i ordered this from amazon and it came today!!!
i barely buy dvds, i seriously only have 4 of them.. but i found this gem in a weird way
i was looking at something on youtube the other day and i clicked on a video of this show on accident or something, i normally would stop it but i was doing something else
so after a few minutes of kinda listening to it i was like wow this is an interesting show! the writing is really good and i was legit cracking up on some parts, so i bought it pretty much instantly
i got the whole series for a good price.. anyway, peep it out on youtube if interested.. its hilarious
i was thinking recently about my interactions with girls and i wonder if they know i won't die if they turn me down
i want a girl or whatever but honestly it doesn't bother me to be rejected anymore.. it has happened so many times that it doesn't affect me
not only has it happened a lot, it has also happened in humiliating ways or also sometimes in ways that cut me and caused real heartache
i'm not saying i'm completely numb and indifferent to life, what i'm saying is you'd have to have a piece of my heart to really get a rise out of me, other than that u can exit out of my life and i really genuinely will not care
i've even said this in a song before
"my heart's not cold i'm just seasoned/
so if u leave- it's something i'll deal with/"
so with all that said i wonder if i appear sad or pitiful to women.. do they fear they will hurt my feelings? do i look vulnerable and lonely or fragile?
i wonder if this is the case.. do women fear they might shatter my little heart if they tell me the truth?
i really started thinking about this.. like how do i look to people?
do people think i'm sad and depressed?
i am really very blessed.. do i show this enough? do i only put the bad out? i kinda think i do only do that but that's not because there is no 'good' .. i do it because i like to appear down to earth and relateable.
i hate pretention and pride so i am always talking about things that are depressing or irritating, but its not really who i am as a person.. i'm not always pissed off or unhappy.. but it might be the first layer you see when you meet me or say if you listen to one of my songs.. you'll hear me highlighting the negative because to me that is oftentimes what gives a song meaning or substance.. i can't really relate to the whole "rhyme party with bacardi" and talk about ice and fame and money crap.. but that doesn't mean i'm sad and depressed
i am happy about a lot of things- some are material, and some are personal development type things:
-i have all the electronics i want (ps3, imac, hdtv, studio monitors, mic, etc)
-i have a car thats paid for and runs perfectly
-i have the highest paying job i've ever had
-i am thankful to have a good/fun talent with writing
-i have a good church
-no girl drama in my life at the moment
-i ordered a dvd i wanted off of amazon the other day (will talk about this later)
-i have a lot of faith
-i legitimately don't care what people think
honestly i'm not really depressed or angry all the time.. i'm super blessed.. i am doing good
i just wanted to put this out there
i am very like demure and neurotic which probably make me appear weak and unhappy but i'm really a lot stronger and more stable than people seem to understand
just wanted to speak on that because people seem to try to handle me with kid gloves.. lol i can take the truth
i can't believe i missed this ted talk with matt mahaffey HERE IN NASHVILLE
matt mahaffey is one of my favorite artists of all time and also one of the most underrated artists of all time.. he gets a lot of recognition via tv productions however his actual music is largely overlooked
honestly his album called subliminal plastic motives is straight crack on rye (also check out gizmodgery if interested)
anyway.. this is not the best talk but his point is legit
this entry might get deleted cuz its gross, i just want to get these thought off my chest or watever
Ok.. so u might remember me talking about the woman at my job who smokes and sounds ridiculous
Ok so she has actually gotten worse somehow
I don’t know what order to put these in.. but
Exhibit a. I looked at her hand and she has warts.
Exhibit b. she doesn’t go on a lunch break.. meaning she doesn’t LEAVE to eat lunch.. this is highly disrespectful imo because we work in a room.. no windows open, and the door is closed
So I was working a few days ago and all of a sudden I caught a wiff of something foul
SHE EATS COLD PEPPERONI.
