the pieces may be forming Posted by poolboyjames on March 25, 2010 at 7:51 AM comments (0)i was thinking about manhood and my earliest ideas of it
i always thought of my dad as being very capable of achieving success at many difficult tasks i always thought like wow he's big, he has muscles, he isn't controlled by his emotions, he thinks everything through, he gets things done, he finds tools and fixes things, if he doesn't have the tools then he creatively finds a way to get the job done despite that, he spends hours doing things that look super boring but are really important to our family like fixing plumbing, or figuring out taxes, budgets, etc. etc. etc. i grew up seeing my dad execute tasks all the time.. fixing cars, building things.. just doin all kinds of things (^^takes a moment to thank God for my dad) anyway i have always thought like "wow i'm in my 20s and i STILL don't see how i could do what my dad does!" but those thoughts are beginning to melt away i think.. and i think the reason is because i find myself equipped to handle a lot of things on my own these days like if i have a family one day and we need something in our house.. i feel like there's no real reason why i shouldn't be able to handle it in my own way cars keep changing and many people get repairs so even tho i may not know about cars, maybe i can be prepared for car troubles by having a car fund as for around the house.. i already know how to do basic plumbing on toilets as well as sinks and one major area these days is technical support.. and i have learned a decent amount about tech stuff from music and from setting up internet connections n other various things so maybe one day i will be able to lead a family (leading is synonymous with servitude) with the same amount of ability my dad has always had with our family i can also see that from my dad i have inherited the gift of foresight recently it has seemed like a bit of a curse because i always think ahead in a way.. and the issue with that is, it makes u and your life come across as boring.. i actually enjoy my life but being my age u sometimes feel like u don't fit in because while many people are concerned with simply "having fun", u are concerned with the future and what all your actions may bring but i have to conclude that still, it is more gift than curse, because thinking about manhood.. i see like "wow, this foresight i have will likely be the very thing that makes me ready and capable" foresight will shed light on a rainy day and pave the way for the future.. so i shouldn't have a hint of disdain for it overall my thought is that.. wow, its looking like i'm either all grown up today, or its just around the corner successful manhood has always seemed like too big a job for me, but recently i feel able btw here are a few other traits i learned from my dad: patience with those weaker than u high expectations from those u care about dealing with YOUR business YOURself integrity don't sweat small things but i'm out peaCe
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