i've texted 4 people today... each one has been hours ago
out of the 4, only one texted me back
the one who texted me back said "who is this?" meaning they deleted me out of their phone
life is fun.
Ok here are my thoughts on the paula deen thing
I don’t pay her any attention and I haven’t looked up any information on what she did but from what I understand, she was using racial slurs a lot and just being demeaning to black people
Ok here’s my thing
I have an aunt who is in her 50s who is like 5ft nothing
She is the sweetest woman you could ever meet
She has leukemia
She loves to cook and she loves paula deen
That’s it.... so change “loves”^ to “loved”
How much hubris can a person possibly have to demean and revile a whole race of people?
Like you really think your ___ don’t stink because you have less melanin in your skin?
You’re really that arrogant and delusional?
You really like sh*tting your fans who support you? My aunt again, is a 50 something year old woman who goes to church, loves to cook, and has leukemia and you shat on her for liking your shows and recipes
GIVE ME A F*CKING BREAK
That is so disrespectful to be calling black people out of their name.. calling black people offensive names when we were the ones taken from our homes, taken from our families, beaten, enslaved, raped, and all kinds of other unspeakable nonsense
You might as well go outside with a swastika jumpsuit on because you are disrespecting a whole race’s struggle
black people suffered for well over 400 years and you perpetuate that white supremacist racist bullsh*t
Long story short
YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF
I am speaking on behalf of my aunt whom I love
Seriously she loved your show
You should be ashamed
I have nothing good to say about you paula but I hope you find God because the bible says revilers will not make it into the kingdom of heaven and he who hates his brother without cause is in danger of the judgment
CLOWNS TELL EM WAT WE THINK OF RACISTS!!!!!!!!
Ok soo… today I wasted time having an argument with my sister
She hit a button for me when she said I have no work ethic
(which is mind boggling considering how much she asks me for my help like with babysitting, or helping her with a job of some sort, or even the song and sound effects i did for her play a few weeks ago... but moving along....)
I need to clear this up
This is not just going to be toward my sister, but also toward misinformed women in general
I don’t have a job (right now).. and a lot of women say they don’t want a man who doesn’t have a job
That is cool, I have no qualms with that, its good for people to have standards
But there are two main issues I have with how some women view or approach me
Ok here’s my issue with my sister:
She judges ME (my personal character) on what I do or don’t have in my life as opposed to my actions
Here’s my issue with women in general:
They have that “no scrubs” attitude
Ok let me touch on my issue with my sister first
When you judge my character and you think you know what I do or don’t do just because you see the outside, you are wrong.. You don’t really know me the way you think you do
This is an example of my sister judging me on appearances as opposed to really knowing me:
Reality: I get up late because I was at the gym then I came home and started doing applications into the wee hours of the morning
My sister’s view: I got up late because I’m lazy and unmotivated
Reality: because I don’t have a girlfriend I’m looking at girls on a dating site
My sister’s view: because I don’t have a girlfriend I’m watching porn and using up all the lotion
Reality: I don’t have a job but I just had like 3 promising interviews this past week
My sister’s view: I don’t have a job because I’m James the mooching bum
SHE ONLY SEES THE OUTSIDE.. SHE DOESN’T REALLY KNOW ME
To an outsider, YES I PROBABLY LOOK LIKE A BUM, but if you were me you would understand I have been doing the best I can with what I have since about 2008
Have I ALWAYS had my life together? NO!!!!!
BUT WHO HAS NEVER HAD A DETOUR? POINT ME TO SOMEONE WHO HAS NEVER MADE A MISTAKE OR WHO HASN’T DONE SOMETHING THEY REGRET!!!
AGAIN, I HAVE BEEN DOING THE BEST I CAN WITH WHAT I HAVE FOR YEARS!!!!!!