I looked over and she literally had a package of pepperoni slices and that was her lunch.. I was so grossed out
It reminds me of ghostworld when steve buscemi walked in and enid was like “THAT GUY JUST ORDERED A GLASS OF MILK! WHO GOES TO A RESTAURANT TO ORDER A GLASS OF MILK!?”
Its just so gross and weird I can’t even stand it
Yesterday I caught another wiff and I looked over and she had baloney or bologna or however u spell it
She just had it in a bag and she pulled it out and started eating it.. like there’s a taco bell and a mcdonalds across the street but she’s torturing my nose and my brain by eating cold baloney slices out of a bag..
at least leave the room.. when i have hot food i eat it outside of the room.. i only have things like fruit snacks in the room
This one is a doosey.
Her vagina stinks
Ok.. before I get into this, I have to tell u guys, I told someone about this and this conversation happened:
Them: “u don’t know its her vagina”
Me: “umm.. yeah I do.”
Them: “no u don’t”
Me: “ok.. if someone walks by you and their armpits stink YOU KNOW ITS THEIR ARMPITS”
*at this point they started to laugh*
them: “armpits have a specific smell though”
me: giving off the vibe like.. “umm.. yeah, do we really need to go there? Or are you ready to listen”
they got the memo.
I kno I’m not living like a jersey shore guy but I know what I know
So the woman at my job got up to walk out and I got a wiff..
I look up and I’m like.. WAAAAIT a minute..
So later one or two more times this happens and each time it coincides with her getting up out of her seat
I even looked under the desk because I thought for it to be that strong she’d have to be wearing shorts or something and sure enough, when I looked I saw her bare legs
Now.. THAT IS GROSS
This woman is old. Fat. She smokes. She has warts. She coughs 24 hours a day. She sounds like a hoarse man when she talks. She eats cold meat for lunch. And to top it off her vagina stinks
i don't know if i should feel sorry for her or if she is just a person with gross habits.. the smoking makes me think.. its the latter.. all i know is I’ve never been so repulsed by someone before
anyway, i just wanted to get that off my chest
I have been trying so hard not to say something.. her cough is the worst part of it all.. it is just so.... let me explain it
ok say you worked in an office and someone loudly burped 40 times a day
that's what her coughing is like to me.. its not a normal cough its just so disgusting an loud
A girl in the room we work in already got sick because of this woman’s incessant coughing marathons.. I gave the poor girl a health drink lol
I’m trying my best to not say anything because I know how politically correct these environments can be..
i mainly want to tell her to be more considerate of others, like do something about your cough or stay home til u can stop making people sick.. and stop eating cold salami in the room.. i probably could never bring myself to mention her vagina tho
but I figure, hey someone got sick so maybe someone ELSE will say something about this woman’s grossness
Til then.. I just turn up my mp3 player to level bonkers and breathe out of my mouth
shifting from college to the workplace, i have noticed there are a lot of smokers out there
smoking is seriously disgusting
at the job i'm at now, we can listen to headphones while we work..
the other day i heard what LITERALLY sounded like a demon whispering
i was looking around like.. man, what is that!?
i finally realized it was this woman singing to a song she was listening to
her voice is just utterly gross from all that smoking she has done her whole life
its bad enough she sounds like patty and selma from the simpsons when she talks
but when she "sings" she seriously sounds like a demon.. how pleasant
it is so gross!!!!!!
and she is constantly coughing
and i have to talk about this.. you smokers need to get that coughing bullsh*t under control
when i'm sitting in an office and i have to hear you coughing all day everyday and you're not sick..
