what’s with this lance armstrong stuff?
I honestly thought he was innocent lol.. its madd interesting to think about u know? How often does this happen in life? U get turned down for a job because they hire another candidate, and u feel devastated, but in the end, that other candidate could’ve been a complete liar and cheater/swindler lol.. u are trying your best to be a great worker but someone comes along and they seem PERFECT, but they are only “perfect” because they have fabricated everything about themselves I take the whole lance Armstrong confession to be like.. a symbol.. like we all should breathe a sigh of relief.. we aren’t as terrible or as “worthless” as we feel Its just that everyone else is lying and putting on a front All those 2nd placers are now first placers Think about it. +++++++++ have u ever been curious about how something "bad" works? the issue with being curious about something bad (morally wrong) is that for the most part, bad things are hidden (done in the dark) so u only have hearsay and no visuals or anything.. just hindsight stories.. the bad thing i find myself wondering about sometimes is men beating their girls i am so confused as to how it happens here are some of my questions: 1. how do u build up to hitting your girl whom you're supposed to love? like what sort of argument leads to that? 2. the first time it happens, what is the reaction like? shock? anger? maybe even a false guilt like "maybe i pushed him too far this time" ? does she think she deserves it? 3. after it happens, how does she process it? like hours later when they are eating or watching tv, wtf is she thinking? ..and how does she have sex w/ a person who hits her? like how does that thought process go? .. like how can u ever even be 'in the mood' after that? 4. WTF IS SAID DURING AND AFTER THIS EXCHANGE? "ouch?" like seriously i want to know what words are exchanged when a guy slaps his girlfriend.. i want to be a fly on the wall because i can't imagine what that scenario is like.. AT ALL 5. does she think the physical abuse will stop? or does she expect it to happen again? is she now paranoid? 6. public perception.. she has to know her friends and family wouldn't approve so does she stay away from them? or just act like everything's fine? how can she look herself in the mirror knowing her life is a lie now? how does she get on facebook and post pics of herself and her guy smiling when she knows he hits her? what is it like to just put on a huge front for EVERYONE including herself? 7. how does he feel knowing he hit his girl? like how can he look himself in the mirror in the morning? does he feel good about himself? 8. what does the girl think of her "value" after she is hit? how does she continue in the relationship knowing anything she does is up for criticism, and/or physical and verbal abuse? ESPECIALLY when she is pretty? like how does she "justify" this behavior? ^those are just SOME of my questions.. they go ON AND ON AND ON this whole scenario is just something i don't get.. i don't get how it works because in my head, someone hits you once and you leave them.. but so many chicks stay in abusive relationships like i said, "bad" things r normally hidden, but sometimes i find myself wanting to see bad things for myself to understand them.. like i watched a documentary about heroine users and in a lot of ways i "get it" now.. i don't get how domestic abuse works.. just seems really stupid to me.. ESPECIALLY when the girl is pretty.. that just boggles my mind because she has so many options when girls get abused in relationships and they stay.. that is something i just don't understand at all.. so maybe i can find a documentary on it or something.. i'll look around ++++++++ so lately ive been thinking about the number system (as it pertains to rating people 1-10) i came to the conclusion that anything in the 1-4 range is something that is not really worth your time at all 5's and 6's can be fun to hang out with but they are probably not your type 7, 8, 9, and 10 are all people you probably like (or develop a like for) and so they are people you could possibly have a relationship with if things go well between you the number system can be looked at in different ways.. a person can be a 9 in looks but a 5 in personality so you may say they are a 7 overall, or if you're into looks they may remain at a 9 or if you're into personality they may stay at a 5 do u guys think the number system is different depending on gender? people say men put more importance on looks while women put more importance on personality.. i don't know if this is true or not and not to diss girls but i don't believe anything they say because i have found that they say one thing and do another a lot of times.. for example "i want a guy to pursue me" but they end up pursuing guys and ignoring the ones who pursue them.. or "i want a God-fearing man" and they end up dating egotistical assholes who have 'self' as their god.. my point is a lot of women would probably say their number system is one way when in reality its not like that AT ALL like i knew one girl who "just wanted someone who loved and appreciated her" but she had just divorced her husband who loved, appreciated, and adored her.. just didn't make any sense to me but anyway i just wanted to talk about the number system.. everyone places a different amount of importance on different things and this is one area where i think actions definitely speak louder than words +++++++++++ so i read online that over 20 video game studios closed in 2012 this really made me sit and think for a bit then i thought about a lyric from mase i heard years ago "i'm the newest member of the badboy team/ and i'ma bring this ngga puff madd more cream/" wow mase really had the right attitude when it came to employment! he is showing commitment to his job and to the well-being of his boss i remember hearing this line a long time ago and now it seems like it makes a lot more sense considering these game company shut-downs basically, you think you're working for a paycheck that will always be there however your boss has to get paid before you get paid you want to focus on keeping your boss and business afloat so that you can remain afloat because if your boss and business tank then in some ways you do too.. so don't try to get over on your job or boss because u never know if cutting corners might be the death of the whole company! just a thought bible version? "work as unto the Lord" +++++++++ i saw catfish and it made me think about how people lie on the internet the internet actually makes me MORE truthful about my life.. not less i don't really see why you'd lie on the internet.. there's more social pressure in person than behind a computer screen... so why lie on a computer? don't get me wrong though.. i know what its like to not be who you want to be yet you have a temptation to lie about who you are because you want to be seen in a good light.. but it just goes back to being patient and humble have the humility to be honest about where you are in life if you're 100lbs overweight then hey, it is what it is for right now if you are broke as balls.. hey, it is what it is for right now be patient with yourself.. whatever u want in life might not come overnight, but that's ok overall, spend less time being ashamed for where u are and more time taking pride/comfort in where u are going
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