Now let me touch on my issue with the general “I don’t want no scrubs attitude”
I love that women have standards but the problem is that condescending attitude
"i don't want him because he doesn't have a job" PERFECTLY LEGIT
"he doesn't have a job, so he's a scrub and i'm too good for him" UMMM... NOT EXACTLY
I worked full time making good money prior to college, I paid off my car in less than a year.. then I went to college, finished it, and I’m back to looking for full time work
I fail to see where that sounds “scrubbish” AT ALL
Before YOU had a job you were also unemployed.. and you probably told people lies saying you’re a vet or a nurse when in reality you were on career builder every night lol.. but when I’m in that same space of “in between jobs” you say “James is a scrub”
Look.. I could be out here gambling, or doing crimes, or selling things I shouldn’t be selling in order to make fast money but no.. I deal with what I need to deal with so that I can advance in my life without having a criminal record
Sometimes I may have to deal with not having a lot
Sometimes I may deal with having to live with my parents, or with roommates, or in a less than stellar apartment
Sometimes I may deal with loneliness because women want self-actualized men, not men who are still “working on it”
BUT THAT IS WHAT MAKES ME A F*CKING MAN
I ROLL WITH THE PUNCHES
I DO WHAT I NEED TO DO IN THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW
Why say I’m a bum because I don’t have the great stable lucrative job YET?
Why say I’m lazy because you see me living with my parents for a LIMITED TIME?
Why say I’m a weak person because I sometimes need help to get a leg up?
WHAT THE F*CK DO WOMEN THINK MEN ARE!?
I think women really think men should be able to “pull themselves up by the bootstraps”
It doesn’t work that way, I don’t know anyone who came out of the womb full of wisdom, strength, and financial stability
I am positioning myself and getting my life together the best way I know how so what is your insult for me?
Seriously what are you going to say to me?
I am a loser because I graduated college even though I hated it?
I am a bum because I get up every day and look for jobs and go to interviews?
I am a deadbeat because I took the initiative to buy a $600 gym membership and I lost 14 pounds?
I am a scrub because I’m not sexually experienced? Well guess what else? I have no kids, no stds, no baby mama drama, and my checks aren’t being garnished
WHAT THE F*CK ARE YOU REALLY SAYING ABOUT ME!?
I AINT NO DAMN SCRUB
I AM NOT LAZY
AND YOU WOMEN WHO DEMEAN GOOD MEN NEED TO SIT DOWN SOMEWHERE BECAUSE THOSE SAME MEN YOU SH*T ON WILL BE SOMEONE’S GOOD AND LOVING HUSBAND IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS/YEARS
Have your standards, seriously that’s great but don’t always judge by outer appearances and don’t be condescending to those who are in a certain space because trust me, the tables can turn.
here's another quick thing i've noticed about girls
they get something to eat and they keep asking you to try it
why do girls do this?
"wanna try it?" "come on just try it" "its really good" "why won't u try it?" "just one bite"
has anyone else experienced this?
are they trying to not appear greedy or something?
like i don't get it.. is it some kind of weird mind game?
if you ask me to try your food and i say i don't want to, then why continue to push the issue?
this isn't very bothersome, its a small thing.. but it just gets to the point of it being weird
this is a long drawn out talk about what i think female beauty is and/or should be, or what i appreciate.. you can skip this entry completely if you want.. i say that because i feel like its just me thinking outloud.. a lot of my entries i think are worthwhile however this feels more like thinking outloud and its very long so read on or don't.. its up to u
I want to talk a bit about beauty
I am a big fan of natural beauty
I think things like stretch marks, bushy eyebrows, and arm fat can all be a part of a woman’s beauty
I don’t really look at “imperfections” as imperfections all the time
I am a person who can develop an admiration for all that a woman is under the right circumstances
I mean being made up is nice also but I also just like women sometimes when they are just like… bare essentials I guess
I was born in 1984 so a lot of my upbringing was in the late 80s and early 90s.. back then I lived across the street from a trailer park.. I always lived in a house but 35% of the kids at my school lived in a trailer park, and the other 35% lived in the projects
What I mean is I always have loved “poor” or “low class” women a lot.. I generally think they are beautiful because they are more honest, less pretentious, more family oriented, more real, and they just have an aura of this down to earth femininity
I grew up seeing these type of women, I grew up seeing their love and care despite the fact that they didn’t have the money for the expensive cereals, toys, and clothes.. they just appeal to me in certain ways.. and to me they just plain look better than a lot of the women who have the means to try too hard