THERES SOMETHING WRONG WITH THAT
i really just wish i could toss that woman out the window.. her smoking affects all of us in there.. she goes on break and comes back smelling like the back of my nuts
she coughs all day so loud it startles me..
and another thing.. the actual sound of it makes me want to projectile vomit.
see, smokers never cough like normal people.. no.. when they cough i can hear all kinds of snot and phlegm and bile all in the mix.. its never like one little cough.. its like it always turns into a big medley of different repulsive sounds for like 20 seconds!
you never want to make smokers laugh or anything because they start laughing then they start coughing and the coughing always gets bigger and louder and more gross than anyone wants it to be.. they cough until their smile becomes a concerned look.. and you (the person who cracked the joke) has to sit there and watch them hack until they stop
umm, yeah.. i'd much rather watch u LAUGH then cough and hack and snort like a f*cking jackass
and the last thing i have to say is this
you smokers are ruining your immune systems.. you guys get sick easier and you're weaker and more vulnerable to health issues, and you all bring this stuff to the workplace.. i know because when i sit in there with smokers all day i feel my breath getting lighter.. a lot of times i can feel myself catching a cold just being near smokers all day
when i feel this, i go out and buy a healthy drink after work just to stay afloat
i don't even go to concerts anymore because of smokers because when i went to see atmosphere in 2008, smokers were breathing that garbage into my ears (indoor venue).. i am not kidding my whole face swelled up to where i couldn't even eat and i had to go to the clinic to get an antibiotic
all because smokers and were blowing all that air into my ear canal and free radicals and germs just set up shop in the left side of my face
some moron said "maybe it wasn't the smokers" .. ok.. LET ME BLOW SMOKE WITH TAR, ARSENIC, AND TABACCO INTO YOUR EARS ALL NIGHT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU, YOU IDIOT
this deserves a mention..
i HATE captchas
these things should only be mildly annoying but when i see them i just immediately want to punch someone in the face
it seems like i can never get it on the first try either.. i always look at the letters and i'm squinting trying to figure out if thats an i or an l or whatever.. next thing i know i'm on my 4th try or something
i'm like 40 something hours into ni no kuni
here's a short clip i made to show a neat part in the game
as u can see the game is really creative
they should make a sequel but i think it should be less like an rpg and more like a zelda game
recently i was talking to elise and she said she likes a country song.. so i listened to it and its by that black guy from hootie and the blowfish
in the song he's saying "rock me like a wagon wheel"
i told her the song was kinda raunchy and she didn't know what i meant...
ok.. do people even know that "rock and roll" is old time slang for sex?
i was like.. "what did you think he was talking about?"
she was like "i don't know"
this really made me see how non perceptive people are when it comes to music
like for example.. remember that song by jerry lee louis "great balls of fire" ?
i don't think people realize he was singing about hell lol
a lot of messages in songs go over peoples heads basically
i've been watching "my name is earl" and i'm still enjoying it
this one episode i watched was really good at the end because he said something that resonated with me
he said "just because i saw a pretty girl doesn't mean i deserve one yet"
then right after he said this he got a letter in the mail from the girl he wanted and it said "remember what ur working for" (basically saying she'll still be there when he gets his life together)
that was so legit to me
that's kinda how i see myself.. like working towards a goal of being "good enough" for a girl and hoping one will still be there when i'm finally ready
i know that girls can be there one day and the next day be engaged- so any confirmation that a girl is going to still be there once you've created a good enough foundation is a welcome thing
because this thought is not exactly the most comforting thing in the world
unfortunately, you may have to add "and having kids or abortions or getting turned out" in 2013 lol
"they shoulda never gave you nggas money!" LOL
i'm out peeps.
so today i overheard a girl at my job talking about how she rejected some guy
she was talking about it and when she got to the part that made her reject him i was kinda like.... "that's it?"
she said she rejected this guy because he said "what's up"
this is why i say women are apathetic to men.. they just don't care about men at all.. its really weird to me.. something is not right
like i don't get how anyone procreates when women act like this
so i tried to clarify...
me: "you rejected him because he said what's up?"
her: "yeah, he don't know me like that to be saying what's up to me."
me: "what do you want him to say?"
me: "what's up IS hello"
her: *starts saying something else*
me: *looks away and goes back to work*
she didn't say he had a bad attitude, he didn't say anything crude, he didn't have bad breath, he merely said "what's up"
why do women do things like this?
