the thoughts Posted by poolboyjames on June 19, 2010 at 1:53 AM comments (0)i've been thinking
my life is in a pretty odd place right now i was thinking about my dad he got married at 26, at 25 he started begging my mom to marry him lol and today here i am at 25 dealing with the same sort of desire like lately i feel more lonely i think... like my whole life i've always been cool but nowadays i see myself as wanting something more to latch onto.. one time i was talking to my friend and he said women in general are deathly afraid of loneliness.. like they experience it in ways we (men) don't and today at 25 i feel like maybe i am somewhat getting to understand that feeling and this isn't necessarily because of any girls from my past, its just. i get this feeling of like.. when is someone actually gonna stay with me? its like i'm a child and someone always gives me a dope-ass new toy and after a while they always find a reason to take it away from me like why can't i have and KEEP a girl u feel me? someone i can shower with compliments, i want to know someone thinks about me and i want to know someone i hold dear is in my corner.. i want to have that added motivation for when i do things in life like in the bible (i forgot their names n junk) u had this one dude who worked 14 years just so he could marry this woman he loved.. and i can totally relate to that.. like if i had someone in my life who was worth it i could do anything with a limitless energy and zeal but being by myself things tend to get old quickly.. i begin to question what the point is of things sometimes i guess overall in life right now i feel like i've come to a place where i'm searching for meaning and significance it makes sense too because i just finished obtaining a lot of things i wanted like my own apartment, i got back in school, i paid for my car, and i built a home music studio so u can see i have achieved a lot of outward things in recent time, and its like i guess i've been forced to look at the inner things i dnt kno man but either way, my goal is to deal with these issues as opposed to trying my best to ignore them
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