Also in the late 80s and early 90s women dressed in a way that would be considered “dressed down” today I think.. like women used to wear baggy clothes, overalls, big hair, non-matching colors.. they just seemed more “loose” and less grandiose.. women generally just appeared more ‘natural’ back then than they do today
Do women try a lot harder today? I’d say so.. and one theory I have as to why is because the virtuous women have to compete with the hoes and the hoes have to compete with porn
The competition would have been way less in the 80s and early 90s since there was less hoe-activity and no internet for widespread pornography
^that’s just a personal theory I have
anyway… moving onto another aspect of beauty
i have heard some women say men want them hairless, I don’t mind hair.. I don’t think of hair as being masculine, I mean to me- if God gave you hair in a certain place, then God just gave you hair there
when it comes to gray hair I see nothing wrong with that either.. why hide it? The Bible says it’s a symbol of wisdom.. I say rock your gray hair.. don’t allow society to tell you that you need to dye it
some women say men want them to shave their pubic hair or maybe it has gotten to the point where this is just common knowledge among women sorta like shaving your armpits.. however personally, I have nothing against a woman with her natural pubic hair.. again it just goes back to being natural
I dated this one girl who was like a hippie once and I liked how she seemed ‘natural’ and ‘free’ ..she would do weird and cute things like I remember one day we were in my car and she turned upside down in the seat lol.. she was really a ‘go with the flow’ type.. and I kinda like that quality both in behavior and in beauty.. so if a woman has a crazy bush down there and she just lets it grow, I think that’s fine.. I mean you get pubic hair when you become “of age” so what is bad about that? Doesn’t it symbolize something?
This segment is somewhat of a sidenote:
And this is another aspect of beauty.. I think we live such distracted lives that a lot of times we don’t see what nature says to us
Back 500, 1000, or 2000 years ago, people knew a lot more about nature and spacey things than we do because they weren’t as distracted.. today we have a lot of immediate knowledge yes but what about these cultures with shamans and witch doctors and guys who tapped into spirits and native americans who danced to try to bring rain? What about those guys who could venture out at night and find their way home by looking at stars?
Do we understand how these things work today? Some do but the reason we call these things “ancient wisdom” is because we’ve lost a lot of this stuff.. we were more in tune with nature and what it actually meant before we became distracted with tv and kim kardashian and the video games..
when you go outside into nature you can basically see God and His everlasting creations, but today a lot of times we only see nature on tv.. 95% of our time is spent in a city or on a computer screen, so we no longer notice the things that speak to us quietly… because we’re inside watching movies or listening to gossip
for example.. doesn’t nature itself tell you that men are givers and women are receivers? But honestly today people are so distracted we can’t even see these basic things that are obvious to anyone paying attention.. people wonder about “why this” and “why that” when it comes to gender roles but much of what has been established can be seen with the naked eye
the bible promotes this way of seeing the world at times as well.. “what are the implications of God making male and female?” “what are the implications of two becoming one flesh?” oftentimes the outer is a mere visual representation of an inner quality.. “why are men taller and stronger?” “why are women more flexible?”
we have to try and see through the surface of things and see what God is trying to tell us “naturally”
even in the area of racism.. how can someone go outside and see 1,000 different trees, 500 different birds, and 2,000 types of flowers and determine that they are all good.. but then turn around and say one race of people is ‘ugly’ or ‘undesirable’ or something stupid like that? Variety is a part of life here, you are supposed to appreciate it not shun it
^my whole point there was to show that nature speaks to us and oftentimes has meaning.. so sometimes perhaps we should think twice before altering something that has inherent meaning and purpose
Anyway back to hair.. back when I was growing up in the late 80s and early 90s women didn’t really do their eyebrows.. again, it was more of a natural look back then.. I really hate it when I see women who cut their eyebrows off and draw them back on.. that ish is highly unattractive
when it comes to black people.. what is up with so many black people wearing blonde hair? Like if you do it for fun once I can see that.. I’ve colored my hair red and blonde in the past just for kicks, but I wonder how many people are doing it because they are avoiding being black
Beyonce and nicki minaj come to mind.. like how is being black ever supposed to become cool or nice or attractive or respectable if all black people have blonde hair and they get nose jobs?