a guy approaches you legitimately and you come up with any excuse not to talk to him.. i don't understand it.. i started to wonder if she's even single or not because that level of apathy is mind-boggling to me
to me personally, if you reject someone because they say "what's up" instead of "hello" or "hi" then you deserve to be single..
you have every right to say you want a person of a certain religion or a person who is attractive to you on some level.. but to think you can dictate every word choice a person makes is just taking it too far
she went on to say "i think i ruffled his feathers because when i told him not to say what's up to me he didn't say anything else"
i really wanted to comment to her at this point but i just left it alone
what i wanted to say was this:
"you didn't ruffle his feathers, he just put you in a certain category of women.. he's not upset, he just doesn't want anything to do with you anymore"
the same reason that guy didn't reply to her is the same reason i didn't say that^
she is already on the sh*t list.. there's nothing else to discuss.. its like you've already proved how petty and bossy you are so there's nothing else to talk about.. you might as well have said "i have a penis" because it would have the same effect as your stupid overthinking and holier than thou grammar nazi "standards"
i don't understand why a person would act that pretentious.. like seriously? "what's up" was probably slang in the 70s but honestly today its just basic language
i really dislike people who act like they don't know what words mean in an attempt to come off as high class
like if i text you and i say "stop frontin'"
i don't want you to text me back a f*cking question mark.. ITS NOT THAT HARD YOU IDIOT.. "fronting" comes from the phrase, putting-on-a-front.. how is that too hard for some people to figure out?
i seriously just do not get how a person could be that much of a faggot to act like they don't understand such simple "slang"
how about instead of pointing fingers at men like they are all making these huge mistakes, how about you just tell the truth.. you have no interest in men because
A. you have a "buddy" who keeps you busy... or
B. you know you are far too boring or weird to keep a man and so you save yourself the hassle of being rejected later... or
C. your vagina is a deserted abyss and you like it that way
women who act like this chick at my job really disgust me
always projecting their disinterest in a way that puts a man down:
"he tried to holler at me but his shoes didn't look right"
"he tried to get my number but he had a stain on his shirt"
"he seemed ok but he said what's up instead of hello"
this stuff is seriously petty.. i honestly hope women who act like this get what they deserve...
your standards aren't too high, they are too STUPID
i drew this^ at work at directv and this girl who saw it was cracking up and took a picture of it with her iphone
i also created a character named ghetto mouse but i don't know what i did with those
this picture i screen-captured reminded me of an entry i've been meaning to write about opportunities
here^ a guy asked this girl if she'd like to hang out, but her first priority is to see the chippendale's
this is not a diss to her or anything but i'm just using it to make a point
ok basically in life we all get opportunities, but its about what we do with those opportunities
what if that was a good guy who would want to commit to her, and do great things for her? what if that was a limited time window of opportunity?
would it be worth it to blow that guy off to go see men strip naked?
i can't answer that question for this girl but my point is not about that scenario its to make you think
LOOK AROUND AT YOUR CURRENT OPPORTUNITIES
how resourceful are you being? are you making the most of what has been offered to you? are you really using the tools, time, talents, and people who are at your disposal? or are you choosing other things over them?
think about it like this.. some things are more likely to yield fruit than others.. are you seeking to utilize the things that yield fruit? or are you just doing what seems easiest or most fun all the time?
the girl i used in the example has kids.. so should she try to have a stable man in her life and have that as a priority? or should her priority be to have a man shake his penis in her face? again, i'm not dissing her but just using this for the sake of my point
what i'm trying to say to anyone reading this is, really try to see things as opportunities, not just as mundane "motions of life" .. really try to look at your life and weigh things out.. are you perhaps turning down something positive?
earlier i overheard someone talking on the phone
this person said that the president of a company decided to have a meeting with an intern, but the intern reset the date at the last minute.. then the date actually came and the intern just didn't show up at all
i thought about what i overheard
what message is the intern sending?
also.. what possible opportunities or connections is the intern turning down?
was it just a mundane meeting to chat about business? or could it have been a turning point in the intern's life?
