing about the paper was i basically wrote the same paper for two diff classes one of the teachers called me and left a message saying she wanted to discuss the paper she said there was something weird about my paper and she said something like she hadn't graded it, she had only looked at it or something like that (i can't really remember every circumstance) but anyway what basically ended up happening was she was going to call another professor of mine and try to see if i wrote the same thing for their class.. (btw.. i don't even think writing the same thing for two classes is bad since they're both ur work but i could tell she didn't feel the same) so i had an idea to rewrite the paper and switch it since she told me she hadn't graded it yet.. when i had this idea it felt like a long shot.. like i kinda felt stupid rewriting it when i had no idea how i'd switch it but i did anyway so once i rewrote it i walked to her office and noticed she wasn't there so i was good.. the only thing was her office was locked.. well i looked to the right and there was a thing of keys.. like a huge thing of janitor keys i picked it up and went to the bathroom (because there were people in the surrounding offices and the keys were loud) to look at all the insignias.. i finally found one that said 3c or whatever to match her door so i walked out and put the key in the door and it worked! the crazy part was at any moment a person could've came out of their office, or someone could've walked up from around the corner.. if they would've seen me with the keys i would've been in major trouble.. but nope.. i got in clean so i was in this teacher's office alone, thinking.. if she comes in here i'm screwed.. so i found my paper.. she was obviously grading the papers.. like they were all laid out on her desk.. a few were graded but most weren't.. i found mine and i replaced it with the new paper.. then i walked out of the office and put the keys back on the loud tray they had them on then i dipped faster than balls when i was finally outside i felt the adrenaline all over me and i realized how solid snake from metal gear must've felt she never said anything else about the paper because since i had changed it so much she obviously couldn't prove anything.. and i got a good grade on it lol but i admit one day i felt someone watching me and i looked over and saw her so maybe she knew but just couldn't prove anything i am getting a mixed message from women
they say they want you to love them and they want to be important to you.. they want to mean a lot to you.. they want their presence to be missed.. they want to affect your decisions.. they want you to care for them over other things however there is another place where it seems like women want to be in a lesser place in your life.. a lot of times it seems like if you do things to please them, they feel like you're not a leader.. they'll sometimes say things like "i don't want that kind of power" or "i don't want to be his whole life" or they will say "he does whatever i tell him to" and they will see that as a negative so which is it.. do women want to be number one in a man's life, or do they want to be relegated to a place where they are considered to be fairly easily replaceable? a girl will one day say "why are you spending so much time with your friends" but on the other hand she will also say "i don't want to be your whole life, you don't need to be up under me every moment" SO WHICH IS IT me personally.. i lean toward giving a woman a very important place in my life.. that's what i naturally WANT to do.. but if they're going to see that and say i'm weak and emasculate me and use it against me then i am going to show them another side and they probably won't like it |
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