today my brother in law tried to kill himself.. he barricaded himself in his apartment and took a bunch of pills and alcohol
my parents are at the ER talking to him.. and my sisters kids are at my parents house why has this happened? ..apparently my sister has been seeing someone else i don't want to hear anyone else ask me why i want to leave tennessee
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so yeah... i've been gone a while
a number of things have happened since i last spoke in here.. as for my last entry.. i said i'd post one on moving out and one on relationships.. let it be known that i actually really did do those, weeks ago.. i just never posted any of it i wrote it out and i even did a youtube.. for some reason i couldn't make myself post them.. i can still post them .. but not right now cuz the stuff i wrote is on my other computer and i don't feel like getting up, i might post the video later tho btw.. i stepped on my laptop and broke it about a month ago so that's one thing that happened other than that.. i've had way too much on my mind to get on here and say anything.. its gotten to the point where i almost can't concentrate on anything.. i started having a lot of anxiety and i kinda lost my mind for a while.. i don't even know if i've found it again yet.. but i now keep a small journal in my pocket someone said "feeling listless? make a list!" <---shorthand version of a 2 hour talk you can fight anxiety and set clear goals for yourself if you write things down in a journal or whatever i started "dating" a girl recently but as of today i think that's over with.. she was ok and everything but she said a few things that turned me off so i ended up putting her on a sort of probationary period in my mind for a week or two.. and as of today i decided not to pursue it anymore.. i still think she is cool but just not for me today my dad went to the park and when he came back he said he saw a bunch of animals including a crane.. he said the crane was dead but it was still standing up i was waiting for him to kinda make that statement make sense but he didn't.. and the fact that he didn't laugh was as confusing as anything smh i don't even know why i shared that^ with you.. it was just weird.. i tried to ignore it altogether but as you can see, the thought lingers sometimes i think my dad is one of the weirdest dudes ever musically, i have gotten into tom vek recently.. check his music out if you get a chance, he has some really good stuff anyway be easy i won't make any promises.. i'll be back when i'm back |
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December 2013
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