that intern will never know the answer to that question now.
ok that concludes part one of this entry.. part 2 is along the same lines, but it has to do more with fear and faith
don't allow fear to keep you in a box
i was watching some real estate thing recently and the real estate expert was talking and some random guy allowed his fear to speak in the form of a comment
he said to the agent: "well, a lot of people are afraid to get a house because if you can't pay then they'll foreclose on you"
the real estate expert was like "yeah that's true but if you rent and you can't pay, you're still getting kicked out, so you might as well put your money in something that can accrue value and equity."
my point in using that example was to show that fear can be completely illogical
when i was in middle school i remember one day i had a choice of going to the next math or re-taking the current math i was in
i decided to re-take the current math i was in.. this was a stupid decision on my part why? because i was actually passing the math class i was in
for some reason i just felt like i didn't have a real grasp on it so i felt "unworthy" to take the next math..
i regretted this decision once the next semester came and everyone was like "why are you in that math?" and i didn't really have an answer.. i just had to accept my own self-assessed demotion like a clown
i realized everyone sucked in math, it wasn't just me.. and now looking back (hindsight being 20/20) i can see that the teachers were bad also
so i demoted myself for no reason
come to think of it.. it happened again later when i was like 20 and my g/f at the time said she wanted to get an engagement ring and i didn't want to take that step because i didn't feel like i could handle the responsibility of such a title
well now here i am 8 yrs later and single lol.. so why didn't i just accept what i had at the time?
why did i think i "wasn't able to measure up" ?
fear keeps you from advancing in life
faith is the opposite of fear.. when you see people who don't advance, they probably need to face their fears
i am thankful because i have been crippled by fear a lot in my life but i honestly feel like i've been breaking out of that.. for example when i got my job at directv, i never stopped looking for more jobs.. i didn't become complacent.. i didn't say "this is all i can get" .. i said "i can keep striving" and now i have a much better job
fear would say something like "don't leave what you have now" "you need to stay safe" "what if your new job doesn't work out?" "what will leaving look like on your resume?"
deal with things as they come, don't think you will be able to iron out every kink and figure everything out before you make a move, because you will just end up talking yourself out of action.. JUST MOVE
imperfect action is better than no action
so when it comes to opportunity, the main two things i wanted to say are.. look around and NOTICE your opportunities, NOTICE the things at your disposal.. try to be resourceful
if you have a car, use it.. if you have the internet, use it.. if you have the gift of gab, use it.. don't wait for some proverbial "ok" or "green light"
also.. recognize fear for what it is... recognize when you are making excuses to not do something.. recognize that in order to get what you want you may need to shift to an attitude of faith.. realize that even if you fail you'll be ok.. the failure police won't appear out of the sky and beat the crap out of you.. you can try again.. or maybe the failure itself will just end up being a blessing in disguise
and here's a big one.. realize that if God places you in a role, you can probably succeed in it
let me say that again.. and this time i will say it with FAITH..
if God places you in a role, you will succeed in it
this^ is what faith is all about
changing your attitude, tone, perspective.. not having it all mapped out but believing anyway.. expecting there to be something at the end of the road without seeing the end of the road.. being positive
don't turn down a role God gave you.. embrace it and if u honestly feel u need more strength or wisdom to occupy the role ASK GOD FOR IT!!!!
remember, God will give wisdom unbegrudgingly!
you may not be able to occupy that role on your own strength so remember to pray and ask God for wisdom and strength.. don't turn down the role.. don't turn down that higher paying- yet more technical job.. have faith.. TAKE THE JOB, THANK GOD, AND ASK HIM FOR HELP!!
i wish u the best!!
so i was on meetme.com and i wanted to use some of these posts i saw as an example of women being elusive and confusing
this is not a diss to women, it is just me showing how guys see you and what we are thinking
this girl seems decent, i don't know her i just wanted to use her as an example
all these posts from this girl are within a day of each other
ok so a guy is thinking something like..