This is off subject a bit
I also want to say that when I was growing up it was still rebellious for men and teen guys to have the one earring in their left ear.. by the time 2000s came then men were putting them in both ears.. rappers were the first people to wear earrings in both ears I believe.. I think cam’ron might’ve had a big part in it? All I know is by the 2000s, it was just like everyone was doing it
I am going to go on record and say I still don’t approve of men wearing earrings
Jewelry used to be a woman thing but now men rap about jewelry and carats and ice and colors of their gems all day.. I’m not into that.. its still girly because its superficial.. men are supposed to care about real sh*t
Back to women
The last thing I want to touch on is sweat.. I like women who sweat, I don’t think that is gross.. I don’t think a woman should have to hide her sweat because its “weird” or “unbecoming” I mean you’re a human
Overall I’m saying I appreciate women how they are
They don’t have to live up to some fake Hollywood thing for me
I don’t know why I wrote this but it felt good to get these thoughts off my chest
i saw this clip on youtube and when i saw this woman news anchor my jaw dropped
i can't believe how GORGEOUS she is WOW
i ripped this clip from youtube just to show you guys this woman, her name is malini basu
this is just a tip to women on how they can portray themselves in a better light and attract men who are ready for marriage
i had to talk about this because its a perfect example of something i deal with a lot in society
ok.. being a christian, i assume other christian people will at least try to do what's right or respect God
but a lot of times they don't
i'm not anyone's judge however when i see things like this girl's shirt i really just stop and think like.. "am i the only person who sees this?" or "why does no one else care about ____?"
i just wonder sometimes why is it that i am the only one who is "awake" ?
i don't even judge or diss people, i'll just ask them a question like "why do u do ___ when the bible says do ___ ?" and next thing i know i'm getting a 30 minute lecture on why i shouldn't "judge" people
if they only understood: I MERELY ASKED A QUESTION, I HAVE NEVER TOLD ANYONE THEY WERE GOING TO HELL
why is it that people just ignore certain things that are in the bible?
for example.. one thing i have an issue with a lot is when christians seem to think God has changed His views on everything.. like "oh that's old testament, but in the new testament its like this"
some of that is true because i'm pretty sure Christ's sacrifice did away with moses' 'book of the law' which was a lot of traditions and customs and ordinances that were more about symbolism than about righteousness.. however there are certain things outside the 'book of the law' that remain unchanged from the old testament
and there are even a lot of things even in the new testament that christians "conveniently" ignore
so anyway, onto this girl.. my main problem with this girl is obviously her shirt.. as you can see she refers to herself as a christian, so as a christian why would you
1. wear a shirt with IRREVERENT crosses on it? this is more like a vain fashion statement than a "thank you Lord"
2. why would you go as far as to disrespect the symbolism of the cross further by wearing a shirt with upside down ones on it? like seriously?
your shirt (having both normal and inverted crosses) is like a big "who cares" when it comes to Christ's ultimate sacrifice
not only does her profile say she's a christian, but on her about me, the first thing she said was "i love the Lord"
ok so then why would you wear that abomination of a shirt?
seriously why would you wear that if you're a christian?
ITS STUFF LIKE THIS THAT SOMEWHAT IRKS ME ABOUT MANY CHRISTIANS TODAY
they do things and you ask them why and they have no rhyme or reason.. all people do today is tell you not to judge.. they have no real understanding of anything in the bible the only thing they know is something that conveniently stops anyone from holding them accountable for their actions
i am not perfect at all or anything but i'm just saying we need to be open to correction while we are here on earth because turning from sin and being holy here are keys to getting into heaven later
when i see christians wearing upside down crosses, i see that as christians having an "anything goes" mentality.. but that mentality needs to stop because the way to heaven is the narrow path
is it just me or do women love seafood generally a lot more than men?
you say: "hey we should go out sometime" and a girl says something like: "do you like sushi?" lol
women like seafood WAY more than men
men treat it as an afterthought
women treat it as a delicacy
this is just a weird thing i have noticed in life