i really struggle a lot with thoughts of worthlessness i remember in 2010 a girl told me she hates herself i thought that was very weird well the funny thing is, i actually understand that now it is oftentimes a byproduct of rejection when a hard rejection occurs then the inner dialogue begins: "what am i doing wrong?" "why don't they like me?" "i must be unlikable" "i am a terrible person" "i hate myself" i've come to the conclusion that i just have to deal with it.. and by deal with it i mean go about my day regardless of how hollow my heart is i can't use my feelings as a crutch.. i can't just stay in bed and mope even though i want to- i have to get up and make wise decisions for myself despite circumstances a bleeding heart isn't a pleasant thing but... *takes a second to think* i knew i had a song for this
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