"she's a single mom so she's probably looking for a guy" ..not only because she's a single mom but also because SHES ON MEETME.COM
this is misleading though because she appears to be completely apathetic toward the prospect of meeting men (keep reading)
guys are trying to get in your life.. guys are trying to occupy a space in your life somehow
if you stop talking to him and he's still interested then he's like what gives?
my guess is that she just isn't interested, but obviously she's not saying that.. she's saying she's busy.. which is why he says "ok well then hit me up when u get a chance"
WHICH WONT HAPPEN
so when she says she's busy that's essentially a lie.. you can dress it up and say its a "not now" or "he should get a clue" but at the end of the day no one wants to be led on.. so lets call a spade a spade.. its a lie
she attempts to indignantly justify ignoring people who are interested in her
this one was just weird to me because she says "#getyourlife" as if whoever she's indirectly talking about has no life, or as if she has a 'fuller' life than what they have
she also called them a whiny baby, essentially insulting them because they express interest in her, which again ESSENTIALLY is her telling them to go away
btw.. if you are so busy on your "grown woman money tip" then why are you always on meetme.com responding to things that you seem to think are petty?
i'm just pointing out how her words and actions seem contradictory to onlookers aka interested men
here a guy asked her if she direct messages people
she didn't answer the question.. she also didn't acknowledge the fact that he ALREADY messaged her and she apparently didn't respond to it
here is basically, not a LIE, but a sort of lie.. it is an evasive tactic.. women do this a lot
instead of saying "i read your message but didn't respond" or "i saw that you messaged me but didn't read it" she avoids it altogether by playing dumb or averting attention to something else
unfortunately, her tactic points the finger back at the guy as if he made some sort of mistake, when the reality is she just isn't interested in him
my new gauge for these things is like this.. a girl gives me an excuse and then i ask myself a question like:
"if i was justin timberlake, would i have heard this same excuse?"
the answer is pretty much always NO.
and if the answer is no, that means she is not interested in you.. because its not a matter of her excuse, its a matter of her priorities
here she is contradicting what she said earlier about being too busy at work to talk or make plans or anything..
she's taking pictures of herself at her job and posting them to the internet.. and not only that, but she is typing out responses to the comments, while still at work
this kind of stuff is confusing to men.. we see it and we are like, "ok she said this, but she DID, this.. so which is it?" and normally when we weigh out what to do (pursue or leave her alone) we go with pursue, because that's what we want to do and we are giving the girl the benefit of the doubt like: "well maybe she really is busy even though she doesn't seem too busy"
but to any male reading this, i want you to choose the "leave her alone" option next time
don't listen to her words, look at her actions
she said she's too busy to talk to you but she's online all day taking pictures and responding to everyone except you.. revoke your attention from her immediately and seek to give it to a girl (or thing) deserving of it
she obviously has time on the weekend to go out, but SHE DOESNT WANT TO DO ANYTHING WITH YOU
this is what i mean when i say its about her priorities, not her excuses
so overall, i just wanted to speak on this because its very common
i'm not going to tell women to be more truthful because i highly doubt if that would ever happen
so men.. here's what i want to say to you:
don't waste time and emotional energy chasing women, tell them it would be fun if they came to hang out with you and if they give an excuse, move to another one immediately.. i'm only saying this to you because women don't say no, they give you excuses.. we men oftentimes will keep pursuing until we hear a flat "no"
in other words.. you will find yourself pursuing something that isn't actually available to you for one reason or another
in other words, you will be boosting her ego and wasting your own time
remember to ask yourself "if i was (insert guy that women love here) would i have gotten this excuse?"
if the answer is 'no' then let her go because she is about to waste your time
girls won't even tell you they have a boyfriend.. they will really word things in a way to where you basically think she's single but she's actually engaged
women really are that desperate for attention, so remember, don't LISTEN to her.. watch her actions
based on what i've shown from this girl's profile.. you can see that women can be confusing until you know what to look for